25 Oct 2009

Hi!

Okay, Number 1, I owe you guys a BIG APOLOGY. I’m such a crappy person, I swear. I totally just left you all hanging. I’m so so so so so sorry! What happened was, I kinda just, lost my muse. I didn’t feel like writing HSM any more. I considered just forcing myself to get it over and done with. But, when the authors heart isn’t in her writing, it just looses its spark, you know? So I just, didn’t write. I realize I could have updated you on this stuff, but I’m just such a sissy. I was afraid that you guys would totally loose interest in me and stuff.

On top of that, so much drama has happened this year! Its been wild and crazy and hectic. I didn’t want to WRITE about drama too, you know? I just couldn’t organize everything. I’ve been a journalist with the national newspaper too. So really, I had no time.

On top of that, I guess you could say I tried to conform to society. Which was stupid. Really really really stupid. I realize that now. Writing fanfictions brought me so much joy once upon a time, and seeing all your guys reviews REALLY made my day. I kinda miss that joy. I want it back. Fuck society, if I like it, I’m gonna do it.

I was reading Unproper Grammar’s story today and I felt that need, that urge to write for HSM again. My muse, has returned. And I’m eternally grateful for that. My exams are gonna finish in 2 weeks and 3 days, and after that, I’ll be having a bit of a hectic time. Somewhere in the last week of june, I’ll have nothing but time. Thats when I’ll start writing all over again. This time I’m gonna be so much more organized. I’ll plan out my chapters, I’ll set myself a word limit so that my chapters are long and substantial, I’ll read everything a billion times so there isn’t even one mistake. You guys deserve nothing but the best!

I’d like to think that I’ve honed my writing skills a lot this year. I think I’m a lot better at it, and thats why I would like to try and redo all of my One Shot’s and Chapter stories. Make them even better 

Lastly, some added incentives :P

I’m gonna make playlists or soundtracks for every single fanfic, including oneshots. Perhaps even some album art :P

I’m gonna use my blog alot for this. Keeping you guys updated on everything that I’m doing and I’ll even put up some preview’s of the stories I’ll put up. However, I also want my blog for a place for us to interact. I want you to tell me what you want to see me doing and I’ll do my level best to do that for you. I want to form a personal relationship with each and every single one of you because you all mean so much to me. Really, you do.

Once again guys, I’m so so so so so so so so sorry, I hope you can find it somewhere in your heart to forgive me. I’m so sorrrryyy. If you give me a chance, I promise I won’t let you down 

Love you all!

B