I search for the final component
I lost when I fell on down
I arrive at a distant star
At the edge of the sky dyed in the colors of the rainbow

I am held prisoner by the little lights that fell through the cracks
And down a path that looks like a daydream, I walk, and I walk
The excelling grativy
The repeating pull
Will not tell me about my heart

Take me away now
Connecting the bridge of dust and sand together
If you peek into the lap that was made
Sometime, it will change its shape
And begin to spin
Yes, in order to meet me again

. . About Me . .

My name is Marije, but you can also call me Sam.

I'm a girl.

I'm Dutch.

I like to draw, write, and make music, and I'm working hard to do something with it in the future.

Your best friend.

Fantasy and Romance are my specialties.

Bad boys are my weaknesses.

Life is my inspiration.

Sucks at updating.

. . Hot Newz . .

-07-26-2016:

I think it's starting to become quite obvious that I may, in fact, not return to this site at all. I've tried to become more active, to focus more on my on-going stories (The Beat of Love and A Bittersweet Pleasure). I've tried to write them, finish them, but I just can't. I don't have any inspiration left, nor do I even have the need to continue the stories. To be honest, with the way they're right now, I either want to pretend they never happened, or scrap everything and start from scratch. But let's be real here, we all know that I'm turning my back on the stories--on you--because I simply don't care anymore.

Writing fanfictions used to be a huge thing for me. It was a brilliant way to put down my love for a fandom, to escape the harsh reality I was trapped in. Fanfictions introduced me to a world I didn't even know existed. An awesome world filled with amazing things, people, and opportunities--a world I couldn't wait to be a part of. However, I don't feel that way anymore. Don't get me wrong. Writing is still something I love to do, but it's just that writing fanfictions isn't something I enjoy doing anymore. Not as much as I used to, anyway. The moment I realized I could make my own characters, my own world, I started to forget about fanfics. I asked myself, "Why should I write about someone else's world and characters if I could just create my own, and shape and bend them the way I see fit?" That question cleared up many things for me, and once I got a taste of it, I didn't want to go back.

I think it also has something to do with growing up. I started writing fanfictions when I was ten/eleven years old. Gakuen Alice was my first fandom, as that was one of my first animes/mangas that I watched/read and got me so fangirl crazy. But as I grew older, I realized how many holes the story actually had, how unrealistic and annoying the characters were (not to mention the way Tachibana drew and presented the characters). What first made my heart beat faster, now makes me frown and, honestly, just sigh in exasperation.

I still write fanfictions but just drabbles and oneshots, and I use them as a way to improve. I still like ABP and TBOLs plots. They were clichés, sure, but clichés can be awesome if done right. The problem was, I didn't know how to do it right.

This site, my fanfictions, you guys, were all part of my childhood. I've met some awesome people along the way--people whom I sadly parted ways with, but also people who I can still, after all this time, call my "friend". It has been the Gakuen Alice fandom that made me start writing, and it has been this site that gave me the opportunity to do so--to connect with every single one of you.

And I'm so, so, so grateful. Because if this site didn't exist, I would've never met you guys; I wouldn't be writing; I wouldn't even be the person I am today. Even though we all lived million miles apart from each other, we were still connected by one thing, and one thing only: doing what we loved most. And because of this, I'd like to think that we all grew up together.

I know that, by writing this note, I'm becoming one of the many authors of my generation (if I'm allowed to call them like that) to say goodbye. But I'm not saying goodbye forever. Not really. In a way, I'm still here. You can still message me, follow me on other sites I'm active on. I may be saying goodbye to this site, to Gakuen Alice. But to you I'm saying "see you later", because I'm sure we will.

I won't delete anything of my posted works, or my profile for that matter, so you are still able to access everything for as long as allows it.

Thank you all for letting me be part of an awesome community, and for all the love and support you've given me.

Thank you.

I love you all,

Marije

. . My Chaptered Fanfictions . .

The Beat of Love

Story Genre(s):

Romance, rivalry, camp life, slice of life, drama, humor, friendship, music.

Original Character(s):

-Chieko Mori.
-Chiharu Mori.
-Chika Mori.
-Cho Hibiki.
-Kei Kakashi.
-Sasuke Kakashi.
-Sora Nakajima.
-Hana Shin.
-Kim Hoshi.
-Mai Takagaki.

Chapters Written:

Ogakku.
2.Drama Queen, My Rival?
Love for Jerks.
4.Dancing King.
5.Cafeteria Incident.
6.The Challenge.
7.Round One.
8.His Mark of Victory.
9.The Beginning of a Love Triangle.
10.The Right Way to End.
11.Words of Love.
12.A Lovely Day.

Summary: His movements were maybe the best of all of them. It was… amazing! His body moved to the beat without any problems. His great muscles were clearly visible and his t-shirt damped because of his sweat; my cheeks started to feel hot and slowly, my heart started to speed up. Maybe this music camp isn’t so bad after all…

Author's Comment: The Gakuen Alice fanfiction My Music Camp that was written by Tearless Sonnet had inspired me to write this story. I asked her for permission which she luckily gave me. So, if you think it's a bit similiar to MMC it's because of this reason. Most scenes and things in some chapters are also based on my school life.

-This story is discontinued.-

A Bittersweet Pleasure

Story Genre(s):

Romance, school life, friendship, drama, slice of life, humor, angst, hurt/comfort, forbidden love.

Chapters Written:

1.What A Disaster.
2.Realizing the Mistakes.
3.Preparing the Last Things.
4.The Wedding.
5.A "Great" Start.
6.Just A Kiss.
7.Concealed Feelings.
8.Jealousy Makes the Best Out of You.
9.Doubt and Trust.

Summary: I breathed unevenly as he trailed butterfly kisses on my neck. He pushed me to his bed while our lips were locked onto each other. "Stop. T-this is bad, and you know it.." He looked at me and a smirk appeared on his lips. "Admit it, you like it too."

Author's Comment: I had asked Rekindled Moroseness to write a story with me. She loved to do it and after struggling with the plot, we finally thought of a plot about Natsume and Mikan being step sibblings and falling in love with each other. It is quite cliche but we thought we could give it a nice twist. But, after the first chapter, she gave up and didn't want to write it anymore. It's too bad but I'll continue and certainly finish it. The story started in the M-rating, meaning there was going to be LEMONS that Rekindled Moroseness would write. I've changed the rating into T because I don't write LEMONS, so to those who were expecting a lot of those scenes, I'm sorry. I'm luckily a writer who goes far with love scenes so I hope that would satisfy you, even if it's just a little bit. :)

-This story is discontinued.-

. . My Oneshots/Drabbles . .

Kiss Her Goodbye (Gakuen Alice/RomanceAngst/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: “Then don’t go!” Her hands grab my arms tightly. I look at her sadly. “I can’t stay.” “Why not…!” “Because I don’t have a choice,” I answer slowly. “I have to go.”

Lone Surprises (Gakuen Alice/RomanceHumor/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: Natsume interrupted her again by sealing her lips with a gentle kiss. He broke their lips apart after a few seconds and left a small gap between them. "Well then," he said, his lips still turned into a smirk, his voice soft. "Merry Christmas."

Somewhere in the Forest (Gakuen Alice/RomanceHumor/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: Who knew that Egg Hunting would be so much fun? “How can you say that when you haven’t even unwrapped it?” “The paper didn’t look so good to me.” “Red is your favorite color!” “I know, but the heart patterns made me sick.” Stupid legends.

That's What Friends Are For (Gakuen Alice/RomanceFriendship/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: Yeah, Natsume admitted, he screwed up; big this time. He'd do anything to make up for that, but what? What about accepting the help of a certain animal-lover and… wait, that freaky inventor too? Oh God..

Escape (Gakuen Alice/RomanceAngst/NxM/Drabble)

Summary: He'd never be close to her, no matter how much he loved her; he'd decided to sneak in her bedroom in the middle of the night to see her one last time, before telling her goodbye… for good. – "Wait." "I'm sorry."

Not Alone (Gakuen Alice/RomanceHurtComfort/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: "Natsume," she mumbled in his shirt, blushing a bit as she inhaled his scent. The boy peered over his shoulder, raising his eyebrow at her. "Hm?" "T-thank you…" – She'd never expected that only one simple boy could make her pain go away.

His Present (Gakuen Alice/RomanceHumor/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: Natsume is annoyed Mikan would think he would never accept any of her presents. But when she somewhat dared him, he decided that that'd be his chance to give her something that she'd never forget, not even himself. "You pass."

Shiroi Heart (Gakuen Alice/RomanceAngst/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: He didn't budge when she took one step closer to him. "Natsume, I really love you!" She tiptoed to his level and pressed her lips to his as quickly as she could. Unfortunately, it didn't change his way of thinking.. "I'm sorry.."

Only You (Gakuen Alice/RomanceAngst/NxM/Drabble)

Summary: She stiffened and felt her heart beat go faster as his grip tightened around her wrist. She bit the insides of her cheek, not knowing what he exactly meant with that sentence. "Natsume… B-but—" "I've got you…and that's all I need."

His Moments of Cuteness (Gakuen Alice/RomanceFluff/NxM/Oneshot)

Summary: Because no matter how tough or cold he acts, even Natsume Hyuuga can be cute too. – "You were the one who watched me sleep like some creeper." "T-that's because... It isn't my fault you look so cute when you're sleeping!"

. . Collaborations . .

Balance (Gakuen Alice/RomanceAngst/NxM/Oneshot)
Chasing Music (Gakuen Alice/RomanceDrama/NxM/Chaptered)

. . Authors I Work/Worked With . .

Rekindled Moroseness
Tearless Sonnet
xAvenging Angelx
Topaz Tsubasa
Rinail

. . Contact Me . .

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Take me away now