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7.02.2017 - Hi guys, I've taken down a lot of my fic with the exception of 'Room on Fire' and some oneshot(s?) and whatever I can bear to keep that I'd dedicated to mutuals online. I'm saving the fics on my hard drive so they still exist, so if the people I've gifted fic still want access to the fic I wrote for them they know where to find me. Hit me up and I could even email you the work I did for you.

I love writing guys. I will always squeal and go awf when it comes to garbage television and generating trash content but I've also reached a point in my life where I'm interested in pursuing other things, namely furthering my own writing career. I'm already 80% done with a novel that has nothing to do with the work I usually write for fandom and I'm hoping to soon publish. Further than that there are also several projects I'm working on to pursue and hopefully get paid for, not that money is why I'm leaving this place.

While the idea of getting paid for fanfiction with actual money is extremely sexy in theory (if only because: money, obviously) it does feel pretty reprehensible in practice, just imho - to each their own, so no shade or w/e, you do you etc etc. I'd rather write for charity/good cause (which I'm doing, as will be expanded upon below) than actually expect your money (jk send me money plz but lol just jk. but not jk. u feel me? money, i mean. gimme it.).

I'm not leaving because of money - ugh, now I've spoken so much about money it's gonna come off as that way, but I'm tired and I've never (evidently) edited my own ramblings properly enough to go back and correct anything and also if you know me then you already know that money is important to me all the time, I have actively tried to seek out people who might inform me on how one goes about signing up for a sugar daddy. They soon informed me that the position I wanted to apply for doesn't exist because apparently sugar daddies will actually expect you to put out which is frankly outrageous and offensive to me because 1) my dude, the whole point about dating old gross men is being secure in their compromised libido. You're not supposed to be able to get it up anymore 2) ew gross and 3) like what do you mean??? you want to fund my lifestyle??? but not for free??? like you expect me??? to apply myself??? ridiculous. a war crime. no thank you.

BASICALLY; I CAN'T FOCUS ON MY CAREER PROPERLY BECAUSE I'M A SCATTERBRAINED PERSON WHO STILL CAN'T MULTITASK ADEQUATELY ENOUGH TO SUCCESSFULLY JUGGLE BOTH ORIGINAL WRITING AND FIC WRITING. And right now I need to prioritize on the real life stuff because while y'all are a delight, I am broke as hell and I'm 25 and how many times have I been implicated in torrid love affairs with celebrities or been complicit in the destruction and defamation of wildly successful people? NONE.

Can you believe this shit? I'm not even drowning in money/recognition yet and it's already February. I need to get a move on. I need to make WAVES.

Writing fanfiction has been so rewarding and all of you have been so fantastic and I thank you for all the feedback and the enthusiasm, it's meant a lot to me and been invaluable in helping me learn how to grow as a writer and as a person. Nothing drastic has happened in my life and I don't leave in bitterness and I will still be continuing 'Room on Fire', 'rising as bruises' (AO3) and 'any geography' because I made a commitment and those fics meant a lot to me emotionally. I've also signed up for the klarolinegivesback fund raiser for the ACLU, so you can maybe personally request a few pieces from me there, but other than that I'm basically firmly done with starting any new projects. Consider the klarolinegivesback fund raiser your last opportunity to request anything from me if you're interested, I'll be happy to oblige.

I've had so much fun on fandom and met so many wonderful beautiful people, made great fandom friends and I've been so blessed to be a part of it. I'm not leaving any time soon so don't think this is me telling you I'm gonna drop off the face of the earth or something - I'm still gonna be around, you can still hit me up. I'm just not here...as actively? Which considering how absent I've been from the online hoopla for the past three years isn't saying much. I'm a phantom, a ghost. So, I'm still around, just trying to live and experience fandom a little more carefree now.

Also if the fics you're looking for aren't on my ffnet profile they're likely on my AO3, and if they're not on my AO3 then...well. Uh. Yeah.

Anyway, here's Wonderwall.

28.09.2018 - Thank you, everyone!