I deleted my profile by accident by pasting story text in here instead of a different window. I can't even come close to remembering all of what I wrote, and don't really have the spirit to bother. Oh well.

If you are about to read my stories, remember that you are about to read porn by a person who does that sort of thing and remember not to expect much.

I have basically abandoned the fandom and my stories, but I do hate to leave things unfinished. I will try to finish what I have started, and I will definitely leave them up.

When I look at what I wrote just a few months ago I am as overjoyed to recall my enthusiasm as I am ashamed of how silly my ideas and writing actually are. I was sort of conflicted in the beginning whether to write fanfic, knowing that it would be (at best) a waste of time or (at worst) a career/relationship ruining personal liability. But I am glad, at least right now, that I did write.

I wish that the people who've never had a 6-month crush on a series, or characters, or an idea, or something of the sort could know how awesome it feels, because now I only regret the other times when I didn't allow myself to be absorbed and obsessed because of poorly thought out reasons like being cool (or at least normal :) ), and not having evidence of my dumb sexual preferences on the internet, if anyone I know ever links the real me to the profile.

If you ever worry about wasted time, then remember that if you're having fun it isn't really wasted. And if you worry about looking stupid, remember it's just an online profile.

It was really fun, but my devotion just waned with time. Death Note was only a short series.