I guess what one of the guests on my stories...well, there are a lot of guests, but this specific guest expressed made me feel that was necessary to update something. I'm not writing. Not now. Not because I'm a piece of shit, even if I may joke that I am landfill all of the time. That I'm garbage.

But I'm not.

I'm sorry if people have admired me and in turn, in the future or at some point in time, have let them down. For that, I am sorry.

And I'm sorry for not keeping my promise to keep on writing. Maybe I will again some day when I HAVE the time and eagerness to. Right now, neither are at sufficient levels. Because currently...

I'm happy. Happy enough with where I am, focusing on my undergrad and dancing and growing every day. Every day is a huge commitment, and each day is special. A few years ago, I used to love writing, and would have preferred to write over hanging out with friends. Now, my priorities have shifted greatly as has my personality, and I much prefer to be out with people, dancing, and being outside.

I'm writing this here to let you know what's happening to me and why I stopped updating. It's busy. It's a lot of work. It's a lot of time. But I think I've found myself a little bit, and am enjoying the process of figuring out how I am and what I want to be, even though the part of 'what I want to be' is significantly more cloudy. It is murky and convoluted, but it will make sense eventually. I'll make sure of it.

I'm content for now. Satisfied enough. But I want to keep growing and see how far dance and school takes me.

Until then...

Haha...sorry for 'wasting' your time!

Signed by,

The hated piece of shit that does not deserve to be admired.

Naruto and Kirito

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http:///image/upload/normal/Naruto-15.png Naruto (As close as it will get to what I kind of want for the Dark Flash)

I really enjoy writing and I'm just a random kid that decided to pick up the laptop and start writing. Actually, I started around seventh grade, but it was more like short one-shots, and they weren't very good. Around ninth grade, I actually started to improve, and I continued to publish my stories on FB notes and showed them to my friends. I miss those days.

I really feel like this is not how an Author's Profile should be like but...hey, I'm me. If you're still reading this, this is like my autobiography. :D

Anyways, I continued to write, but I took a break eventually. I had no ideas, honestly. But in tenth grade, I got an idea and went with it. I was going to publish it on FFN but...decided against it. It didn't look clean and well-written even after the fourth time I revised it heavily. So once again, I decided to wait.

Then, I got an idea. What if...what if Naruto could do that in an alternate universe? (I can't tell you or else I'd be spoiling the plot). But where...I liked multiple animes, but Sword Art Online came to mind. If I followed through with my idea, I would have to tweak a few facts, but it would work! And so, I started and tried again, eventually coming up with my first published FFN story: Naruto, the Dark Flash.

Do I regret it? Not one bit. Do I regret not playing League or something instead of typing a stupid FFN story? Hell no. Screw the people that think that typing some story is stupid. That's like saying that doing what you enjoy is stupid! I type and write stories, letting my ideas circulate in my head until something hits me, then write it because it makes me tick. It makes me enjoy life more. I revel in writing, letting my fingers brush across the keyboard and letting the words flow out until it creates a story. And with the end product, the views, the constructive and happy reviews, the follows and favorites, those are prize. But the main satisfaction I get from writing my story are actually two things.

1) I actually followed through and wrote the story and published it, despite my fears. I won't ever regret that. It's actually kind of funny. After I published the Prologue, I closed the laptop immediately and went to sleep, extremely nervous. However, the next morning when I looked at my story, I ran out of my room and starting talking to my mom in an extremely excited tone. Yes, my mom.

2) The reviews that tell me I did something good, or that they enjoyed my story, that it's well written, that the omakes were funny, and especially the ones that say that my story is one of the best FFN stories they have ever read. These make me want to continue writing, to not just please myself by writing, but live up to other's expectations with my story. And with this, everything becomes exciting.

And so...that's my life so far and how I feel about Fanfiction. If you decide to start writing, do you're best. Don't be afraid, and take that leap. Haha, people are a lot nicer than you think if you try hard. I wish you the best of luck.

XShuyaX

Right.

When life give you lemons, you squeeze those lemons on someone else's eyes and beat them up so they can't fight back, especially if they're stronger than you. Do it. It works.

When life give you a chance, seize it. Take that opportunity and grab it with all of your might, hold it to your chest and don't let it go.

Everything you see that you have not accomplished and want to achieve, don't give up. Don't say it's too much. Go after it. Strive for your goals. Reach for it with everything you've got. When you got it, then you can look back at your old self and say "I told you so." Everything is a challenge, so enjoy it.

It's not about how high you get. It's about how you get there that matters most.

What am I doing? I'm so done with this. Bye bye.

XShuyaX

And I'm back!

OK, random stuff. I hate school. In all honesty, I feel like I don't learn sometimes. That doesn't mean I don't learn, it just means that some teachers have to get their act together. If a student is doing better by teaching himself, there is something definitely wrong. Another problem: if a parent can teach a son something in three minutes that a teacher took three hours(!) for, there's something definitely wrong. If a teacher for an AP class didn't teach anything for the whole first semester, there's something wrong. Yup, welcome to the Daycare guys (inside joke for the school).

And school again. Oh yea...what was Kid's Bop doing at my school?

See ya. I don't think this is how a profile is supposed to be but...I'm a rebel. Rawr.

XShuyaX

Reviews

And here's something concerning 'REVIEWS', which I copied from 'Kyoka Suigetsu Totsuka'-

Writers- all of them, from famous authors to subtle FF writers- ALL depend on the feedback from our readers. Vision Dominican brought up an interesting albeit tragically true idea:

"Lack of reviews is the greatest killer of fan fic writers out there. We at the institute wish to let the public know of how they can pitch in to save our dying writers.

1) Drop a review every other chapter. It may not seem like much, but reviews are actually what many of us want to see. That, and hits. Hits do make us happy but we don't really know if people like our story or not.

2) Visit our author page. Those kind of hits really make us happy. It's where we showcase our entourage of friends, beta readers, and stories. Some of us even tidy up with set areas for upcoming story ideas and character bios.

3) Send an email. While normally I'd prefer a review, emails are just as good. Really, it warms my heart to communicate with another reader or writer."

What you call being "too lazy to review" is what we call "a flame to the pages" as the writers. That one minute or two that you felt "too lazy" to review is another minute of creeping discouragement that all writers feel as they begin to think...

"Why am I even here…?"

"What's even the point of continuing?"

"My skills must be terrible…no one cares for my story…"

"I'll never be a good writer...I quit."

These are only a few thoughts that go through every writer's head- that go through MY head- when we put out a chapter / story with all our heart and soul within, and we sit there…and sit…and wait…and not a single person says even a word.

If you're not a writer, you have NO IDEA how much that hurts…

If you ARE a writer, then I'm sure you know just how great it feels when someone is kind enough to leave a heartwarming and encouraging review, and you read it, smiling while thinking…"Wow…fuck...I did it…"

So, why not give fellow writers the same luxury here?

Too many times I've seen epic and utterly beautiful works of literary art fall to pieces before finally being abandoned due to the terrible discouragement that the lack of reviews can cause.

Sometimes, it is so severe that the very writer himself decides to quit, denying the world his skills of writing that I'm it would have deeply enjoyed.

So…

Just one minute, that's all it takes. Just a few gentle taps of the fingers on your keyboard, a few seconds or so of your time, and your words can SAVE a writer from a dark demise.

Do me a favor: Go find a story, ANY story, anywhere here on Fanfic,net, and see if you can help it. If it has very little / no reviews at all, just check it out, and say whatever comes to mind.

And enjoy the thought in mind that you could have just SAVED that story, with just a few taps of the keyboard…

If you agree with what I have said then please copy and paste any part of this story you wish onto your profile. Modify it in any way you see fit; there is no need to use my exact words. You make it say what you want it to say.