~ Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant, but it's very important that you do it because no one else will ~

Ciao lovelies :D I'm fall into your sunlight but feel free to call me Courtney! (& my twinny calls me Sunshine :) lol)

Writing is the love of my life. Always has been, always will be. Writer's block is my worst enemy. My number one dream in this world is to become a published author.

When I'm not writing I'm reading, or sleeping basically haha.

I look for inspiration in just about anything and I love being inspired.

My bestfriend Zaneta is my biggest fan :)

I write only Big Time Rush fanfiction as of right now and I'm loving it :) I also love reading it more than anything; it's safe to say I'm obsessed haha.

True love doesn't discriminate and neither do I. So, yes that means I write slash. Kames (Kendall/James) is the best slash paring ever (in my opinion) and my OTP. A majority of my stories involve them. I also ship: Jagan(James/Logan) and Cargan(Carlos/Logan). Straight-pairing wise, because I write about straight pairings too, I love Lomille(Logan/Camille) and Camdall(Camille/Kendall) best.

I love James Diamond and I have FCMD *favorite character mutilation disorder*... yikes lol. I am totally biased to James-angst.

I go totally fangirly when I read angst, vampires, stories about abusive relationships, angst, smutt, slash, angst, unexpected turns, love stories, when things get worse before they get better, and angst.

Follow me, follow me, fa la la la la (;
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* DISCLAIMER FOR ALL OF MY STORIES: I DO NOT OWN BIG TIME RUSH. THEY ARE JUST PAWNS IN MY HAND AND I LIKE TO PLAY CHESS WITH THEM.

Really Awesome Fanfiction People:

The Savage Soul
that girl right there is pure amazingness. she was the first friend i made on here and now she's my best fanfiction friend, my Kames twinny, my slash whore, and my biggest fan/supporter on this site (: i love her to pieces! and we're joining a dieting program together ;D lol everything she reads I favorite because she is insanely talented. i get superduper happy when i see an update from her, or a new story. if you dont read her stories then you're missing out :) ps: i love you Savage :D

KxJ luver
omg this is like the sweetest chicky ever! she writes amazing Kames stories (so go read them!) and we've both died from the true Kames moment that is her icon! And now we both meet in heaven, united as Sisters of James Angst :D

Miss Fenway
this girl... -heart- i dont even know where to start. she's an incredible author and she's one of the nicest girls i've ever had the pleasure of talking to. she's helped me with some things i've been dealing with in my life and i'm so glad i have her around :) i love her!

Falling To Fly
this girl rocks :D i dont think i've ever met anyone who loves JamesAngst and Mayday Parade as much as me :) she also has James Diamond FCMD like i do! so clicky click on her profile and read her stuff. it's some of the best things you will ever read :)

kaitlynluvskames
my soul sister -looks off into the distance- haha this girl is so cool! She's a Schmidtslut while I'm a Maswhore ;D but we're both Slash Sluts and Kames lovers because Kames is the best slash in the world, and our OTP haha. and um yeah she's banging :)

Unbelievably Cliche
this is my Carrie :D i love her to pieces! She's an amazing author so go read her stories, cuz they're the best!!!!! And she ships Kames :D what's any better than that?! But yeah, deff hit her up cuz she's fun to talk to, and go read her stuff :D

Art For My Fanfictions:

Broken Angels *made by me

Broken Angels *made by my bestfriend Zaneta

Love Games *made by me

Love Games *made by my bestfriend Zaneta

Secret Love *made by me

The Night Is Young *made by me

Musical Inspirations:

All I Can Do by Jump5 - Opposites Attract

Anywhere But Here by Mayday Parade - Secret Love

Just A Little Girl by Trading Yesterday - All That I Can Take

my Kames playlist for The Night Is Young

Common Denominator by Justin Bieber - All In

Miserable At Best by Mayday Parade - Without You

volume one of You Are The Music In Me

Anywhere But Here by Safetysuit - Anywhere But Here

I Wont Say Im In Love from Hercules - I Won't Say I'm In Love

~plot bunnies won't leave me alone... Upcoming Story Ideas:

Silent Cries: "If these walls could talk they would have so much to say, cuz every ime you fight the scars are gonna heal but they’re never gonna go away" If you thought James Diamond’s life was perfect, you’re about to find out that nothing is truly as it seems.
*thanks to KxJ luver for giving me the title:D* It is going to be EXTREMELY angsty and sad and James is going to be very, very broken in this. You’ve been warned. after a conversation i had with my bestfriend, this story may not be up for a while. sorry :/
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Cross My Heart, Hope To Die: It was the family code: you hurt my brother, I hurt you. So that’s what they did and now all they have to do is keep is a secret… easier said than done.
im so excited for this one and I hope you all like it as much as I do (: warning: mentions of rape, child abuse, and murder. And um, this is kinda dark and crazy if you ask me.
check out a preview :)
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Lose Yourself: "They weren't bad kids. Sure, they did bad things but they were for good reasons; it was all part of the job"
yay for me broadening my range on what I write :D I really love this idea; I got it after watching The Fast and The Furious as well as visiting big-time-crime-and-espionage on tumblr too many times (: If you ask me, this will be rather epic :D
Rated M for alcohol, drugs, cursing, sex, child abuse, rape, violence, attempted suicide, and uh, I think that’s it.
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Stories That Forever Make Me Smile:

Haunted by The Savage Soul
*she wrote this for me for my 17th birthday -love- and I am head over heels in love with it :D James having nightmaes, Kames sex... it's just too good for words :D

The World Stops When I Put My Arms Around You by DarkElements10
*I requested this on twitter (: and it was everything I wanted and more -hearts-

External Scars, Internal Wounds by the Savage Soul
*I love how I can PM her and say I'm craving some JamesAngst, and she writes me this (: best twinny ever! and the best Christmas present ever! :D

An Incubus by the Savage Soul
*not only did she write me this incredible masterpiece, but she also gave me a Kames Day! :D i think it's safe to say i love this girl!

~ I'll be thinking about you w o r l d w i d e ~