Name: Azure (last and middle name is confidential)

Age: 19

Here is a picture I found from photobucket. I love photobucket because of many wonderful reasons, but mostly because it's easy to use, and you don't need an account, of course I have one because it's fun. It's of L, Near, and Mello; from Death Note. I love Death Note, it's so well done. The story-line is really well done, I love all the little twists and turns; and trying to figure out what will happen next. I also love Obha and Obata's funny personality.

Mill-Doors
by: Carl Sandburg (1878 - 1967)

You never come back.
I say good-by when I see you going in the doors,
The hopeless open doors that call and wait
And take you then for--how many cents a day?
How many cents for the sleepy eyes and fingers?

I say good-by because I know they tap your wrists,
In the dark, in the silence, day by day,
And all the blood of you drop by drop,
And you are old before you are young.
You never come back.

-I’m blackhearteddestruction; without a capital in the front. I wrote my given name at the top, I just didn't add my last name; I like to have some privacy. Hopefully everyone thinks I’m female, if not; sorry to mislead you.

-I'm also blackhearteddestruction for my fictionpress account; although I don't have anything on it yet: blackhearteddistruction

-I'm now a Beta-reader so feel free to send me a story to edit.

-Stuff I like: I love writing/drawing, reading; being artistic mostly. I love shopping for books only. I hate trying on clothes, or going to clothes stores; personally I like the smell of books; old or new, and strangely dust… I love poems and books; obviously, I also love fanfiction; even if some of them do make me cry. I love CD's and really well done movies, so initially, I like CD's and movies. I like scary movies that have a story-line, if they don’t; than I don’t ever plan to watch them.

-Stuff I don’t like: I have never really liked pink or yellow; they are way too bright. It’s like walking outside after staying inside for awhile, and looking straight at the sun. I’m afraid I hate a lot of the big media ploys (I may still enjoy them but not as much as other people would; how some people become obsessed); Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings. I absolutely despise gory horror movies that have no story line, like The Hills Have Eyes, or Saw… I see no point at all to them; basically they just make me laugh. Although I still watch them, because I want to find a horror movie which makes me scared. I also hate mushrooms; I don’t like to eat fungi. I also HATE to clean my room.

-Anime/manga I like: Death Note, FAKE, Hellsing Hanna Kimi, Fullmetal Alchemist, Kannazuki No Miko, Strawberry Panic, Kiddy Grade, Yugioh, Gravitation, Judas, Kanpai, Selfish Love, Lambent of The Lamb, Kuroshitsuji, Pandora Hearts, Crescent Moon, Life, Siyuki Reload, Papa to Kiss in The Dark, DNAngel, Mai-Hime, Loveless, Lucky Star, Kyou Kara Maou, Venus Vs Virus, Fruits Basket, D.GreyMan, Immortal, Princess Ai, and Sailor Moon. I love so many other shows but, I am going to stop with the ones I have written out. I love how you can ask anybody if they watched Sailor moon when they were little and they will say, “Yes.”

-Favorite movies: Sweeney Todd, ZombieLand, Lovely Bones, Moulin Rouge, Phantom of the Opera, Romeo and Juliet, 10 things I hate About You, 200 pounds of Beauty, Ever After, Formula 17, The Prestige, Momento, Batman Returns, Crash, Star Wars, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, Prince of Theives, Star Trek, Dogma, Never Been Kissed, Enchanted, Sleepy Hollow, The Brother's Bloom, Hot Fuzz, Shawn of the Dead, Interview with the Vampire, Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy, Pulp Fiction, Into The Wild, BramStokers Dracula, and Dark Knight. Favorite animated movies:, Sleeping Beauty, Princess And The Frog, Snow White, Beauty And The Beast, Alice in Wonderland, Fox and the Hound, Corpse Bride, Coraline, Monsters vs Aliens, Robin Hood, Nightmare Before Christmas, Spirited Away, Shrek, Howls Moving Castle, The Last Unicorn, and Beowulf.

-My favorite bands/artists: I adore music of almost every single kind of genre, but some of my top bands/artists would have to be: Nightwish, Queen, Imogene Heap, Blue Foundation, Kim Ah-jung, My Chemical Romance, Angelzoom, The Audition, Mondragon Scream, Enya, Three Days Grace, One More Night, Flyleaf, Sisters Of Mercy, Stars, Cascade, Merilin Manson, Avenue Q, Brian Adams, Andrew WK, 30 Seconds To Mars, Planet Hell, Linken Park, Nanji, Meg & Dia, Fall Out Boy, Imogen Heap (Frou Frou), April Sixth, Sweet Box, Fefe Dobson, Panic at the Disco, Fantomas, Paramour, U2, The Audition, Evanescence, Aqua, Annie Lennox, Nickelback, No Doubt, and The Used. But my mp3 has all sorts of fun packed stuff that I listen to.

-Favorite shows: The Simpsons, Bugs Bunny and Tweety Show, Family Guy, American Dad, Robot Chicken, and Futurama. Non-animated shows I like include: Supernatural, How I Met Your Mother, Saturday Night Live, Pushing Daisy's, CSI, and CSI New York, Whose line is it anyways, Nobuta wo Produce, Kimmi wa Petto. I also enjoy a lot of shows shown on Animal Planet, and the Discovery Channel.

-Thank you: I will thank aliens who tried to steal my soul; my friends for saving my soul; even if I had to give it to give them it in return for my life soul--what strange logic. I thank the people who are smart in this world. My friend who helps me with Math and Science... I thank the vampires who have left me alone; so far, and I thank myself, for being myself. (Laugh)

-Stories that are Ongoing:

Cant stop loving: I hope to keep updating this one at least once every month; as long as I don’t get lazy, or something this story should keep. If I do get lazy I’ll get someone to slap me. Okay, so I lied and haven't updated in over three months...I don't really have a excuse. [Hiatus]
Behind Bars: This story was inspired by the hundreds of prison movies in the world. It was also inspired by the thought that love is everywhere. I am going to post the next chapter out as soon as I can, but sadly right at this moment I have a very bad writters block. Its a very upsetting thing to have. hopefully I will get some ideas from the cottage. [Hiatus]

-Stories that are complete:

1984: Love Letter A love letter to Winston from Julia, revealing how she feels about them being together. I had to do this letter for English, so feel free to critique it. P.S. I do know that they can’t actually write letters to each other.
Missing Piece Near thinks about his past, of how Mello and him fell in love. He always knew he would find the missing piece to his puzzle, he just didn’t believe it would be taken away so soon. Ending is sad, although most of it is happy.
Snow and Ice Yuki has always hated himself, all the way from his name to his own thoughts. What is there was a bright eyed agitated manic who should him life? Would he believe life was worth all its discomforts as long as he gets to spend his life with the one he want
When The Sun Fell In Love With The Moon Naruto and Sasuke fanfic, I used the Song by Panic at the Disco. Naruto loves Sasuke, Sasuke isn't sure, until the end.
Leaving Silent Tears A sad story about Leah's thoughts about her lost love and feelings about Sam leaving her for her cousin.

-Poems that are completed/uncompleted:

Puzzles A Near and Mello yaoi poem. Near is mostly repersented as a puzzle; having no emotions, etc.
He'd Always Known A L and Light yaoi poem; about how they could never be together.
What Have We Done My Brother? A poem from Obi-Wan's view of the retched battle on Mustafar.

-Stories I am planning:

Insane Love There is a thin line between genius and insanity. This is also the same about love and hate. Sometimes even a genius can be an insane idiot when it comes to denying that they love someone. Can Kaiba set aside his insanity to admit who he loves?KaibaXJoey
Preview:
“I see…” Kaiba said glaring at Joey and his friends.
“What the hell is your problem, moneybags?” Joey yelled clutching his hands tightly, fighting the urge to punch the tall blue eyed man.
“I don’t wish to hear opinions from an untrained mutt who doesn’t know when to keep his mouth shut,” Kaiba said smirking as he walked away but, not before turning to Hisa and adding, “I’ll make sure that the sensor department is doing their job.”
"That guy is evil,” Tristan said once Kaiba was down the hall.

Nothing Is Real Til' It's Gone L believed that love was a pointless emotion; always getting in the way of ones better judgment. The great detective must always be on his toes, must always live in fear of dying at any moment. So, why does his better judgment fail him at his last breath?
Preview:
‘No, don’t ever fall in love,’ L thought to himself as he glanced at Light quickly, 'I know that loving someone—anything makes you weak and worthless.'
“L, are you okay?” Light asked placing a hand on L’s shoulder.
“Please take your hand off my shoulder Light,” L said sourly, as Light’s touch showered him with a strange warmth starting at the place Light touched him.
“Sorry L,” Light said, “I didn’t mean to offend you.”
‘I am going to be in danger if love clouds my judgment of Light,’ L thought looking into the emotionless brown eyes of Kira.

Sweet Conflict Mello loves Near, gaining courage he confesses. Not know what to do Near decides to ignore him; pretend nothing happened. Mello won't take no for an answer, and it looks like someone is in for a bit of seducing.
Preview:
“Near,” a male voice called out after a short knock. Near instinctively tensed up as he reached for the door handle, turning it, he opened the door a speck peering out.
“Yes?” Near asked quietly, relaxing as he saw it was Matt instead of Mello.
“That fucking insensitive bastard kicked me off my video game until I give you this,” Matt sighed holding out a poorly wrapped package, then almost as an after thought Matt quickly added that it was from Mello and not him.

Boyfriends Cheat Night wants Rikku to love him but, Soshi is always in the way drawing Rikku farther away from him. Can Night devise a plan to make Soshi fall in love with him to have Rikku all to himself, or will Night fall in love during the process?
Preview:
“How long are you going for?” Night asked, watching Rikku throw clothes into her suitcase on the bed, watching it fill with a mountain of clothes, and mail order products.
“I don’t know exactly, probably for month,” Rikku proclaimed as she desperately tried to close her stuffed suitcase.
“I can’t spend a night away from you though,” Night whispered, using his male-charm to win her over, as he placed his arms around her waist, causing Rikku to turn a brilliant shade of red.
“Oh…Night, I’m sorry but,” Rikku managed pulling out of Nights grasp, “I can’t bring you along.”

Robin's Love You've heard the famous story of Robin Hood; a man who stole from the rich and gave to the poor. You have never heard the real story, a story that intertwines with forbidden love. A story of a woman named Robin, and her undying love for Maid Marian.
Preview:
“No!” I screamed as Robin fell to the ground, tumbling through the piled up leaves under the trees. The trees that I had believed held such beauty now seemed grotesque and evil. The sun that had once drifted so pleasantly through the trees to the ground now turned tragically dark.

Ask Me, I Dare You Draco always treated people who were not in Slytherin dreadfully; always calling them names and dwindling down their already low self esteem. Ron was treated much worse, for reasons he would never know.
Preview:
'It's complete bullocks that the only way I can get close to Weasly is to argue with him- call him names,' Draco thought bitterly to himself as he walked quickly down the corridor, 'My intellectual level has been brought down to that of a six year old boy who doesn't know how to show his affection, except by pulling hair.'
"Oh no!" Draco heard a unhappy voice ahead of him say.
"Ron, don't worry," Harry said, "Just keep walking and ignore him."
Draco felt his lips, against his will, turn up into a smirk. Ron noticed him and was worried that he was going to make a remark about him. So what if it wasn't undying affection, fear would work. Any facial expression Draco could get out of Ron was enough to make him do, and say, horrible things to the red head.

Love Me Forever Once you die you are reborn to a new time-a new life. On a planet known as Earth, two men are reborn who seem to hold strange visions of a futuristic past. Once they meet will the past help them change their future?
Preview:
“Just think about it!” Ben yelled upset, “How would we remember the same things if we hadn’t shared a past of some kind!”
“Listen to me, this ‘past’ we think we share does not make any sense,” Jinn said looking out the window at the light drifting in, “First of all, this ‘past’ seems like a futuristic world.”
“But I want it to be real, I want us to share that bound,” Ben said looking at Jinn’s calm face, “ I want us to have a deeper connection than master and padawan.”
“We can’t do something like that,” Jinn whispered looking at Ben.
"Why can’t we?” Ben asked as he walked up to Jinn dragging a finger down his right cheek “I love you more than anything else in the whole galaxy.”
"You’re giving into temptation,” Jinn spoke his breath catching.
“Please Qui-Gon,” Ben said his mouth slowly placed onto Jinn’s.

Forget Me Not Dark always ignored Krad’s feelings, disregarding them, always forgetting him. Krad slowly started to despise Dark until hatred was planted deep inside his heart. Krad will make sure that Dark never forgets about him; even if it means death.
Preview:
“You knew how I felt!” Krad cried out, “Yet you insisted to love another.”
“…” Dark said nothing, but calmly lowered his gaze to the ground.
“I believe that’s were my deep hatred of you first occurred,” Krad said as he took a step closer to Dark, “your constant disregard for my feelings."
“I didn’t know what your feelings were,” Dark whispered his voice filled with sadness."
“Stop messing with my feelings!” Krad yelled angrily.

Dum Nos Disungat Mors, Meus Amor Till Death Do Us Part, My Love. Jacob imprints on Edward; this event causes Bella to leave with their only child. Renesmee comes back to Forks, after many years, to wreak her havoc on her father and his lover.
Preview:
"You were awful to my mother," Renesmee said her head leaning against th epalm of her hand. "Mother really did love you."
"I know Renesmee," Edward growled, muscles tense, "I didn't mean to hurt her like that."
"Didn't mean to but you did," Renesmee said smirking before she pointed to Jacob continuing, "And worst of all, you settled for something as disgusting as that."
"Renesmee," Edward said, anger laced through his voice.
"I see I've outlived my stay," she said walking toward the door before turning around, sarcasm evident in her voice, "I'll come visit later Daddy."
The door opened with a small sqeak, letting in a small soft ray of sunlight. A small breeze wafted through the room, shuffleing the paper on the table lightly. The day outside was looked too nice, it almost seemed to mock what had just happened- what catastrophe had just occured. The beautiful day made the situation before them seem like it was going to get better, but even as they thought this they knew things could only get worse.
"She doesn't understand a thing," Jacob whispered, placing his hand on Edwards shoulder.

Look For Me Caspian never told Peter how he felt, and now that he's gone he never will; or at least that's what he thought. Aslan sends him to London to find Peter. Will Caspian be able to win him over in the time frame he's given?
Preview:
“Caspian, why did you not go?” Aslan asked the new King of Narnia. The high Queens and Kings of old had left through the tree; Susan and Peter never to return again.
“This is my country—my land, Aslan,” Caspian said after a moment looking up the sky, “Someone has to protect this beautiful place.”
“You have grown wise beyond your years; to put your kingdom before your feelings takes a great deal of courage.”
“Just—Aslan, why does it hurt so much?” Caspian said grabbing his clothes above his heart, as though he was in a great deal of pain.
“Do you feel you could have won his heart—his love?” Aslan asked quietly.

-Links to fun stuff:

LINKS TO MY LEMONS/LIMES:

Cant Stop Loving

3. Bonus: Alas your all I need

YOUTUBE VIDEOS:

I'd Rather Have the Truth--Caspian&Peter

youtube.com/watch?v=2YmJ4qEAlaE

Without You - RENT Movie

youtube.com/watch?v=IrE7mh7Emj4

Olympic song "Beijing Welcomes You"

youtube.com/watch?v=0XbIZqg4v7w

Anime Mix 『Just for a Day』; what can I say about this amv except that it's perfect.

youtube.com/watch?v=p0ENeOz8Mko

Equal Marriage Glass (Gay)

youtube.com/watch?v=AKTCdVL-L-s&feature=related

Here is a Yuri amv that I really enjoyed; song is, here I am, by Brian Adams.

youtube.com/watch?v=XcWPCsSWSZg

Death Note Randomness is so funny. It is a lot of random parodies.

youtube.com/watch?v=bl6X_pmI3Yc

Nerina Pallot - Everybody's Gone to War

youtube.com/watch?v=9F3JH-e2zs4

Formula 17 amv, Save me.

youtube.com/watch?v=s7I86myVxJE&feature=user

Kingdom Hearts - Scars of Time amv.

youtube.com/watch?v=LSAC9q0KlRk

The song Crimson, by The Cary Brothers paired up with the anime, Tactics.

youtube.com/watch?v=e6PIGuJarSo

Another Yuri amv; called Blurry.

youtube.com/watch?v=86xiCUntXng

Death Note MMV; song From Yesterday.

youtube.com/watch?v=Eak42pU4_7U

Mai Hime yuri amv; Song is called Silent Love.

youtube.com/watch?v=X6rsDjmzs5o

A Princess Tutu amv; with the song Fairytale, by Angelzoom.

youtube.com/watch?v=vyJ2FAAqdH4

Death Note: L's Rebuttal to Raito's (Light) Rant.

youtube.com/watch?v=h3UvhT53QaM

Death Note Trailer, Ouran Host Club Style.

youtube.com/watch?v=OyWDmnhcXj0

Anime Yuri amv; with the song Sacrafice.

youtube.com/watch?v=P0BLAwTgODM&feature=related

Stars Video; called, You're Ex-lover is Dead.

youtube.com/watch?v=a2yJSFHTrgM&feature=related

All Around me; by Flyleaf video.

youtube.com/watch?v=tdDJ6wp-MSQ

A mix anime amv, with the song, I Will Carry You.

youtube.com/watch?v=0TY_JoPPrUc

Death Ouran Note Opening Parody

youtube.com/watch?v=DWDB34OByU4

Grimm's Fairy Tales Classics Cinderella Part 1/5.

youtube.com/watch?v=Si1gf-TARuE

Elfen Lied AMV "Rosemary's Baby".

youtube.com/watch?v=oSX_0plm-ps

A Princess Tutu amv called, Hall Om Mig Nu.

youtube.com/watch?v=tHZqxecCukg

This is a Fruits Basket amv with a Yuki/Kyo plot.

youtube.com/watch?v=Lfjzu6a2QQA

Death Note: The movie, were Ryuk freaks out.

youtube.com/watch?v=xO3hyDts0nM

Light is Evil amv.

youtube.com/watch?v=CICHrve6mjA

OTHER:

L: Change the World movie trailer. It’s in Japanese with no subtitles.

/L-movie/

Death Note, Type Personality Test.

/tests/take?testid=11549237148259903447

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Phantom Wooer, The
by: Thomas Lovell Beddoes (1803 - 1849)

A ghost, that loved a lady fair,
Ever in the starry air
Of midnight at her pillow stood;
And, with a sweetness skies above
The luring words of human love,
Her soul the phantom wooed.
Sweet and sweet is their poisoned note,
The little snakes of silver throat,
In mossy skulls that nest and lie,
Ever singing, 'Die, oh! die.'

Young soul put off your flesh,
And come With me into the quiet tomb,
Our bed is lovely, dark and sweet;
The earth will swing us, as she goes,
Beneath our coverlid of snows,
And the warm leaden sheet.
Dear and dear is their poisoned note,
The little snakes of silver throat,
In mossy skulls that nest and lie,
Ever singing, 'Die, oh! die.'

- blackhearteddistruction