Hi!

High time to update this little "about me" thingy! I'm Dutch, 24 and in uni.

I LOVE MERLIN. A lot. Like, really, A LOT. I love Arthur and Merlin so much. I don't care anymore about all the flaws of the show, and the way things ended (there's an unspoken agreement not to talk about the last season, right?) I am so thankful for this site, and the lovely Merlinians who write AWESOME stories and I wish fanfiction was recognised for how awesome it is. I'm SO happy to see that there are still a lot of Merlinfans around to write my favourite fictional characters in the universe. I keep discovering new ones and it's always a fantastic experience when someone gets the characters spot on and there's drama and angst and a perfect representation of friendship and love.

I try to review most of the stories I read, although this has become harder, because I download stories on my phone nowadays in which I don't get how to review... I try to write it down though and write a review anyways.

I've spent years reading fanfics on this site and still I've never published my own fanfiction. Who knows it still might happen someday.

Some of my favs I recommend (heavy on angst, hurt/comfort, friendship) :

Omens - LFB72
Of Twisted Morals and Human Weaponry - BeyondTheStorm
The Lost - Ultra-Geek
Healing Spells - BeyondTheStorm
Evaluation of Loyalty - Drama-Duchess
The Most Deadly Alliance - Emachinescat
Question of Motives/Brotherhood/Decisions - Alaia Skyhawk
And all stories by StealthDragon :)

I had a phase in which all the songs I listened to reminded me of Merlin and Arthur in some way (and I watched countless fanvids on yt which made me associate certain songs with Merlin). THE FEELINGS! Here are some examples:

Mumford and Sons - The Cave

It's empty in the valley of your heart
The sun, it rises slowly as you walk
Away from all the fears
And all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat
You cannibal, you meat-eater, you see
But I have seen the same
I know the shame in your defeat

Merlin: But I will hold on hope
Arthur: And I won't let you choke on the noose around your neck

Merlin: And I'll find strength in pain
Arthur: And I will change my ways
Merlin: I'll know my name as it's called again

Arthur: Cause I have other things to fill my time
Merlin: You take what is yours and I'll take mine
Arthur: Now let me at the truth which will refresh my broken mind

Merlin: So tie me to a post and block my ears, I can see widows and orphans through my tears
Arthur: I know my call despite my faults and despite my growing fears

Merlin: But I will hold on hope
Arthur: And I won't let you choke on the noose around your neck

Merlin: And I'll find strength in pain
Arthur: And I will change my ways
Merlin: I'll know my name as it's called again

Arthur: So come out of your cave walking on your hands, and see the world hanging upside down
Merlin: You can understand dependence when you know the maker's land

Arthur:
So make your siren's call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it's meant to be

Merlin: And I will hold on hope
Arthur: And I won't let you choke on the noose around your neck

Merlin: And I'll find strength in pain
Arthur: And I will change my ways
Merlin: I'll know my name as it's called again

Jason Walker - What if I told you

Merlin to Arthur:

What if I told you
Who I really was
What if I let you in on my charade?

What if I told you
What was really going on
No more masks and no more parts to play

Theres so much I want to say
But I'm so scared to give away
Every little secret that I hide behind
Would you see me differently?
And would that be such a bad thing
I wonder what it would be like
If I told you

What if I told you
Thats its just a front
To hide the insecurities I have

What if I told you
That I'm (not as strong) actually stronger
As I like to make believe I am

Theres so much I want to say
But Im so scared to give away
Every little secret that I hide behind
Would you see me differently?
And would that be such a bad thing
I wonder what it would be like
If I told you

Oh if I told you

Theres so much I want to say
But Im so scared to give away
Every little secret that I hide behind
Oh would you see me differently?
And would that be such a bad thing
I wonder what it would be like
If I told you

What if I told you
What if I told you
What would it be like
What would it be like
If I told you
Oh what if I told you
Oh I wonder what it would be like
If I told you

3 Doors Down - When I'm Gone

Merlin:
There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There's secrets in this life
That I can't hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away...
Maybe I'm just blind...
Maybe I'm just blind...

Arthur:
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
wants to be the one
You wanted me to be

Merlin:
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for your good

So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there

So love me when I'm gone
Love me when I'm gone...

Poets of the Fall - War

Merlin:
Do you remember standing on a broken field
White crippled wings beating the sky
The harbingers of war with their nature revealed
And our chances flowing by

If I can let the memory heal
I will remember you with me on that field

Arthur:
When I thought that I fought this war alone
You were there by my side on the frontline
When I thought that I fought without a cause
You gave me a reason to try

Turn the page I need to see something new
For now my innocence is torn
We cannot linger on this stunted view
Like rabid dogs of war

I will let the memory heal
I will remember you with me on that field

Both:
When I thought that I fought this war alone
You were there by my side on the frontline
And we fought to believe the impossible
When I thought that I fought this war alone
We were one with our destinies entwined
When I thought that I fought without a cause
You gave me the reason why

Nickelback - Savin' Me

Arthur:
Prison gates won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin'

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Merlin:
Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin'

Arthur:
Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

Hurry I'm fallin'

Tyrone Wells - Time of Our Lives

Arthur:
This is where the chapter ends
and new one now begins
time has come for letting go
the hardest part is when you know
All of these years when we were here are ending
but I'll always remember

We have had the time of our lives
and now the page is turned
the stories we will write
we have had the time of our lives
and I will not forget the faces left behind
it's hard to walk away from the best of days
but if it has to end, I'm glad you have been my friend
in the time of our lives

Merlin:
Where the water meets the land
there is shifting in the sand
like the tight that ebbs and flows
memories will come and go

All of these years when we were here are ending
but I'll always remember

We have had the time of our lives
and now the page is turned
the stories we will write
we have had the time of our lives
and I will not forget the faces left behind
it's hard to walk away from the best of days
but if it has to end, I'm glad you have been my friend
in the time of our lives

We say goodbye, we hold on tight
to these memories that never die
We say goodbye, we hold on tight
to these memories that never die

Both:
We have had the time of our lives
and now the page is turned
the stories we will write
we have had the time of our lives
and I will not forget the faces left behind
it's hard to walk away from the best of days
but if it has to end, I'm glad you have been my friend
in the time of our lives

Sarah McLachlan - The Answer

Read: /s/6995456/1/Cast-Me-Gently-Into-Morning

Arthur:
I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

Mumford and Sons - I Will Wait

Arthur:
Well I came home like a stone.
And I fell heavy into your arms.
These days of dust, which we've known.
Will blow away with this new sun.

Merlin:
But I'll kneel down, wait for now.
And I'll kneel down know my ground.

And I will wait, I will wait for you.
And I will wait, I will wait for you.

So break my step, and relent.
Well you forgave, and I won't forget.
Know what we've seen and hum with less.
Now in some way shake the excess.

And I will wait, I will wait for you.
And I will wait, I will wait for you.