Oh, that picture? Nothing special, just me standing next to MARK F-ING PELLEGRINO! I was cosplaying Abaddon at the time, and probably scared him a little, but it was still the best day of my life so far.

"You can only give so much of yourself away before there's nothing left for you."

*Update as of August 2018* So. I'm going through a lot right now. Emotionally, mentally, just about every aspect of everything I thought I knew in my life is being turned around, and I don't know how to deal with it all. Writing is one of my few outlets, so I'm not quitting, rather I'm letting you know that there is a lot going on with me right now, and so I won't be publishing as frequently as I used to, or as I would like to. I hope you can all understand, and please know that no matter what, I will always love writing for you.

I've now got an Instagram fan account for cosplays and SPN/other fandom related things. If you want to follow me my username is sammys_missing_shoe.

I take requests. Always will, so don't hesitate if there's ever something you'd like to see!

I'm also on AO3 if you wanna find me there. Got my best and favourite fics on there, and I'm under the same pen-name if you prefer AO3.

If you wanna know some more things about me, here's some useless knowledge about me.

Hogwarts House: Slytherin

Favourites:

Song: MZRY, Crown the Empire

Band: Panic! At the Disco, and Crown the Empire

Youtuber: Jenna Marbles, Dead Meat, and Caleb Hyles.

Word: Flatfoots. (Favourite use is at work. Example: "Which one of you flatfoots left this mess??")

Supernatural Episode: When the Levee Breaks, Born Under a Bad Sign, and Red Meat.

OTP: (For me, that means only true pairing, since they're literally the only thing I ship.) It's an odd one, but I ship Sam and Meg. Please tell me if you know/wrote any fics for them!

Writing Style:

I write torture. A lot. Usual victim is Sam. He is my baby, and must therefore suffer for it.

Case-fics.

Mostly canon, but occasional AU's.

No slash, aside from my Lost in You series, featuring Sam/Meg.

Stories: In order, and small teasers.

My stories aren't a series, but in case you haven't finished the show, here's the order of my stories so I don't spoil anything for y'all to early, along with a small teaser from each story! Any story with * in front of it was a request.

Supernatural from my Mom's POV: (Not even really a story, just my mom mocking my show, but in a loving way. This story and My Mum Does it Again are both written by my mother and are way too short, and insane, to give descriptions of. My mum didn't know anything about the show when she wrote these, but it's pretty accurate.)

Trapped: (Again, not a real story, it's just a poem, so it has no definite place. Can't really give any sneak peeks without giving it away.)

They're Not Happy and We Know It (So Clap Your Hands): (Crack fic written by a friend to the tune of a playground tune of which I cannot recall the name.) "Miss Mary had two children, Sam and Dean were their names."

Miles of Clouded Hell: (Another poem. Only thing you need is a basic knowledge of what Hell is like in the show.) "Another soul, another knife. No longer whole, this is life."

I Need A Hero: (This was my first wee!chesters fic. Sam is 6 and Dean is 10.) “'Well, the children had an assignment to draw their favourite superhero. Your son drew a-' She paused, and made a concerned face. 'Slightly disturbing picture...'"

*Nothing's Fair in Love and War: (Another weechesters. Sam is 10 and Dean is 14. Sweet (ha, sweet) little casefic with gratuitous hurt!Sammy.) "'Dad, please, what happened to Sam?' 'He's being a hero.' In the Winchester's dictionary, 'hero' was synonymous with 'idiot.'"

On My Own: (Set in the Stanford Era. Sam centric, but both brothers do make an appearance.) "The black eyes glistened in the moonlight, solidifying that it was indeed a demon. But that wasn't what scared Sam the most. No, not the unmistakable eyes of a demon, but the human it was possessing. It was wearing a clown."

Centuries: (Set in Season 1 after Wendigo.) "The thought made Sam shudder; he could only pray that he didn't meet the same fate."

Human Race: (Season 2, somewhere after Children Shouldn't Play with Dead Things, when Sammy still has his cast. Another little case-fic, hurt for both of our boys.) "He'd been forced into the world of demons and monsters since he was six months old. Why anyone would willingly fall into that life was beyond him."

Get Out Alive: (Set directly after Heart. Short, little case-fic filled with some good old fashioned hurt Sam.) "All the voices were useless, he knew he couldn't fight, he obviously knew he couldn't breathe, and he was damn sure Dean wasn't coming for him."

The Shadows on My Wall Don't Sleep: (Set in Season 2. This was my second fanfic, so I'd suggest you not read this.) "'A fire.' Sam replied, but his eyes stayed in the same dead stare. 'Her mother died in a fire... when she was six months old.'"

Point of Entry: (Pre Born Under a Bad Sign. How Sam got possessed story. This was my first fan-fic, so I implore you not to judge me for it.) "'It's 'Sam.'' He huffed. Meg got down right in front of his face and chuckled. 'You won't be for long.'"

Unbreakable Heart: (Sequel to On My Own, but can be read as a stand alone. Set in S3, after Sin City.) "'I have learned!' Raef punched Dean again, in the face this time. 'Your brother's gonna be the one who underestimates me!' He took a breath, and collected his cool. Then he grinned. 'You have no idea what I'm planning to do to him.'"

Never That Simple: (Set sometime in S3. This piece is actual trash. Forgive me for publishing it.) "'C'mon, Sammy, if he really was all that smart, would he have left you alone with the very thing you were hunting?'"

Smoke, Smoke; Sign of the Devil: (A twist on the flashbacks for I Know What You Did Last Summer. Mostly just creative (Hope it's creative anyway) Sam whump.) "The dark cloud loomed over Sam, and though it had no mouth, Sam knew it was grinning."

Alone Together: (During Dean's time in Hell, and after the flashbacks from I Know What You Did Last Summer, but contains spoilers up to season 5 episode 3.) "'Try that again, and I'll make sure you choke on your own blood while you beg for me to finally kill you.'"

Shattered: (Set before I Know What You Did Last Summer.) "'Call me a monster all you want, Sam, but just remember who you're talking to.'"

Deeper: (Tag to When the Levee Breaks.) "The blade was tauntingly close to his face, glistening red with his blood."

Reaction: (Takes place anywhere after Season 5 opener. Basically my only attempt at humour. Like ever.) "'Remember that 'fanfiction' crap Becky mentioned?'"

Payoff for Faith: (Takes place in the Croatoan/Endverse shown in And in the End. A "Why Sam said 'yes'" story.) "So it was true. Lucifer, the freaking Devil, was the only one who truly cared about him. And that was the thought that finally broke Sam."

*Young Volcanoes: (Set in season five, after Abandon All Hope.) "So... An arch-angel had turned his brother into a two year old. Now what?"

*Vita: (Twist on the episode My Bloody Valentine. This was my first requested fic.) "Sam swallowed, momentarily forgetting the starvation settling in his stomach. 'Ruby?'"

Our Solemn Hour: (AU for Swan Song, but contains spoilers for season six through ten.) "His past had left him weary, lonely, but he'd made it this far. Even with Lucifer constantly screaming in his ear, Sam wasn't going to give in. Not just yet."

Let Me Inside: (Set during Caged Heat. Part one of my Lost in You series, AKA, my Sam/Meg series. This one's all smut.) "'How about a little wager? If I beg, I'll help out you and Dean. If you beg,' She smiled, eyes flicking black for emphasis. 'I kill you both.'"

If Heaven's Grief Brings Hell's Rain: (Alternate ending for season 6. Or the whole series I suppose. AU, meaning deathfic. No happy ending.) "'I think this will be the best torture yet. You'll be able to hear your brother's screams, and you'll never be able to save him.'"

Sign of the Times: (It's my first Crossover. It's a Sherlock one. For Supernatural it's set in S6, and it's post S3 finale of Sherlock.) "'Moran... did say you had a little possession PTSD. Don't worry,' Moriarty leaned in toward Sam's face, disturbingly close. 'I'll be gentle.'"

Countdown to Destroy Yourself: *My favourite piece so far* (Mild AU that leads into the episode Born Again Identity. Very different from my other fics, and deals with a range of very serious topics, so be sure to read the warning before the fic, because it can definitely be intense.) "Besides, Dean was the one who had shown him that pain made Lucifer leave him alone, he couldn't get mad at Sam for taking his advice. Except for the day Sam took that advice too far…"

What Sam Forgets: (Set in Season 7. Dean's thoughts as he watches Sam 'deal' with his hell memories spilling loose.) "Even from inside the cage, the devil doesn't cease his tortures."

Time That Remains: (Set in Season 8, pre-trials. Trust me, it's not at all what it seems.) "Too white teeth flashed a smile on decaying lips. 'Pay attention, Dean. I'm just starting to have fun.'"

And We'll Heal the Scars: (Mid season 8, references to the series throughout. Reader-insert, and comes with a lot of warnings, so be aware of that.) "But he'd opened up to you, he told you all about his life and his scars. It's only fair that you now do the same."

Let Me Get Close to You: (Second installment of Lost in You series. AU to Goodbye Stranger.) "Sam never imagined he'd be a father. At least not after losing Jess. But, looking at that sweet little girl, it was hard to deny; he really wished he'd known about her sooner."

*Somehow I've Found: (Third installment of Lost in You series, so it's somewhere after the first trial.) "Admittedly, the boy with the demon blood, Michael's vessel, a demon, and a sort of anti-Christ living under one roof was an odd mix. But know what? That was Sam's family now. And he wouldn't have it any other way."

The Blood of Someone Special: (AU for First Born. I also regret this.) "'I have no intentions of running, boy. You are not a threat to me.' Sam smiled smugly. 'That's what you think.'"

Ain't Done Yet: (Sometime after First Born when the brothers are still fighting.) "'You ever stop to think maybe I was tired of it?' 'Tired of what?' Sam swallowed. 'Disappointing you.'"

Bleeding Out: (Missing scene for Alex Annie Alexis Ann.) "'Now, we could keep playing the draining game, or we could reserve whatever room’s left in these jars for whichever one of you killed my brother. If not, you and your brother both get a chance to play.'"

It's Where My Demons Hide: (Written between the Hellatus of The Purge and Captives. Just that accidental prophetic fic I wrote about Dean turning into a demon cuz of the Mark of Cain... Whoops.) "Sam tried not to be afraid, he didn't want to be. Not of his brother, not even this version of him."

One Too Many: (AU for Blade Runners) "'I wasn't craving any old human's blood.' A classic villainous smile crept onto Crowley's face. 'I was craving Sam's.'"

Broken Wings: (Set between season 9 and 10, but no s10 spoilers. Just a "How Sam dislocated his shoulder story.") "His only interest was finding his brother, and may the costs be damned. The costs, the consequences, Sam himself, they were all damned."

My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark: (Based off of Season 10 previews. Demon Dean being demon-y and Sam doing desperate things to get him back.) “'Don't let the eyes fool you, Sammy, it's all me in here. You on the other hand,' Dean flicked his wrist with the slightest grin, as Sam was pinned against the wall. 'You have got some explaining to do, tiger.'"

Phoenix: (Sequel to My Songs Know What You Did in the Dark, but you don't need to read it for this to make sense.) "Stolen grace, demon blood, and the world's first murder weapon. 'Team Free Will' was going to Hell."

Fallen Angel: (My original speculation for season eleven. I tried. And I did sort of get the fact that Lucifer returned correct. Circumstances were way off, but hey, tortured Sam and Lucifer, what more could you want?) “'You’re not going anywhere. But, since you’re so determined, and I do find it adorable when you think you have a chance, go ahead.' Lucifer’s smile got wider. 'Run.'”

Heaven Knows: (Based off of the promo for 11x09. Spoilers and disturbing imagery and references. I'll give myself like- 27% correctness for this fic.) "Sam was going back to the Cage, and no angels, no demons, and not even his own big brother could stop him."

Counting Bodies Like Sheep: (AUish for Devil in the Details. Just an excuse to torture Sam. Series of unrelated drabbles.) "'I have broken you before, Sam Winchester. I have no problem doing it again.' Sam clenched his teeth, and hissed, 'No.'"

Flyswatter: (Tag to 11x18, Hell's Angel. Written solely for the purpose of letting Lucifer hurt the boys a bunch.) "But after all those boys had done to him, Lucifer didn't want them to die choking on their own unattainable breath. No, he wanted them to die screaming."

Emperor's New Clothes: (AU-ish again. Future fic written during the hellatus after Beyond the Matt.) "Like it or not, they needed Lucifer's help in defeating Amara, and if Castiel's life was what it cost, so be it."

Accidental Prayer: (Based off the Season 12 trailer and promo pictures. Yet another wishful thinking/ speculation fic. So much Hurt Sam here.) "This was so much different from the Cage. Then, he’d been suffering for a cause, he had stopped the apocalypse, saved the world, saved Dean. This time, it was for absolutely nothing more than a couple of nosy librarians who knew a little too much about the art of pain."

Falling Inside the Black: (AU for First Blood where Sam sacrifices himself to Billie and is sent to the Empty. This one's a rollercoaster.) "'You'll never have to feel that kind of hurt again, and all you've gotta do is say one, little word. 'Yes.''"