![]() Author has written 13 stories for House Of The Dead/Zombie Revenge, Mega Man, Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney, Yu-Gi-Oh, Zatch Bell, Corpse Party, School-Live!/がっこうぐらし!, Love Live! School idol project, and JoJo's Bizarre Adventure.
Hello, and good evening to you all! My name is Maria, although many also call me Mari. I am a 24 year old autistic trans woman who has recently come back into writing fanfiction and original fiction after years of only roleplaying. I have recently come back to focus on writing a passion project of mine: Honoka's Bizarre Adventure: µ's Is Unbreakable, a fanfiction idea I've had since 2017, a crossover between Love Live! and JoJo's Bizarre Adventure. please only use she/her pronouns when addressing me! i only upload (rarely) current new works onto here and I don't really update my old stories. in general, i greatly prefer blogging and roleplaying on tumblr over writing fanfics anymore: although I do have some stories planned! The best place to reach me at is my tumblr, form which I can also give you my Discord! You can reach my tumblr (where I am the most socially active online) at @aqours! While not as active, you can also reach me at twitter at @ayakakamiji! All old fanfics on here are discontinued. If you wanna know what would have happened, feel free to PM me or something! I'll gladly tell you what was gonna happen, or let you adopt them! On HBA, I have a mention of "LGBT themes" and I would like to talk to you about this. This used to be Chapter 12 of the story, but I deleted so the actual Chapter 12 wouldn't be out of number. Below is a copy and paste of what it used to be: The first thing I mean is explicit romance between girls. I never thought this would gain traction outside of AO3 (ironically, between , spacebattles, and there, AO3 -which I thought most people would read it- by far is its least successful venue) so none of you could see any of the tags I have there. There will be explicit Rinpana later, quite possibly starting with the next chapter, unless I decided to build it up more. Without spoiling too much? The end of Hanayo Wants to Swap (Part 3) had the two delinquents kissing, but I decided to hold off on it for an even bigger payoff later. I won't give you my life story or anything like that (you can go to my tumblr at yazawa for that), but I am a gay woman myself, so such things do mean a lot to me. I don't really like heavy teasing with no payoff, I could rant a lot about how Chika and Riko's story in Sunshine reads like a romance but... it never goes for it? That crap bugs me, a lot. Which is why I don't do it my writing. A reviewer asked me if I might do KotoHonoUmi, and while HonoUmi is a possibility, I don't want to force it in. I am making this post because I'm starting to reach those "LGBT themes" and again; you're not reading this on AO3 where every tag gives you a clear warning of what you're getting into. Now most Love Live fans like yuri anyways, so I don't think that'll be a big problem, but I do want to make it explicit. I don't know what other ships I might do. I don't want to force ships into the story, because I feel doing such things makes the quality suffer. I'm not a big fan of Nicomaki and I want to have platonic interaction with them, but its been growing on me, so if I can find a way to integrate it into the story I'll try to make it work; and I know that's a big ship, so i'm here to say it might happen, might not. But I want people to be aware from this point onwards, its gonna start being a thing. The other thing I really, really, really need to talk to is about the next chapter. So I did some editing to the last chapter. If you don't wanna reread the whole thing, its mostly this: I expanded on Kobayashi's backstory a bit to talk more about her nana and her meeting Yanigihori, and after the Wonder zone insert I added some dialogue between Yanigihori and Emi. I feel like this flashback and that conversation helps flesh out Yanigihori a lot more despite her limited appearance and what character she is, so I think that deserves a read. Part of the reason this chapter took a while is because of a fuck up on my end. When saving and backing up stuff I accidentally only saved a version of the document with several days less of work. It really soured my writing mood and set me back several days irl of doing nothing out of frustration before getting off my ass and hurrying up to do it. There's another tag on AO3 most of you aren't aware of though: "Trans Character." This is really important to talk about before I push out the next chapter. I'm honestly super nervous writing this, but I need to do it. The truth is, I edited the end as well. If you use tumblr by any chance, you might know among LGBT circles of the fandom, there is a very specific interpretation of Rin Hoshizora that's rather popular in regards to gender identity. I don't want to just outright say it because of spoilers, but if you watched Zombieland Saga or are at least familiar with Lily Hoshikawa, you probably have a good idea of what I'm talking about. This interpretation is something harbored by many transgender women -myself included- about Rin's discomfort with her femininity, desire to be cute, struggle with how society views her, etc etc. It is not something simply thrown out of the air, "Oh this character is transgender because I said so," it is something that we have noticed with our personal struggles with society's expectations and what is expected of us. It is in this way I have always interpreted Rin's character for years, and thus how I write her. I would like to personally ask you, who has read 11 chapters of this story so far, to hear me out on this before you make judgments. Due to my personal experiences, I have skill in writing about these themes. I am not here to give you my life story; you are not hear to read my life story, you are hear to read a JJBA/Love Live crossover, and that is what I intend to give you. If you genuinely want to ask me questions about this privately, you may send me a PM or leave me an off-anon review and I will be more than happy to answer any question you may have. I am here to tell you, however, that I am not here to introduce such themes as some gimmick. I'm not here to be fake woke, to draw in readers with fake representation because my story lacks substance. I am going to write such a thing because I want to say I was true to myself, and I didn't cower at the last moment; something I know would follow me around. I edited the ending of the last chapter, Rin's segment, to reflect on this. Although I don't know if editing is the right way to say it; I changed it back. I had it all typed out... and at the absolute last sentence abandoned it, editing it to how it was on the day of publication. I got cold feet and abandoned this last moment. Hell, if you're familiar with this story's spacebattles thread, I kind of made a whole little speech about it. And every word stung me to write. I've wanted to be an author my whole life. As far back as I could remember, just 6 years old, if there was ever a writing assignment over anything else like art, I would take it. I have been writing as long as I can remember. And I have a very important belief system for my life; to go forward without any regrets. If something were to give you regrets... then don't do it. That's why I have to return to my original ideas, even if they're not what's expected. I started imagining this story in late 2016. And now I'm writing it. I got scared, because it became bigger than I ever thought. I never thought this story would attract an audience. I thought the audience at most would be what... ten people, mostly my personal friends? Maybe I'd actually meet a few people through writing it! I never imagined in a million years though... 4k views. Almost 50 reviews, about 20 faves and alerts... I got scared. And in the last minute, I decided "It would be best for this fanfic to abandon this idea to avoid controversy!" I think that's a cowards way of looking at things. While I don't think anyone would blame me... I would regret it forever. I would never be able to write this story, this passion project the same way again knowing I caved to my own worries. This is a fanfic, at the end of the day, I write for free. If anything, it will suffer tremendously more if every chapter becomes like a chore. If every chapter feels like regrets, I'm not going to want to write this. So I will write about this interpretation, this thing that is tremendously important to me and several of my friends. I am not here to write a fanfic about being issues related to gender identity. That is the last thing I am writing this fanfic to be. One character out of nine may be, and I do not intend for that to be her entire character. That is not how good authors write about this topic; and I myself have very little patience for fanfics where this becomes a character entire focus and I cannot recognize them form the canon characters they once more. I just want to clarify this, I'm not doing this to be woke or anything. I don't want to be that kind of author. I'm not doing this to "sucker in" readers who might not have been interested anyways. I write it because its how I interpret a character, its important to my writing of them and to turn away would mean to write a character differently, and I must move forward in order to deliver what I believe the best story I believe is possible. I ask that you give me a chance with my writing, that is all. I promise this won't be a major thing throughout the stories; sure it will come up again, although it will be a thing persistent throughout the next chapter in particular. I want you all to be aware. I want to ask you personally, if you have enjoyed this story, to give me a chance in this. That is all I ask, thank you. I don't want to make a chapter like this ever again. I don't want to make this story a blog about my personal life and beliefs. Again, I have a tumblr for that, and private messaging also works. Its just... you guys on here are the only ones not aware of it. I feel like I should let you know. I understand not everyone may look forward to it, and in a worst case scenario I might lose a few readers, but I refuse to be the kind of coward who changes what she writes simply to appease masses and to be afraid of controversy. That is why, more than any other chapter, I sincerely hope you will enjoy Rin Wants To Be Like Cinderella. Thank you, and may every road take us to memories of Great Days. |