Hello and welcome to my profile page!

I decided to leave this site behind. I will still update running fics, but I won't post new work. New stuff along with uncut and uncensored chapters you can find under the same username on ao3.

If you want to chat or have questions about my work, please hit me up on Twitter (nitwentyone) or Discord (ni21#7874), I'm always up for talking. If you have neither and try ffn's pm instead be prepared that it might take a while to get a response because for some reason I don't get notifications for that.

Hiatus announcement August 30th 2020

Hi there, you might be here by chance, you might be here because you're not following me on Twitter and are now wondering, where my usual Wednesday update is. I do not owe an explanation but I'd like to give one anyways, being left with uncertainty is shitty after all.

The thing is, I'm on an upload break. After uploading the latest chapter to the Cockatoo Chronicles, which I really really liked, I didn't receive any comments. I know I'm not entitled to comments, I know there's various reasons for people not to comment that are all very valid. However it still affects me a lot and I'm quite frankly sick of it. I upload a chapter and start checking my inbox instantly, I get petulant, I get angry, I get sad and hope it'll be better next update, I get exhilarated when I get a comment, then I get sad because it's only one.

This has been going on for a while, but last chapter made it very clear to me that this is not healthy. I should write for fun. You liking it should be added bonus. But it's not, not anymore, it's become a task, and I get anxious and sad and angry and I'm so so tired of being down half a week because the chapter I liked (which is already a huge step for me) didn't get the recognition and feedback I would have expected.

So I decided to take a break until I learn to appreciate my writing for myself. To be perfectly honest I'm not sure how long it will take and I'm not sure I'll be coming back to an actual update schedule, as I wouldn't want to learn to appreciate my own writing only to get back into that trap of comments and end up where I am right now. Last few days I've been wondering why people even publish their fics, why go through the anxiety of putting yourself out there, when it isn't even appreciated (which is unfair because I know that I have a lot of people reading my stuff and honestly liking it, but that's exactly what I meant when I said it's not healthy for me). And yes I know a lot of people don't comment because "the author is popular and my comment won't matter", or because they are shy, or because English isn't their first language... But maybe consider that writing fic and publishing it, it lays us bare in front of the readers, getting silence or maybe even hate hurts. Maybe consider that we're no English majors either. We are popular and your comment doesn't matter? Every. Comment. Counts. Be it extensive analysis or key smash. Anyways, I'm taking a break for now, but maybe take my words into consideration for other authors you appreciate.

Take care y'all, I hope to be back soon!