Hi!

I am a disturbed, messed up, and very pessimistic individual. As result, I tend to prefer fluff in fiction - because I do not believe in it in reality. At the very least, I have never experienced it in reality. That said, any fiction I read that is disturbed, angst-y, messed up, or in any way psychological, will judged off my own twisted self. Any I write, well, let's just say personal experiences can make for really ugly source material. And, I have been raped, hospitalized for a failed attempted suicide, cheated on and abused (the vast majority of my life on that one), oh, and I'm a self-mutilator (but, I swear I'm getting better - I've forcibly developed a fear of knives to break myself from cutting; now to work on the other instruments of torture...) so I've plenty to draw from, should I so desire. And, actually, I do!!!

So, if you see something from me with a "M" rating - realize the rating is for a reason. And, the reason is : youthful innocence cannot (and should not) handle it.

I just got my first Beta invite!!!! I get to be a beta reader (maybe - if she doesn't regret it)! WHOOOOOTT!!!!!!!!! Hehehehe... (Oh, and if that's not a big enough clue - yes, I am willing to Beta - just know, I am not the best at spelling. I am, however, in a deep and eternal love with "Spell Check" so that can sometimes be overcome. If, however, I don't respect you as an author, I reserve the right to say "no" harshly. And, if I tick you off in my efforts as a Beta, I anticipate the same.)

Today I discovered FLAMING. See, even if there are things I dislike or disagree with in a story, and there have been plenty, I have not out and out flamed (until today) in my reviews. Tell my dislikes, yes; but as constructive criticism only - and yes, I've (actually far more often) given my share of complements too. Today, however, due in part to being both sick and injured (thus peeved) and discovering a few stories I absolutely HATED for their complete failure in grasping the concept of believability... thus, I flamed. For the first time ever! And, I've gotta say; I *liked* it!!!! hehehe... a new devil has been born...

Interesting things about me (if there is such a thing):

Gender: female.
Preferences: both. though, I've never gone all the way with a woman. any volunteers??? ...kidding.
fav pairings: naru/sasu. neji/gaara iruka/kaka lee/saku kiba/hina shik/tema shino/tenten choji/ino kank/sai (yup, I'm aware that's an odd one)
fav character: Gaara. I'm scared of needles, but damn, if I wasn't such a coward... I'd totally rip off that tattoo!!! plus, I'd love to kill my dad too. too bad I've something called morals that prevent me...
character I most identify with: Sasuke. Which is ironic for a lot of reasons, funniest of which is my REAL birthday is October 10th, so you'd think I'd identify with Naruto...but no. Just no. Also, I don't think Sasuke is emo. That's Gaara - which I like about Gaara. But Sasuke is just straight up damaged goods, and so am I!