Well, to start, I have Bipolar Disorder, Borderline personality Disorder, and a sever case of Agoraphobia. I’m a nice person and I like making friends, but it is hard because I’m extremely shy and have a tendency to be brutally honest (almost to the point of hurting the person I am being honest with).

My moods change like the winds, my desires and wants are all too different depending on what time of the day it is. I have a hard time being around a bunch of people and have anxiety attacks if I am unable to escape from them or am forced to be around them for long periods of time.

I have tons of hobbies which include: woodworking, making dream-catchers, writing, drawing, painting, graphic arts, making music vids for shows I like, and reading.

I CANNOT live without my coffee.

I have two cats, which I do like (even when Boe is acting like an ass). I have three gorgeous sisters who all have children (of which some of those children have children). I’m fairly close to my family. I consider my sisters some of my best friends.

I was fairly wild in my younger days but have since calmed down immensely. I very RARELY drink (like once every 4 or 5 years) but I do smoke. I’m not fond of bars and I HATE sports. I don’t mind if my friends and family watch them, just don’t expect me to sit in. I’m also great with computers.

I'm a total romantic at heart, but I’ll be honest and say I have a lot of walls built around myself. I have mental disabilities that cannot be ignored because they will NEVER go away.

I love people who can sing and play an instrument.

Oh...and I'm Bisexual.

Favorite Quotations:

"There is a moment when you say to yourself, ‘Oh, there you are. I’ve been looking for you forever.'" Blaine from Glee in the episode "Original Song"

P: "There's a stigma in this country about mental illness. I mean Depression, Anxiety, OCD, Bipolar, they're hard to diagnose, so people don't always appreciate that they're serious problems, but they are."

E: "Yeah, um, I don't know. I'm not sure I want to lay on a couch and tell some stranger all of my secrets, and I don't want to start popping pills just so I can turn into someone that other people want me to be. This is how I am. This is who I'm supposed to be."

P: "Your illness is not who you're supposed to be. It's keeping you from who you're supposed to be...Look you're a guidance counselor right? So if a student came to you and said they had Diabetes, would you give them insulin? Or would you just say, hey that's just who you're supposed to be?"
Emma and her Psychiatrist on Glee episode "Born this way" (Best lines I've ever heard to describe mental illness!)

"Being bisexual is the worst of any world because you don't really belong anywhere, because you are never sure of yourself or those around you. You can't trust in anyone, their motives or their intentions. And because of that, you have, in a world that likes its nice shiny labels, no true identity." Ianto in The Twilight Streets

What lies behind us, and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Look I got an A on career day, I must have just missed that class on personal relationships. It's not about men or women, it's about me. If you don't fall in love, you can't get hurt." Samantha from "Now and Then"

Death is certain, Life is not.

Favorite Music:
Since it would take too long to list out exactly who I like I’ll go with basics. I like country, soft rock, hard rock, R&B, and a little bit of jazz. The only music I’m not fond of is Opera and Rap.

Favorite TV Shows:
Charmed, Doctor Who, Eureka, Fringe, Glee, Grimm, Haven, House MD, Law & Order (CI and SVU), Life After People, NCIS, NCIS: LA, Perception, Saving Hope, SGA, SGU, SG-1, The Simpsons, Smallville, Stargate:SG-1, Stargate Atlantis, Stargate Universe, Supernatural, Terra Nova, The Mentalist, The X- files, Torchwood, Touch, True Blood, Warehouse 13, and a couple more I’m sure.

Favorite Movies:
Movies I could watch a million times…lol. Knowing, Harry Potter (all of them), The Core, A Walk To Remember, Twister, The Day After Tomorrow, Ella Enchanted, A Cinderella Story, Star Wars (all of them), Superman, and tons more…

Favorite Authors:
Stephen King, Jude Deveraux, Stepanie Meyer, Rachel Caine, and basically thrillers, sci-fi, or romance.

I used to write fanfic for X-files. Those will might be posted on here eventually (maybe). If I never get around to it, you can find it on my site. I also have artwork for SVU and about a million other shows that I watched. Unfortunately, I haven't had time to update that part of my site (and probably never will) for the newer shows.

I try to respond to all reviews that are applicable (not private or unlisted), even if it's just to say thank you.

I saw this on a profile of someone who left a review.

SEXUALITY
Love is love, be it between two men, two women, or a man and a woman. Why should it matter?
Love is the most valuable thing in the universe; why should loving be a bad thing?

Copy this into your profile if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

I had to put this up, because the book is just THAT OOC

Torchwood: The Undertakers Gift book review:

The storyline itself sounded interesting at first, but it is really hard to get through the obvious attempts of the writer who seems to be cheering for a Gwen/Jack pairing or who may have slightly homophobic tendencies. On top of that, it ended up being rather predictable in which you knew that things were going to work out a certain way. Normally that wouldn't bother me, but for a book I should have finished in 1 day, it took me nearly a week to read it because I had to keep putting it down whenever Jack's character went off in some weird tangent and didn't act like himself (which happened every three or four pages!).

I have liked nearly every Torchwood book, but this one seemed way too out of character. Jack spends half his time pining after Gwen and the other half completely ignoring Ianto. I tried several times to get into the storyline, because it really would have been a good one otherwise, but every other page there seems to be some reference to Jack acting like a complete jerk. Nearly every other book has some form of normal interaction between the characters, but for a book that was supposed to take place just before COE, this one seemed to fail miserably in that aspect.

I would not recommend this book anyone, much less if you like the characters or cannon couples. The writer seems to have a fascination with Jack and Gwen being together and ignoring the fact that Ianto would not put up with the way Jack treats him in this book. Avoid this book unless you want to struggle against the urge to throw it across the room when Jack's literally dreaming of kissing Gwen!

To top it all off, Jack actually gives two people the OPTION of being retconned in the end. He's normally avid about doing the right thing for Torchwood. He would NOT give them an option just because they became a happy little hetro couple in that time frame. He actually leaves the Retcon with these two characters, just sitting on the table in front of them. They could take the pills to a scientist for heavens sake!

Honestly, the portrayal of Jack in this book made me have to keep closing it to look at the cover and make sure I was actually reading a book about Torchwood. If it hadn't have had a picture of John Barrowman on the cover I would have thought it was some weird book about 3 overtly boring people who only mildly resembled the characters we all love so much.

Sorry, but this book irritated me so much that I need to get the word out. I so exceedingly regret even wasting money on it in the end and I think anyone who likes Torchwood for these characters may appreciate my warning so they can avoid reading this travesty to the Torchwood linage.

Spoiler Alert:

A few words about about Torchwood: Miracle Day

Just when you begin to think that RTD couldn't screw up the Torchwood Universe any further then he already has, he pulls MD out of his arse...literally.

MD is so horrible that I could barely make it through all 10 eps. I'll give it that there were maybe 1 or 2 lines that I found amusing or iconic, but in the big picture, RTD has truly taken it over the edge. Actually, strike that. He's chucked it as hard as possible into a garbage heap, shattering it into nothing but junk and useless words on a script.

Talk about complete drivel and just awful acting.

Don’t get me wrong, JB is still as awesome as he could be with what he was given. However, what he was given wasn't worth it. If I would have been him, I think I would have actually turned down bringing this travesty to life. I can't help but wonder if maybe RTD held back on actually giving him the script until he had agreed to do it and had him under contract so that he couldn't back out beforehand.

I have to remind RTD of continuity. Jack could always get hurt! His body ONLY reset when he was dead. Even in Cyberwoman we see him with a split lip, not to mention several other episodes when he got hurt (Countrycide anyone?) and didn't heal immediately, so that was a bad error in judgement to point that out over and over when it was completely inaccurate.

I feel bad for EM as well. I love her. She is a great actress. Unfortunately that was wasted in MD. Ironically enough, I had actually started to like Gwen during COE and yet that gets totally yanked away with her reverting back to her annoying puppy love struck personality who doesn't give a crap about anyone but herself. Basically the person she was in the first season, and more mildly in the second, when you wanted to do nothing but punch her every time she opened her bloody mouth. On top of that they added a know-it-all trait to her character that had me praying that she would actually be killed off once and for all.

But nope, RTD has done it to everyone else but lord knows he'll never kill her since she's his "baby." What REALLY got me is that he actually had her trying to act like Ianto at one point and I really had a hard time not throwing something at the TV (ONLY because I didn't want to damage my flippin TV).

Jack and Gwen switching places with their personalities, even for a minute, and Jack referring to Ianto as justa "Dead Friend" is such a slap in the face to all of the fans who knew Ianto was a hell of a lot more special then that. Even the passing reference about asking if that guy saw Ianto and saying he would've been jealous didn't redeem him from that previous statement.

In addition to everything else (as if that wasn't enough!) RTD has Americanized it so damn much that even me, as an American, actually hates it because it has lost touch with it's roots.

I am officially relegating MD to “The Undertakers Gift” status, one of the worst books I've ever read. I've read around 8000 - 10000 books and I liked most of the Torchwood ones. In general both turned out to be a big waste of time and money.

Basically it's like an extremely AWFUL fanfic (unfortunately turned official by actually filming it) that has Jack so out of character that you spend half the time trying to figure out who the hell he is, praying for Gwen to actually die in a world that no one can die in, and a few extra characters/actors that really have a tendency to overact and leave you wanting nothing to do with the whole bloody thing.

I swear RTD has managed to screw up his entire Torchwood Universe beyond the point of redemption. I say his universe because I’m going to try to forget that series 4 even exists. I really wish I could just pour bleach on the part of my brain that even remembers it.

I can officially say I honestly hate the man now. Before this, all I had was just a general dislike because of his dismissive attitude towards his fans stating that if they "didn't like it then they should just go watch Supernatural instead" and ignoring the fact that if he didn't have people watching his bloody shows, he would be nothing. However now that he's taken a show that was so wonderful and that had such unlimited potential in the beginning and turning it into complete drivel, he's become the epitome of everything that is wrong with the entertainment industry. I can honestly say that if I saw him on the street I’d probably end up going to jail for beating the crap out of him.

And one more thing... (This is the spoiler!)

WHY THE HELL COULDN'T HE HAVE MADE IANTO IMMORTAL INSTEAD OF SOME USELESS NEW CHARACTER? REMEMBER WHEN HE ACTUALLY SAID "DEAD IS DEAD. NO ONE COMES BACK IN TORCHWOOD!"?

Um, what about Suzie? Jack? Owen? Rhys? Not to mention a few minor characters...

18/08/12 - You guys are probably gonna hate me but I've kinda been working on a different story. I've tried several times to work on my Tosh story but this McShep story for Stargate: Atlantis keeps interceding. This is a story I haven't even begun to post but my muse really wants to focus on it so I can get it up and running. This is also story I literally wrote an outline and notes to that took up almost an entire notebook while I was in the hospital, so I don't know if you can tell from that alone how very much it needs to get out of my mind.

I AM working on Damaged Indemnity AND Entropy, it's just taking a while longer because of this factor...

I really, really, really hope you all don't hate me for taking so long. I feel like a complete schmuck for not being around for what seems like ever, and then and making you all wait even longer. I still have so many reveals to make in Entropy (like the secret that Jack told Ianto after he ran out into the Plass nude to catch him, what's really up with that ring, and [for those that haven't already guessed] what's in that filing cabinet in the archives!).

Sometimes having Bipolar sucks because it's hard to keep focused on only one thing at a time. I just want to try to keep you all updated to let you know I haven't forgotten about my stories. I don't like to start things and not finish them. Though I have to warn everyone, the X-files story posted on here took me nearly three years to finish, and that was just one story!

As all the writers out there know, sometimes the words flow so smoothly that you think it'll never stop. Others times, it's actually hard to write. I don't like to force stories because they come out sounding false or unnatural. I am trying to get you guys the best stories I can possibly come up with.