Ashley. 27

Previous Target Team Member
(having missed the mark still)

Current Universal Team Member
(but still somehow lost in the world)

- Spring 2019 Update -

I don't know what I'm doing anymore, honestly. Sorry, y'all. It's so encouraging whenever I still get comments and favorite alerts, but it's also super disappointing because I want to do more, but every time I try, the writing doesn't come out as well as it used to.

I miss writing.
Writing was my first love.
It feels like I'm waking up in the cloud after a breakup, already in the middle of reconciling the lack and halfway through adjusting around the gaping hole left behind. But a part of me is still insisting that it's endgame, and this is just a phase.

So I'm sitting here, wondering if I should just completely devote myself to a career or if I should still commit to pushing myself down this road until I've completely lost any semblance of a goal.

"Marriage and Mischief Managed," "The Darkest Timeline," and even "Once Upon a Storybook" are still technically in-progress because I'm the crazy girl who can't let things go. I'm trying, dudes, but it's like I've dug myself into a hole where I want complex storylines and better clarity on my end goals, so I've planned myself into a hole, and I don't know how to get out without re-starting everything.

Yeah. Restarting. Again. I've always been and always will be that person. It sucks.