CHAPTER TWENTY UP! [Set after Rapist Anonymous. Amanda's night of drinking and gambling takes a turn for the worst and Olivia is the only one who can really understand.] Warning: mentions of rape throughout (not in every chapter ).

Olivia Benson has always wanted a child, but she has given up hope. Also, she struggles with the memories of her own traumatic childhood. Maybe she needs a daughter who can help her face her own demons, and in this way they can help each other. This story is about two lost children, Olivia and a kid no one wants. Finally something good happening for Olivia ;)

Amanda should have accepted the walk home from Olivia, then none of this would have happened. Can Olivia help Amanda come to terms with her assault while dealing with the guilt she feels for letting it happen? Amanda and Olivia friendship story. This is the first story I have ever written, so please any tips welcome! Let me know if I should carry on!

Life has a way of throwing unexpected fiery darts. At those times, everyone needs a shield to protect them and those around them. Those shields come in many varying and sometimes surprising forms. You know me, so you know it's EO!

A series of snapshots throughout Olivia's ordeal with Lewis and the earth shattering aftermath that followed. Carries throughout the events of season 15, showing the parts of the healing journey that the producers did not.

"How had it come to be that she, a person normally so strong and independent, had been rendered so helpless as to lack control over her own ability to die?" Takes place in 2005. WARNING: Very graphic story; please heed the M rating.

This one shots will take place when Kat is growing up with Olivia Benson as her mother. If you haven't read the stories Pain and Hold On you don't really need to but if you want then you can.

Olivia's attacked by a perp and left pregnant. 1yr later the perp comes back to finish what he started and Olivia's killed, or so the team is told. Elliot raises the baby as his own promising to protect her. Her rapist father is back 15yrs later to make her his next victim El tries to keep her safe but can't do it alone so Olivia returns to keep her own promise to protect her child

Because this time, It's his turn to be the strong one. "Yet, like after a wildfire, the earth renews, more vibrant and alive than the dead brush of the past." EO (Now Complete)

When Olivia Benson decides to have the baby she's always wanted, she doesn't expect the effect her decision will have on not only her life, but the lives of so many others. Takes place in season 16 with references to Season 9: Episode 14 Inconceivable. (Reposted Chapter 37-with an apology and explanation)

It wasn't just the summer wind cascading through her hair out in the open plains that took her breath away. /Set in 2011, three years after Undercover./ / EO / / *COMPLETE*

Based on the 4 months later at the end of Psycho/Therapist. William Lewis escapes from prison, set on revenge. His time in prison made him smarter and he knows exactly how to get to Olivia. The move he makes catches everyone off guard and leaves them reeling.

Elliot is a drunk and takes out his anger on Olivia. When the rest of the squad begins to notice, will she report it, or will she just take it to protect his kids? Please Review! First Fanfic ever.

It wouldn't be enough for him to kill her. He was going to destroy everything she'd ever been.

You never think it's going to happen to you and then it happened to Amanda's daughter, Meredith. Suddenly nothing's as it seems anymore and things just continue to spiral down out of their control. When faced with the task of getting through something so horrific, it seems the only thing that may help you is the people who continue to love you, even when you don't love yourself.

One-shot. Olivia finally opens up to Elliot about Sealview. EO.

Someone is abusing Olivia...Can her squad members help her or will it be too late? My first fanfic ever so be nice. I need reviews to see what you guys think. Criticism is welcomed! Love you guys! Set in Season 15 but Lewis never got to Olivia the second time.

Has 3 years been too long or can love outlast any measure of time? Can the past prove to be too much or will time heal all wounds? Find out when Olivia and Elliot unexpectedly cross paths. Picks up at the end of Season 15. The beginning starts out slow but picks up. I promise! First fanfic.

Saying goodbye

After Surrender Benson. What if Elliot walked back into Liv's life just when she needed him most? Slight AU. Eventual M.

One-shot. Olivia faces her toughest battle yet. Established Barson. No Noah.

AU: "I'm doing the best as I can for Henry but, I'm just so tired, Nick. I don't know what to do, every morning since the accident he's come into my room and asked me where Brian was, asked me when he's coming home, how do you tell a 4 year old that his father may never come back home?"

When Olivia and Brian recieve devastating news, they create a bucket list of all the things they want to do together.

Olivia's got big news but something happens and just when she needs Elliot's support the most, his life is thrown into chaos. Can the two of them pull through together? Slightly AU Thank you, Dick Wolf, for letting me play in your world with your characters.

September 11, 2001 changed the lives of so many in a matter of hours and shook our nation to it's core. Never Forget. Never Again. (One Shot, Olivia Benson's Story)

The decisions we make dictate the lives we will lead. E/O, though not without some tears, pain and drama. Dark content. Be advised.

UPDATED C5 {Amanda learns that sometimes the consequences to her actions are bigger than she realised. But now that she knows, what will she do?} Amanda/Liv/Nick/Fin friendship is a strong aspect of this story. With a special appearance by douchebag Nate.

A shadow from Olivia's past shows up on her doorstep and ends up offering the opportunity for her to take a very different direction in her life. But it's not without its hard choices. Is she willing to make changes in her career to pursue some of the other things she's spent the last several years of her life longing for? Does opening one door really close others? And how many?

The bad hand Olivia's been dealt continues - this time with real implications for her son. She, along with the help of her co-workers and friends, navigates the devastating news and the new developments it brings to her life. Noah's growing up and she is right along with him - in ways she never quite dreamed she'd have to. Parenthood is harder than she'd hoped. Story 5 of series.

Olivia battles the flu, and, of course, her relationship with her partner.

Olivia has some long term health problems to battle. E/O...eventually.

When Lizzie is attacked by someone they know and trust, Elliot struggles to cope. Thankfully he has Olivia but that changes when he finds out about Sealview.

EPILOGUE NOW UP! Olivia catches the flu and is ordered by the Captain to take her accumulated sick days, but when it becomes worse than normal who's going to be there to help her through it? EO