Hey, look, a change of profile. Refresh and reboot. Mainly because it was getting old and did not represent me anymore. It represented the goals and aspirations that I did have. And I still had them up until about eight months ago, when I finally settled into the job that I have had for years. I did not consciously notice that what I wanted from life had changed, but one day I just sort of woke up and realised that I was content doing what I was, and I actually did not want the goals that I had set myself when I was a child. I have no idea why I am only just changing this now, by the way. It just seemed right.

I write to get out of my head. To try and unwind the mess of emotions that play around up there. It has been a constant struggle since childhood to actually understand what happens in my head. Everybody else seems to have such success with knowing what they are feeling and how to deal with it, whilst I still struggle. One of my psychiatrists (or was it one of the psychologists that I had to speak to? I do not know, and I am still not fully certain of the difference) recommended writing. Not necessarily a diary, just something creative. I used to make stories up with my grandfather, so it was thought that it might help me. And, in some ways, it did. But I used to get lost in this fantasy worlds, creations blurring together, and it became hard to identify with characters that I had created because I had created them in such a way that I could not identify with them - I did not want to. So tactics were changed. I was told to find a television show that I could identify with the characters or at least one character. Map my thoughts and emotions onto them and write about it. The psychiatrist (or was it a therapist?) suggested NCIS because it had just aired in the UK and he and my parents were both watching it. So I watched it with them. And started writing about the characters.

There were a few other shows that I tried, but nothing came as easily as writing the characters in NCIS.

Anything else to say? I do not think so...

Until the next time...

DISCLAIMER: I own literally nothing. Nothing at all. Well, that is not true. I own a pen, some paper and a laptop. But the rights to any fictional characters that I did not create? No. If something happened in one of my stories that you do not like then be grateful it did not happen on the big screen and click that little back arrow in the top left corner. If something happened in one of my stories that you did like, blame the script writers for not thinking of it first.

I just want to give a run-down of what is going on with what I am writing at the moment because I am being so slow.

It Takes Two - Chapter LXVIII is up now. I have, like, eight pages of Word document written for LXIX, so I have no idea when that will be up. I want to stop on Chapter C (100 for those of you who do not know their Roman numerals). I have some of those chapters written up already, but I do not know if I can keep it to 100 chapters... I do want to though. I think 100 is an achievable goal.

Dead Reckoning - Chapter 10 is almost done. Or at least it is more done proportionally than It Takes Two. Maybe. Meaning that I still have a couple of thousand words to write, but I know what I am going to write. And that will be the last chapter. I am not planning on adding anything more to that storyline after that.

Miracles - I have a couple of hundred words written up for a possible Chapter 3, but possible is the key word there.

Any Road - I am working on Chapter 8 right now. We are getting into the case stuff, which is what is taking me so long because I hate writing about cases, but it was my challenge for this story and I am going to get there. It might take a couple of years, but...

In Paris with You - I have another chapter written up, but I have had that one written up since before the first chapter was posted, and I am still not happy with it, so I need to figure out what I dislike about it and fix it. I also have the concept for another chapter outlined, but I do not know if that will ever actually be written.

'Is that all you are working on?' I hear you ask, and to that, I reply no. I have a couple of concepts for multi-chapters, but I am struggling to find plotlines in them (which really should not matter, since I never stick to plotlines (and there is literally no plot line to It Takes Two, it just rambles on, and on, and on...)) and I do not know if they will even work. I also have a 7-chapter story that does sort of have a plot line and has 5/7 chapters written up. But it is still very rough around the edges and I do not know if I even like it and thus cannot guaruntee that it will ever see the light of day. At the moment I do not like it, but that could all change.

I also have a whole folder of episode tags that may or may not ever be completed, let alone posted. They are all quite depressing though.

Oh, and I have something planned for Christmas, though I am not certain whether a) I like it and b) it will be done in time for Christmas - I am only half way through the first of three chapters.

FAQ:

When will you finish 'x'?

In all honesty, I do not know. I never really know. The list above is a guide, but not certain. It also shows things that I definitely want to finish. There are a couple of things that I do not want to finish, things that I promised second chapters for a year ago and never wrote a second chapter for (because I am a bad person). But other than knowing that I will finish them, I really do not know. My job, health, sleep and writing can all be unpredictable, so I never know. For all I know I will churn out twenty chapters of It Takes Two and three chapters of Any Road tonight. Probably will not happen, but you never know.

What is this mole/spot thing on my stomach?

Go ask your doctor.

Why is 78% of your writing sad/why do you never let them be happy?

Uh...because then I would have nothing to write about. It would be boring if they were constantly happy. And I am not a particularly happy person, so writing happy things can be super difficult at times. But I think it has been getting better and I have been writing more happy things lately.

What is the answer to life, the universe and everything?

42.

What are you doing with your life? Why do you write so much?

I work full-time, but my work hours are flexible. Some days I work 14 hours in a day, others I only work 5 - it all depends on what I have to work on, what my boss tells me to work on and what I feel like I can work on at any specific time. I do not sleep that often, either. The perks of being an insomniac - more time to write. I write to get out of my head - trust me, it is not a nice place to be.

If there are any other questions, problems or even if you just want to say hi, drop me a PM or leave a review on one of my stories. I cannot guarantee that I can help/answer your question, but I will certainly try if it pertains to something I have written or will write.