Hello Fan Fic fanatics.

Mesa back...

Yea my last update was in 2010. Golly has it really been seven years since I last graced the halls of Fan . I am kind of in out with Doctor Who atm and more into KOTOR fan fiction. Bad news I probably won't be updating any of my Doctor Who fan fiction. I simply don't feel in the mindset to do much Doctor Who fan fiction at this moment in time. I still kind of miss David Tennant and truthfully I haven't really kept up with 11th and 12th Doctors. That's okay though, if I ever find a Doctor that I feel in the muse to write about I will post more Doctor Who Fan Fic. I kind of like War Doctor, so if I do any Doctor Who fan fic, it will be with him. He needs more love anyway.

Anyway KOTOR, yea...I am totally nuts about Revan, female or male, although female has more of a soft spot in my heart, Bastila, and Carth Onasi, so I will be focusing on the strange world of a brain wiped and reprogrammed Revan. So anyway...hope to hear from people here once again.

Love you all...

Err a bit about myself. I have a degree in English but I am currently trying to reinvent myself since I lost my job about six months ago. I am trying to get a foothold in food service. I've always had a creative and love of culinary and food as a kid growing up. Talk about a complete 360 degrees turn.

Update:

Okay So...a few notes on Who Am I...the Story of Phoenix Star.

Yes. I do see it as a beta piece. I don't have a beta. If you wish to help me...then message me. I'd be up for a beta to read and rehash my writings. I use to have a beta but that was eons ago when I use to write Doctor Who fiction. I am really not into Doctor Who fiction anymore so...yea I sat down and decided I wanted to do a Star Forge saga and the game just seems to lack a lot of supposition that I wanted to explore soooo I wrote and wrote some more. I have a rough idea in my mind where I wish this to go...not all but most of it. I have two endings...one rather tragic and painful and the other...not so much. Damn plot bunnies.

Here's a small update from my latest chapter:

~Carth~

I knew Phoenix had said quite emphatically she wasn’t pregnant. I think maybe a small part of me wanted her to be pregnant because it would have helped me understand what was going on with her. Her moods shifted so vastly…and so often. It would have been easier to understand those moods if I could say it was a hormonal imbalance brought on by pregnancy. Being with her, I had seen her go from self-assured and confident one moment; and then the next she’d speak with me or others with such anxiety and perhaps a hint of fear in her voice. She had gone from confident that she could defeat Malak to doubt that she could face him. Although I was grateful that Phoenix had come to realize her own limitations, I knew that If Phoenix had any chance against Malak, she needed to be more confident. Otherwise…I was sure she would die. I wondered if the Jedi had put too much on her shoulders. She was after all just a padawan and I still wondered why the Order had put her on such a mission. They said it was because she had visions of Revan and Malak. I didn’t understand why she had those visions. It troubled me and I loved her. I loved her for her humor (Although that humor could be a bit gallows at times), her unconventional nature, her willingness to sacrifice so much for those around her. I wanted to protect her and keep her safe. I knew it was crazy, but I wanted to protect her from Malak. Yet, Malak was a Sith Lord and I was just a common Republic Captain. How could I keep her safe? Plus, it wasn’t as if she was totally helpless, despite all the doubts she had, she was a Jedi. Yet, I would do anything for her, and it was because I loved her.

A deep-seated fear began to edge into me. You will lose her, Carth Onasi. No matter how hard you try to hold onto her, you will lose her….