Firebird, flailer by trade! I've been in Heta-hell since 2012 and I can't escape h e l p m e

I'm a legal adult but not old enough to drink; my birthday is July 8th; I'm currently attempting attending university, where I study linguistics (focus on historical/comparative).

About my writing: Oops at some point I forgot how to write long fics? instead have lots and lots of quick character sketches with some degree usually of historical accuracy. I love Poland and Lithuania, separately and together, sometimes sweet but mostly angsty and sorta dysfunctional but trying so hard. I also have a small armada of low-key rarepairs and if you write me one of them I will love you forever. Write me PolBela, FeliFeli, and/or LithMano and I will love you for two forevers and also bake you a pie.

I have nothing even resembling a proper update schedule: I post oneshots whenever they're complete/I feel like it, which usually ends up being once or twice a month.

If you want to talk about anything please PM me; I love meeting new people! (I'm also very active on tumblr, so you can leave me a message or ask there too.)

Posted Works:

Hetalia

dream - spoonie version of a halloween fic? also thirty points if you figure out what i was listening to while i wrote it. warnings: murder, suicide, body horror, my ridiculous obsession w erzsebet bathory,

covenant - sometimes i write really small self-indulgent things that i end up being overly proud of. feliks deserves better than this tbh. tw for discussion of suicide and a fairly explicit death threat.

starlight minuet - look idk man I said something dumb on skype about having a hoarding problem with the severed heads of people who disagree with you and things kinda spiraled from there (aka i don't know what happened to make my default tolys an unstable asshole but it's a Thing aka i come back from a five-month hiatus and this is the first thing i post?)

rosebud - sequel to respice post te. VERY TRIGGERING. VERY SPOILERY. it's a story about abuse recovery and discovering secrets, which means it includes fairly frank (but not explicit) discussion of multiple forms of domestic abuse (including COCSA) and violence.

ветер и кровь и серебро (wind and blood and silver) - Halloween fic 2016! it's... technically unfinished r i p :'D I have a second chapter halfway done but at the beginning of November I got very sick; I'm still recovering and my inspiration for this story is completely sapped. I still hope to finish it one day...

et orior - a very small subsection of a vampire au I might write more of one day. you know, just smol Bela being an adorable, perpetually ravenous embodiment of insatiable hunger. as you do. no pairings, just gdl family stuff and a twisted type of cute.

respice post te - oh look I've ruined being able to walk home from work in the dark for myself. warnings for character death and domestic violence. RusLith.

второй вальс (second waltz) - gift ficlet for my friend perl. inspired by Shostakovich's "waltz no. 2". aka "let's take everything I know will make perl cry most and shove it all into 700 words".

dreamweaver - a collection of poems originally posted on tumblr. Various pairings and characters, although no surprise most of them are Lithuania-centric. may contain triggers, particularly mentions of death and (rather vague) body horror.

clarity - RusAme for a friend. I've never written this pairing before and it doesn't really interest me terribly so this fic was a struggle to get done but I'm proud of how it turned out.

perfection - self-indulgent RusLith that's basically porn-without-plot, without the porn. aka "a thousand words of rambly introspection, during a makeout session that is not described in any detail whatsoever".

till human voices wake us and we drown - Feliks-centric tie-in to Colours of a Stone. poor child is one messed-up kid but he still won't let me kill him????? no pairings.

Regėti - inspired by a linguistics paper on Lithuanian folklore. aka the non-genderbent, better-characterized, slightly more historically accurate rewrite of Hands I didn't think I was going to do. RusLietPol, post-partitions.

Aušra - written for aphrarepairweek2016. the prompt was "dawn and dusk". Lithuania/nyo!Romano and gardening. warnings for mentions of anxiety and bipolar disorder.

fool's gambit - inspired by this picture. It was intended to be very low-key horror; ymmv on how well that succeeded. Warning for non-explicit character deaths by stabbing and decapitation.

Ink - little more than a quick headcanon dump. Knygnešys!Tolys is love is life.

Nesmejieti Jūs Ļautiņi - Latvia's sense of normality is glitchy. He is also not a child. I wanted to explore those ideas. Title from this song.

Leap of Faith - I decided one day that there was not enough dramatically nationalistic APH Lithuania out there considering how dramatically nationalistic real-life Lithuania has tended to be, so I whipped out a thousand-word ficlet. No pairings.

allegro ma non troppo - in which my adventures in rarepair hell continue and I actually finish a fluff fic and it stays fluff. So proud of myself. Canonverse ItaPol/FeliFeli, with side RomaCan and also Hungary and Italy and Poland all hanging out together being bros and it's awesome. Also arty stuff. It's great.

let us go now, you and I - I lost a bet and was supposed to try writing happy and fluffy canonverse LietPol. Apparently "deep and emotional but ultimately optimistic" does not actually count as fluff. But it turned out quite well and no one dies so there's that. Sort-of-but-not-really a sequel to Wolf and Phoenix and written in a similar style.

to see the rose and woodbine twine - started as an EngPol oneshot for Jes and turned into a very short and historically sensitive ficlet that's partly about Arthur learning to read Feliks and partly about (cryptographer!)Poland and how he dealt with the horrific events of the Nazi occupation.

Blink - posted here, on Shadow's account, as it's cowritten with her (it is, however, posted under my name on my AO3). It's a rather sprawling Wingtalia AU, that will hopefully be a lot of chapters! She gets to write torture and I get to worldbuild and everyone is happy. Except the characters. But no one cares about them.

The Matchbox - Originally meant to mimic the style and tone of a fairy tale (that didn’t last long, oops). Somewhat fatalistic but not completely hopeless! Contains LithBel and RusLith, but mostly not centered on pairings.

Words - A series of drabbles using the meanings of the Nations’ names as prompts. Ongoing, no real update schedule. Lithuania, Latvia, Belarus, Poland, Russia, and Ukraine completed so far.

Honey - Anything Nyotalia is my friend Jes’s fault. Nyo!LietPol, generic fantasy AU, and loads and loads of cavity-inducing fluff. Also Poland with no social skills. And snakes.

Dream Chasers - Angsty LietPol with a side of angst and complementary angst to finish! Definitely one of my best stories despite the massive poetic license I took with the language stuff. (I am a linguist. I should know better. Oh well.) Also contains China and Taiwan as background characters.

подкидыш (The Foundling) - I mostly refer to this one as “Foundling” these days. The entire thing is slice-of-life (adorable Russia being an adorable father to adorable Latvia, with cameos from basically everyone), until you get to the last chapter which is kind of ridiculously melodramatic but oh well. Pairings include RusLith, PanLat, BelAme, IceLiech for the main ones, and also EstKraine, SuFin, DenNor, (sort of) PruLith, LithLat (I swear this makes sense in context), AusHun, PruHun… Complete. Contains genderbending and insane amounts of fluff.

Four Weddings and a Transvestite - a birthday present for my good friend Shadow, also known as I just want them to be happy dang it because she cannot take care of her children. PanLat with background LithBel and even-more-background EngChu, but mostly it's a celebration of the utter joyful insanity that is a high school theater class.

Ashes to Ashes - a birthday present for my friend B. Latvia is canonly yandere, which doesn't tend to show up much in the fandom, which is a crying shame in my opinion. SeaLat, LietPol, and a little bit of background RusLith and AmeLiet. Pretty dark, but not overtly violent.

Nocturne - 2015 Halloween fic! And it's marked as horror, even, so I don't know why everyone was so surprised... I will confess that the ending is a bit of a cheat, but at this point I'm not revising it. Anyway it does contain anxiety (as well as related issues), and Toris's family is so dysfunctional augh also offscreen character death and disability. PolLiet, past LithBel, and there are hints of possible past PolHun if you want to see them ;)

Actus Reus - a short, deliberately ambiguous RusLith drabble, dealing with the aftermath of a nuclear war (although that's not made clear in-story). I would highly encourage multiple re-reads, and at some point definitely look up the meaning of the title.

Wolf and Phoenix - probably one of my best pieces, period. Poetic and stream-of-consciousness (Rus)LietPol drabble set during the Polish-Lithuanian War of 1920(ish). If you look closely you can see the first inklings of my obsession with names, and also a lot of pretty pretty imagery.

Notes Found Taped to Bicycle Seats in the Parking Garage of an Apartment Complex - exactly what it says on the tin. FrUK with background AmeLiet, based on something that actually happened to me - although my situation didn't quite escalate that far! Very short, very sappy, and for some reason one of my more popular stories even though it's really not that good at all.

The Colours of a Stone - another piece that, although it's a bit older, I'm still very proud of; also my longest oneshot to date. This story is very, very dark and melancholic; it deals with abuse, child prostitution, incest, and unequal power dynamics/authority in relationships. If any of those are triggers for you, I would recommend not reading it. RusLith is the main focus, and one-sided EstLith shows up toward the end.

Makeup - a quick character/relationship study of the various sides of Russia. I really like the parallel structure of this one, although my headcanons have changed slightly since I wrote it. No pairings.

Hello Darkness, My Old Friend - a rather bittersweet little sketch because maternal/brotherly Lithuania is life and bitty!Yuki needs lots of hugs. A crossover between Hetalia and Fruits Basket. No pairings, just Tolys taking over what was supposed to be Ayame's job. (Note: might be a little triggering for abandonment or claustrophobia.)

зависть (Envy) - Due to a late-night conversation about serial killers, I now have a psycho knight-Lithy living in my head. This story is entirely his fault. LithBel, and a very creepy version of it at that. Not BelLat, which would of course be the point.

мой торюшка (My Toryushka) - Despite my feelings about Russia as a sweet idealist (especially in AUs) I am perfectly capable of writing him as creepily obsessive. Poor Toris is all I'm gonna say about that. RusLith, PolLiet; warnings for murder, kidnap, and consent issues.

Hands - one of my first Hetalia fanfics... it shows. Some of the ideas are neat but I feel like they aren't very well executed despite multiple revisions. (Especially regarding rather stilted dialogue and my characterization of Lithuania haha oh dear.) Varies between fluff and angst. RusLietPol with fem!Lithuania and possibly some degree of historical accuracy.

Rueflower Phoenix - my first posted Hetalia fic, a poem I wrote for my high school English class. Read at your own risk. RusLietPol and a massive, rambly author's note. Please forgive the teenage version of me.

Fruits Basket

Kokoro no Kizu - Pure distilled angst. Yuki-centric; depression, suicidal ideation, abuse, hints of self-harm, all packed into less than 300 words. Very old.

The Mouse's Tale - First of all, this is very. Very. Old. The characterizations are pretty off, but the format is kind of interesting in my opinion. Very stream-of-consciousness; deals with the abuse Yuki went through as a child.

Find me elsewhere:

My tumblr url is also hinotorihime. my art tag is "I drew a thing"; my writing tag is "I write stuff".

And I'm now on AO3! Same username, same fics, but if you'd prefer to read on there that's an option now.

I'm happy to give out my Skype username!