I want to write.

I want to eat some suman.

Hello, I'm Hitsuiro Issa, Hitsu for short. I live in the Philippines with my parents and sisters, and currently I'm somewhere in Mindanao. I'm a graduating student this year, and currently I'm going to confine myself in my room and deprive my soul of writing or drawing or anything artistic because the University I'm hoping to get into for college has entrance exams during the first week of August, which really sucks now that I think of it, but what else can I do? I like writing and doujinshis of malexmale and het alike, and I love drawing mostly, but I usually spend my time writing shit. Ah well. I'm far from professional, really, and it's not rare for people to spot minor mistakes in my work, but seriously it's almost always because I lack sleep and all that. I try, though. At least I try.

I enjoy writing angst. Maybe it's because I'm a maso/sado person, but that's how I roll. I like writing stories that make people angry and depressed, or teary in the end, and it's okay for them to even curse me because of it, and that kinda sucks, sometimes.

I'm straight. I'm a straight girl. I have friends who aren't, but it's okay because I'm kinda used to it now. Homosexuals- lesbians and gay alike- well, I believe they're still human regardless of sexual preference (and they really are) so I'm really okay with that. Heck, I even write BL- and sometimes people ask me to draw yuri too, and I do, although I don't do sex. My hands aren't all pure, but I try to refrain from drawing stuff like that, most of the time.

I enjoy the internet. I want to make an LJ account and a facebook too, but I don't have internet at home. I just have a laptop that's silly and stubborn, but it has wifi so if I want to use the internet all I have to do is go to some cafe and do my stuff there. Only that I don't have much time now, and the world really is ending soon.

Sometimes I spend my time answering other people's questions, be it silly or otherwise. I like playing psychologist and maybe I do understand the human race a bit better than norm, and maybe I should take up psychology in college, but I'm too caught up with creative writing instead and I mostly put stuff like psychological bullshit in the stories I write.

I would want to have a stable job in the future and write my own book. I wouldn't mind counseling sessions too, but then I'd just embarrass myself. I want to start a doujinshi circle but then I'm too lazy for that, and we don't even have anime conventions where I'm staying at. I'm moving back to the capital soon, though, and maybe I could start from there, but...

I want to get into UP.

I want to upgrade my computer.

I want to...finish all the Tomb raider games the world has ever created. It's a really vague and pointless dream but it's a nice thing to dream about. I'm kinda scared of the future and sometimes it wouldn't hurt me to pray a bit to the Lord our God for guidance and advice. I want a nice happy future, and I want to eat some congee.

I want to grow slimmer too, just a little bit. So that I can actually wear my younger sister's clothes instead of having to buy new ones for myself.

Maybe I'm just rambling, but sometimes people try to contact me in the middle of the night, and it's annoying. My best friend's studying already, and I'm quite ashamed that I haven't even started. Well, she doesn't write stories anyway, and people don't bother her to make them something. I learned some watercolor techniques this summer, and I'd be glad to show them to all of you, but the scanner's too small.

I want to write a book!

DANG I WANT TO WRITE A BOOK. Something psychological and remotely funny, though not so mind-boggling like others. I want to write a book to help save those outcasts in the country. HAHA. Like stopping homophobia and discrimination. It's a big dream, but I want to work hard for it.

I want to go out with xx, but currently he's dating someone else and he's five years older than me.

I want to sleep.

Who cannot love xxxHolic? I don't feel as much towards TRC but it's all good too. I like real!Syaoran a lot, and KuroFay of course, but I kinda hate Sakura- don't sue me.

Now that I think about it, I've written quite a lot of stories.

Yay.