on AO3, you can find me as well as bleeb90

Hi there,

First things first: Thank you for spending your precious time reading my writing.
English isn't my first language, and disease regularly makes my concentration dissolve into thin air; I would really appreciate it if spelling or grammar mistakes are pointed out to me.

Thanks in advance,
bleeb90

General Notice:

So, yay, I'm not dead! And I am back, with a totally different fandom at that. That said, the last 11 years I have not been able to be a participating member of society because I have a debilitating disease that leaves me cripple in many insidious not-in-your-face ways, that have brought my little 11 year younger workaholic self to my knees, and in need of therapy in order to be OK with simply letting things be. Now, who would've thought that years of having to tell yourself that it is a horrible idea to actually go out of your way and actually do something (because doing something means your body will make you feel very sorry) would lead to the thought of having to do something makes you feel a teeny tiny bit stressed?

So what happened?

The therapy that made sure that I wasn't feeling angry, guilty or depressed about being so completely useless that I cannot take care of myself by myself has somewhere, somewhen managed to turn me into a pathological procrastinator. Nevertheless, when happily PM'ing back and forth with someone about one of my HP fanfics, I suddenly got a friendly challenge for a story prompt and I PANICKED, and that really warrants the capital letters, because I didn't know what to do. I couldn't sleep, I pushed food around my plate obsessing over it, and I certainly couldn't write. It freaked me out to such a degree I couldn't even PM back and tell that person that I was panicking over being send such a request at all. It floored me, because I by all means I should have been flattered that someone liked my writing enough to ask for something specific to write, but all I felt was sheer terror.

For over a year I was turned off writing fanfics at all, and while I have dared to write a short Iron Man fanfic earlier, I am still not back to the HP fandom. It even took me a full month to cross post here on FFdotnet, in stead of only on my AO3 account, which I made after that panic inducing request.

So please be patient with me, and for the love of everything dear, please, please, please don't send me any story prompts, requests or challenges. Thank you.