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'And her heart burst like the stars do in the end, and She fell on her knees. But the whole world looked her in awe. She lit the whole universe with her fire for a moment. In the end, she was as beautiful as the stardust falling from the sky and her heart didn't ache anymore.' - Akshay Vasu

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UPDATE 09/04/2020

Isolation got me reviewing old stories and re-posting them.

UPDATE 16/09/2019

OMG! I feel sick. I literally deleted everything. Why is my head spinning? Why is this supposed be growth, cause it sure as hell doesn't feel like it.

Anyway (now that my panic attack is settling down) personal growth and all that jazz forced me to delete a large portion of my fics. Okay, lets be real. There are 3 left. I had 72. Oh no. The sick feeling is coming back... bleh.

FIC SHOUT OUTS:

Black and Blue

( M ) Complete

Author: RitaChaCha

Summary: Set immediately after Bella's wedding, Jacob struggles to cope with her choice and Sam's decision to assign a very broken Leah to patrol with him. Can two wounded wolves help each other to heal? A tale of love, lust, friendship and sacrifice.

Character(s): Jacob Black x Leah Clearwater

Me: I cried. So hard.

Everything about Rita is perfect. Her writing. Her characters. Everything. This is one of the most wholesome stories I've ever read. The character development and the journey they go through - BREATH TAKING!

Dialogue that makes you wanna slap your mother!

I felt closure reading this. Felt that every Blackwater bone in my body was sedated with this wonderful version of Jacob Black. His growth, maturity, and acceptance of responsibility is inspiring. Rita makes me want to live in this fic.

My girl Leah, super edgy and rough around the edges transforms (as much as Leah can haha) into the beautiful diamond we all know her to be!

Not just a sappy read. Everything is SO REAL! Real situations, friendships, relationships.

Anything by Rita, I could read over and over again.

Now and Then

( M ) Complete

Author: riveriver

Summary: She knew the moment she raced over the treaty line that she would follow him for the rest of her life. And despite all his efforts and determination to fly solo, he knew he would never be without her again. (AU series wherein Leah stays with Jacob while he refuses to give himself up to the imprint.)

Character(s): Jacob Black x Leah Clearwater

Me: The angst is here people. And I'm drowning in it. But there's also this vague feeling of hope and redemption. And it's coming, dear God is it coming.

In all honesty anything riveriver writes is down right raw and pure genius. Every time I read a chapter I am left wanting more. This fic reveals itself like a slow burn, scouring the soul as it unwinds.

Extra tip: riveriver writes Jake and Leah like a motherf... All this authors stories are FIRE!

The Garage

( T )

Author: riveriver

Summary: Everyone knew that Julie Black had been obsessed with cars ever since her dad died in one. (Life and Death's Leland and Julie)

Character(s): Julie Black x Leland Clearwater

Me: Stop. I can't breath. Please. God, I am so addicted to River's writing. I swear to all that is HOLY, the author needs to be immortalised.

Again, Author blows my mind. I just... It's a must read.

Extra Mentions: Check out 'Between Who You Are and Who You Could Be' and everything by river.

Masking the void

( M )

Author: me47e47l

Summary: They were two broken souls, each attempting to fill what was missing. But would it be enough...and what if it became too much? Jacob and Leah, post Book 2 of Breaking Dawn. Mature content within.

Character(s): Jacob Black x Leah Clearwater

Me: I'm not crying! You are!

End me. My life's is over. Author brings the angst so you need to bring the damn tissues. I actually bawl my eyes out every time I read this story. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

This fic sets the bar. I wish it were complete but alas, we don't always get what we wish for.

Scream Ferocity

( M ) Complete

Author: Hope Shalott

Summary: Those who hate most fervently must have once loved deeply. Those who want to deny the world must have once embraced what they have now set on fire. Leah finally snaps.

Character(s): Leah Clearwater

Me: There is nothing this girl can't do. I have one word. Ah-may-zing.

The thing that really got me about this fic is that HS doesn't give us a crying Leah, a love story and a happily ever after. Hope Shalott manages to give us an in depth look into the mind of a broken girl, through real emotions, real actions, and most of all real consequences. Even though the supernatural world is still present in the fic, HS shows us that no matter how strong Leah is, every girl breaks, everyone breaks and that a helping hand is worth its weight in gold.

There is no sugar coating and no fucking fairy dust to make the readers fall in love with the main character, Leah. It's merely what it is. This fic is pure angst, covered in some kick ass leather boots and a whip. The power of friendship rings true in this fic and has made my eyes water many-a-time. A fantastic read and one of my favourite fics of all time. Ever.

UPDATE* Hope Shalott is currently re-writing this fic. Get on board and leave her some love. Jacob's POV features more strongly this time round.

Broken

( T ) Complete

Author: Kei Kat Jones

Summary: He didn't see the harm in letting Nessie take his son for a walk in the woods. But Jacob learns that sometimes a leopard never changes her spots. One-shot.

Character(s): Jacob Black x Leah Clearwater

Me: Words cannot express how distraught I was after reading this one shot. But as always KKJ has an amazing ability to throw us straight into the mix of emotions. This fic won't be for everyone. I mean really truly mean that. Beware.

Kei has this thing about her. This crazy thing that I can't even describe. She knows. She just does. She knows my weakness, knows that I like singing in the shower and looking at baby clothes in the isles of shopping centres. And she uses it, time and time again to stun, break, and smash my heart into the ground with her fics.

Sharing my ideals over 'imprinting' Kei writes it the way it is. Take it or leave it. KKJ shows that while SM gave us a lovey dovey happily ever after story regarding the 'supposed' phenomena, that things aren't always as they seem. That sometimes, one single mistake, can re-shape the entire future.

Tip: Bring the tissues.

Extra tip: Soak up everything written by KKJ. She is a genius wolf tamer. Her portrayal of both Jacob and Embry always leave me hot under the collar!! YASSSS!

17/07/2012

Sam x Leah

This is one of the biggest dilemma’s I’ve had with Twilight. The greatest question of all time: Leah and Sam.

Do they really belong together? Were they destined for a ‘happily ever after’ if Bella Swan hadn’t enticed a certain vampire to stay in Forks? What about Emily, if she had never existed? What if Sam had never turned wolf?

Such a question causes my brain to hurt. Truly it does. It spins and cycles, turning question over question inside my little washing machine head.

Therefore there can only be one answer.

It’s up to us, as fan fiction writers, to make our happily ever after’s for both (or one. Personally I like my fics with a whole lotta angst and a choice amount of swear words) characters.

I see many sides to these two characters, which given the person, could love or loathe.

For me, even if Leah burnt down a church and stole the collection plate I’d still love her. Why? Because I want to. Because something inside of me relates to this chick.

I tread very tentatively around Leah and Sam fics. I don’t know why. It feels like fear. Or maybe nerves. Whatever. Problem is, Sam and Leah for ME are so much better broken. Being broken gives a character depth. Being different, being angry, being unloved, being a bitch, being an asshole that ripped your imprints face off… These people, these are characters.

There is a depth to these characters that you can’t deny. And to be strictly honest, SM does not use the depths of her characters to their best potential. My warped brain has learned (and loved) so much more about Jacob, Sam, Leah and the whole wolf pack family from fan fiction than SM original provided.

If fan fiction writers can write a good story, with strong characters, characters people don’t forget, portraying real emotions and real hardships then maybe I wouldn’t have to tread so lightly. With all Sam and Leah fics, it feels as though a giant piano is dangling off the edge of a building, swinging dangerously. Throughout the whole fic I sit. Hold my breath. Wait. And then when nothing happens, no Emily, no imprinting, I feel like a can breathe again and then ask myself WTF? Because I was waiting for it. The end. The inevitable.

While I have nothing against Sam, I feel like a lot of people write the two characters with other people because – one. New characters equal new story lines. Sam x Leah x Emily is SO dramatically canon, it’s like you can taste Emily slinking around the corner of the bar with her mega stilettos on, waiting for Sam to fall into her trap.

Two. I don’t believe the potential for each character can be reached by having the two of them achieve a happily ever after. I mean – what would happen? Sam and Leah go away to school. Come back to the Rez because they are both teachers and now they want to devote all of their time back to the kids. They get married. They have beautiful little russet children who run around the house with muddy feet. They grow old. They die.

Argh@@@ I’m doing it again.

Look. Sam and Leah for ME. And I push this. For ME can only be achieved by originality and heartache. I want Sam crying. I want Leah pushing him and slapping him. I want Emily to be some kind of a harpy bitch. I want to see what would happen without the imprint!!!

I want someone to prove me wrong!! I want someone to slap a Sam and Leah fic in my face and say HUH! This is it! This is the one that will change your small mind!

There is only one to date. ONE. That I would read over and over again in a heartbeat. It has now been taken down because I believe the author passed away but it was the single most beautiful, most meaningful, most REAL relationship I have ever seen from Sam and Leah.

But that’s just me. And I mean no offence to anyone liking this pairing. I know many people who loathe Leah’s character and calls it a waste of space. I know people who believe Seth and Renesmee should have ended up together (Aww Hell no *puts gloves on* He’s mine spawnet!!).

We like what we like. And no one should ever make you like something you don’t. My only advice, don’t block your options off. Try. And try again. Someone, somewhere, might one day surprise you. ;)

Nominations and Junk

Nominated - TwiFanFictionRecs Top 10 completed fics in June 2019 - Entangled

Nominated - The Fandom Choice Awards - Wolf Pack Fanfiction Nominee 2014 - All Time Favorite Author

Nominated - 2010 GEM Awards - Best Lemon in 'No Longer Losing' - Jacob/Leah

Nominated - 2010 GEM Awards - Best Use of a Minor Character in ' No Bonds' - Leah/Brady/Colin

Nominated - The Torch Awards - 'Tear me from the Inside' - Leah/Seth