Hey y’all. My name is Avery.

I know I’m never going to finish any of these fanfics, and to be honest, I don’t really want to and I don’t care enough about them to try. So yeah, I’m taking a page from Marie Kondo and throwing the fuck out everything that doesn’t bring me joy. Which includes this damn website. Now I’m not going to stop writing, in fact I’m in the process of writing my next novel. I just won’t write here. TBH, whenever I reread this stuff all I do is roll my eyes and gag at how cliche it all is. I was thirteen years old when I wrote these stories, my grammar was atrocious, and I had no idea what I was doing. I had such a heteronormative mind back then too. Everything I wrote was so heterosexual. I didn’t realize until I was maybe seventeen that not everything has to be one way. Hell, I’m not even heterosexual!

Well, I definitely didn’t write this author’s note to complain about how dumb I was as a child or how much I hate this website. So the real reason is, well, I’m quitting.

I’m quitting fanfiction. I’m leaving it behind forever and I’m not coming back. And the reason isn’t something bad or sad or whatever. It’s actually something pretty good. And the reason why im leaving is that I’m okay now. When I started this account I was thirteen years old and I was in a dark place. I was being bullied constantly, I had anxiety, ADHD, OCD, and ASD. I was always sad and angry, but this website helped me. And throughout my teenage years, whenever I felt sad and lost and desperate and alone I wrote. And it really helped when I wrote these shitty stories, as much as they sucked. They helped me with my depression and anxiety. And I realize now that I don’t need it anymore. I’m in a good place. I love my school and my friends, and I haven’t stopped writing, but now I’m writing things that I love and care about. I’m writing because I’m happy now. I’m in love with a beautiful woman and I’m planning on getting married after graduation and we’re planning on moving to Scotland together while she gets her phd. I’m so extremely happy. I’m not a child anymore, and I think it’s time I let go of everything. Including this. Right after I post this, I will log off for the last time.

But I won’t leave you all hanging.

So, without further ado, here is how all of my unfinished works were going to end.

The Mewni School for Royalty - The project that I never should have started and I know that I shouldn't have but I did anyway. I guess I was trying to redeem myself for the stories of my past and throw in as much diversity as I could. And OMG wtf was I thinking giving the two main characters the same fucking name??? So here’s the spoilers. In the next planned chapter Sel and Leo were going to find out that Leo can read that book in Alex’s office and there's this who detailed history of the fight between Angels and Demons and their natural hatred for one another. But then Sel and Leo would realize their twin flames because the soul of the demon and angel are connected. Selene falls asleep and has another dream where the other Selene asks if she can have temporary control of Selene’s body so that she can talk to her brother. She says okay and her body is taken over. This is when it’s revealed that the dreams she’s been having of Alex’s twin, were never what she thought. Yup, that’s not Selene, that’s the demon. It’s not helping her, it’s seducing her and trying to convince Selene to do it’s bidding. So now the demon has taken over Selene’s body and everyone is fucked. Except their not because Leo’s angel comes forward with a way to expel the demon at the cost of his soul. He agrees because he loves her. Except they don’t need to because when Janna used the severing stone she gave herself two souls instead of two halves of one soul and she gives up one soul cuz she has an extra one and wont die. Blah blah blah demon is expelled from Selene, she cant read minds anymore. The Butterfly-Diaz fam leaves Mewni and Sel promises to visit. And they all lived happily ever after.

It’s Not Just Make Believe - Goodness, I haven’t thought about this story in forever. I actually wrote a majority of it during ninth grade French class with my friend. We lost touch a few years ago. If I remember correctly, we planned it so that they would save the princess, the evil children would return to their families, Lux would become a knight, and Kick and Kendall would return to the real world and live happily ever after. Fairytale ending. Gag!

It Started With A Kiss - I remember hating writing this one because it was so boring.The childhood friends thing was the only thing it really had going for itself, other than that it was pretty dull. I had begun to set up some stuff with a beach house that Kendall was going to run away to and Kick would find her there, blah, blah, blah. Happy endings again.

Kick’s on The Road - This was the only one that I had a written plan/outline for. It was chapter 16 in Arkansas where I left off… This was the point when people would slowly start to leave the trip. Fiona would chose to stay in Arkansas and get to know her family, telling her friends she would fly back home on her own. She and Mouth were supposed to have this big fight, I wrote it all out somewhere, probably in some binder from sophomore year… Anyways, they were supposed to go to Dallas next, I don’t remember what I had planned for Dallas but it was probably something music or cowboy related?? From there they were gonna drive through New Mexico, Ronaldo and Christina were going to leave the trip and search for aliens in Roswell… Seriously, that’s what fifteen year old me wrote… wow. And then the next chapter they were gonna be in Arizona, see the Grand Canyon, and at this point Mouth would leave the trip and fly back home. Leaving Kick, Kendall, Gunther, and Moxie left on this trip. Then they would be in Las Vegas. I actually had two scenes written for this. One where they find Louise and one where they don’t. Either way it was going to turn out to be that Louise was actually running away from Ralph, who was an abusive boyfriend and she only danced in those burlesque shows because they paid good money that she needed to disappear. Basically don’t judge a book by it’s cover. Moxie was going to leave next, taking the train to Los Angeles, feeling like maybe she needed to run away for a little while too. Leaving three characters travelling up the coast together. Portland was next, and this is where Gunther would leave the trip, sensing that maybe Kick and Kendall need space. And suddenly, they’re alone in a car. And they have to talk. They talk about their lives and their journeys and how they actually don’t totally despise each other. They make it to Seattle only to find that their siblings aren’t there. They took a plane to Europe and are backpacking together for the summer. Ember left a note for Kendall in her dorm, telling her to “go make her own adventure.”

Stolen - Looking back, I didn’t handle anything that I was writing about correctly. I should have been more careful with what I chose to write about. It was a very ambitious project discussing kidnapping, PTSD, depression. Some of these things I knew absolutely nothing about… Heck, I don’t even think I bothered to google anything to learn more about it. How stupid was I? This story was just going to be about Naomi readjusting to life, a life that seems very foreign to her and contrasting that with Ryder’s happy-go-lucky, carefree life. It was supposed to tell the story of these two girls as they grow up. I didn’t really have an ending for this one. But everything was going to turn out okay.

Together Again - Did anyone read this? They were going to remember their past lives as Thalia and Luke and fall in love like they were supposed to the first time. I think this is the only pairing I wrote about that I still love and still ship. Thaluke still has my heart.

Okay, and I think that’s everything.

Well, it’s been great.

Thank you for being a part of my life.

Goodbye.

Xoxo, Avery.