I (sort of, kind of) participate (and by that I basically mean read) in mostly in the Merlin and Teen Titans fandoms. However, I'm not a big fan of either Arthurian legend or cartoons, nor have I ever read or ever intend to read a comic book, however Merlin is pretty far of from the legend anyway, though frankly, I tend to like the potential of the premise of the show more than the way they actually did the show itself (not that I dislike the show). For the Teen Titans fandom, the main reason that I'm into it is because I have a slight obsession with demons in fictional works and because I love Raven's character ( the latter is not necessarily because of the former). I also read some Twilight fanfics where romantic fluff isn't the main plot point and where Bella is empowered and has some bit of functional pride. Also some Harry Potter crossovers with any of the previous.

So... hey, I suppose that I should probably provide a slightly self-analyzing description of myself that will probably deteriorate into a series of rants that at only have any real organization or relation in the part of my brain responsible for imagination (though, it could be argued that the primary component of imagination is the mental creation or perception of created patterns and systems (or images) that were formed independent of dependent on facts and thus responsible for the ability to create a system of organization) and could probably be more appropriately used as a proof of mental instability or a diagnosis for an MPD (though I'm not either, as I feel necessary to clarify). Yes, when I'm in the mood I do have a strong tendency to rant; even if it is just a review or the premise is entirely fictional. I also overelaborate upon tangents that are of little conclusive significance to the main point.

Oh, and, also, yes, I am currently thanking and probably will continue to thank all the deities that I probably don't believe in for the relative anonymity of the Internet.

I'm slightly terrified to try to actually write something despite having several reasonably well developed plot lines running around in my head due to they fact that it may prove to be impossible for me to complete a story due to tendencies mentioned in the first paragraph, and due to the fact that I would probably end up trying to write something more like book, with it taking a dozen chapters just to move past the introduction. So if I do post something, I'll probably stick to one shots and work my way up, maybe... I hope. Though the fact that I made a plan already makes it rather unlikely that I'll actually follow it... Anyway, due to my doubt in my own commitment to beginning a written work I've put off making this profile for, well, a while and have just sort of been lurking around the site.

I'm an absolute book worm- I read obsessively, probably between 6-9 books a week (250-1500 pages per book). Well, normally anyway. Recently I've been getting hung up over a few plot lines, hence the fan fiction. Actually, maybe it's not so much recent as I'd probably continue to read about any story that I really liked indefinitely if it were an option (its becoming a problem that it is...).

I realize nobody likely gives a damn about my beliefs (and this bit barely scratches the surface), but this is also half me venting about things that annoy the hell out of me indirectly by generalizing it into a series of observations some of whose conclusions/summarization's are below (but only half). Also, this is my profile and I'm writing about myself, not trying to appeal to an audience...

I am strongly and devoutly agnostic (irony is intended in the word choice... I'm not really devout- at all (thank... my subconscious? personality? childhood? Nature?!? Nurture???! anyways...(see paragraph three)) despite the fact that for most of my fourteen years I was raised a Christian, and even went to an Episcopalian elementary school. I think that bliss is ignorance and faith is inherently blind, while belief in something, anything, is necessary to human society and generally something we do subconsciously because if we were to really think about the fact that nothing can be proven to have meaning in and of itself and apply that to everything, we would have no reason to live and society would break down as morals were disregarded and people ceased to give meaning to beliefs that have both allowed structure to form and were an inevitable result of it. So we make assumptions about things' significance and give them meaning within our minds, when really for all we know it all only accumulate to the void the that (may) come(s) of death, as the barest logic and science would dictate, rending everything in our lives meaningless as matter and energy continued to followed patterns without sentience until they eventually succumbed to entropy. (whistles cheerfully) ...(or maybe I'm just being pessimistic)

Also I hate absolutes of belief (with a couple of exceptions) (though I'm sure that you're already wondering why you're still reading this). When you think something to be absolutely true without any skepticism or possibility of doubt, and no evidence can sway your belief, that is a possible definition of insanity (doubt or, at least, the possibility thereof is a requirement to truthfully call yourself sane).

Of course anything that I just said in the last two paragraphs could be absolutely and irrevocably wrong, or would be able to be if it weren't more a way to describe a system of perspectives through a series of open ended conclusions, that in practice are more similar to hypothesizes, than anything else. Even if your beliefs are directly contradictory to something I just said, I meant no insult. If you took offense even considering the last few sentences or think ill of me for saying what I said (not for the content but for the act of expressing it), then you need to be more open minded or at least avoid imposing your opinions on someone else (I acknowledge the slight, slight hypocrisy).

-l

Annnyyywaay... all that, in truth, most people truly need to know about me is that I'm majorly screwed-up, a girl, and probably my favorite Christmas present this year was a sign/painting from my mom that says "do i look like a freakin' people person?" (it really isn't a joke, for the most part).

On the subject of Harry Potter: What Lilly should have done has soon as she heard the "prophecy" was a) found a way to delay her pregnancy (even by a single day; b) stayed in the hospital past the baby's birth and blac- convinced the 'healer' or midwife (whatever may apply) to record the baby as having been born after midnight on August first; or c) changed her prenatal physician to someone she could mani... trust on a more personal level, forc-persuaded them to swear an unbreakable vow to her, bought a baby bump, and then hidden the baby (with the physician she very civilly and respectfully entreated to swear a vow of secrecy), walked around with the baby bump on and finally "had" the baby a few weeks into the next month. That way she lives, the baby lives, and nobody except the Longbottoms die unnecessarily... but really that's not her problem.

To my slight shame, I'm participating in the entirely unoriginal idea of posting quotes that I like (most of which are probably from other profiles) if only because I have no where better to make such a list.

"It's you and me against the world... we attack at dawn."

"The evil that is in the world almost always comes of ignorance, and good intentions may do as much harm as malevolence if they lack understanding."

"The belief that there is only one truth and that oneself is in possession of it seems to me the deepest root of all evil that is in the world."
- (, of course I'm interpreting the evil bits as idiomatic/hyperbolic/representive terms)

Faith is for those afraid to admit they just don't know. It's okay to not know.

"Only a small part of what we know and believe is fact. The rest is perception. What matters is understanding the difference." (or at least that there is one)

"As for me, all I know is that I know nothing." -Socrates

They must often change, [those] who would be constant in happiness or wisdom. -Confucius

"Our greatest glory is not in never failing but in rising every time we fall."

Often excess of pride indicates a lack of a anything to be proud of. (and that's paraphrasing something I read... somewhere, also, it's not that I have anything against pride, it's just a good perspective to consider in a debate)

People fear death even more than pain. It's strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over.

"You're doomed! I'm doomed! We're all doomed! Notice I didn't specify what type of doom, so whatever happens, I predicted it." -Angela, The Inheritance Cycle

Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

"'Normal' people scare me."

"Where negotiation and diplomacy fail, high explosives substitute nicely."

"Forgive your enemies, nothing annoys them more."

"Smile, it makes people wonder what you're up to."

"Tell the truth and run."

"Don't take life too seriously: nobody ever escapes it alive anyway."

"Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died."

"When Life gives you lemons, make grape juice, and sit back and watch the world wonder how you did it."

"I didn't say it was your fault, I just said I was going to blame you!"

"Reality continues to ruin my life."

"There is great need for a sarcasm font."

"Bad decisions make good stories."

"One day, we will look back on this, laugh nervously, and change the subject."

"You're just jealous because the voices only talk to me."

Skill is successfully walking a tightrope over Niagara Falls. Cunning is getting some else to do for you, while Wisdom is not trying and Ambition is building a damn bridge. However Intelligence and Common Sense are slowlllyyyy backing away from the nice person who suggested it.

I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

Is it just me or is anyone else wondering what the profile page entirety of has against indentation?