"I don't like to write. I like having written."

"Of course it is in your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?"

UPDATED 7/26/2020

I POSTED A NEW FIC!!!!

*does a happy dance of joy*

I got the bug back now, y'all. I'm jumping straight into the tag for 5X14 "My Bloody Valentine" that I have about half-written, and have for going on two years.

I owe a lot of whoever I end up becoming as a writer to this show, these characters, and this community. Like and Follow "Chrissie Rohrman Writes Things" on Facebook, and Follow me @ChrissieRawrman on Twitter. I would love to interact with you and get to know you better!

Current WIP projects:

Atlas - an anthology of one-shots inspired by the fifty states. I know it's been way too long since I updated this, but it has NOT BEEN ABANDONED, it's just been very slow-moving. I have a couple of ideas in the chamber, for Montana (post 2X14 "Born Under a Bad Sign") and New York (timeline TBD but will be incredibly angsty.)

Bottled - One-shot set in those dark not-brothers days of S9. Think a bottle episode of a TV show, with the guys stuck in a room with nothing to do but talk.

Untitled 5X14 tag aka The One Where Dean Almost Blows Himself Up

Plus, whichever missing scene or episode tag strikes me as episodes air or when I rewatch DVDs. It happens.

Fic rec, if you're looking for something beautiful and worthwhile to read -

"Providence" by Nova42 AND SHE'S BEGUN POSTING THE EPIC SECOND INSTALLMENT, "CAUSALITY," SO MMMBOP YOUR WAY OVER THERE, NOWISH! :P

UPDATE: I have begun playing around in the horrifying future laid out in the opening chapters of "Providence" - with permission, of course - and those fics are "Digging My Own Grave" and "For What It's Worth." There may be more down the pipeline; I'm really not in charge of these things.

I've been writing fanfic for going on 14 years, since I stumbled upon the fandom world in college. I cut my teeth in the "CSI" fandom, played around in "Stargate:Atlantis," and found a home in "Supernatural."

I dabble mostly in humor and H/C, and with the exception of one AU challenge response fic, and the one-shot I wrote prior to the S8 premiere, will stick as close to canon as humanly possible. This is most assuredly NOT the place to look for smut or slash.

I'll always do my best to reply to all reviews, unless of course the site eats it and I don't get an alert. So to all those whose reviews will be eaten - thanks so much for taking the time to read anything you may find here! And for all guest reviewers!!! Your support and feedback means so much to me!

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This is a profile take over by Nova K Shepard (Nova42)

Sup? How y'all doin? Some words of wisdom to always remember.

One advantage of talking to yourself is that you know at least somebody's listening.

I believe if life gives you lemons, you should find somebody whose life has given them vodka, and have a party.

I know the voices aren't real, but man do they come up with great ideas.

Whatever you say can and will be used against you in a novel.

Friends come and go, like the waves of the ocean, but true friends stay, like an octopus on your face.

The older I get the more I realize there are no grown ups and nobody knows what the fuck they're doing.

I haven't eaten an apple in days. The doctors are closing in. My barricade won't last much longer. They are coming. Tell my family I love them. Erase my browser history. Not in that order.

If I had a dollar for every time I felt more emotion for a fictional character than people in real life, I could pay for the psychiatric help I obviously need.

In my defense, I was left unsupervised.

Transmission Ended*

Words of inspiration I stare at while I write, or try to...

"The artist committing himself to his calling has volunteered for hell, whether he knows it or not. He will be dining for the duration on a diet of isolation, rejection, self-doubt, despair, ridicule, contempt, and humiliation." - Steven Pressfield, The War of Art, a book that I recommend to ANYONE suffering any form of blockage in what they wish they were doing with their life, even if it isn't writing.

"I didn't want to start writing something of my own because to do that I'd have to start writing something. I love writing but I hate starting. The page is awfully white and it says, 'You may have fooled some of the people some of the time but those days are over, giftless.I'm not your agent and I'm not your mommy, I'm a white piece of paper, you wanna dance with me?' And I really, really don't. I don't want any trouble. I'll go peaceable-like." - Aaron Sorkin

"How do we move forward when we are tired and afraid? What do we do when the voice in our head is yelling that WE ARE NEVER GONNA MAKE IT? How do we drag ourselves through the muck when our brain is telling us youaredumbandyouwillneverfinishandnoonecaresanditistimethatyoustop? Well, the first thing we do is take our brain out and put it in a drawer. Stick it somewhere and let it tantrum until it wears itself out. You may still hear the brain and all of the shitty things it is saying to you, but it will be muffled, and just the fact that it is not in your head anymore will make things seem clearer. And then you just do it. You just dig in and write. You use your body. You lean over the computer and stretch and pace. You write and then cook something and then write some more. You put your hand on your heart and feel it beating and decide if what you wrote feels true. You do it because the doing of it is the thing. The doing is the thing. The talking and worrying and thinking is not the thing." - Amy Poehler.

"Confess to yourself in the deepest hour of the night whether you would die if you were forbidden to write. Dig deep into your heart, where the answer spreads its roots in your being, and ask yourself solemnly, Must I write?"