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Hi, I'm a fanfiction addict from Germany who is a bit (very) crazy at times (always). Therefore, fanfiction gives me opportunity to give in to my crazy dark side and its even crazier and darker cravings ;)

I suppose the oddest thing about me (I'm odd in many ways) is that I can jump from over-cheerfulness to being totally shy (especially when with authorities, which is not exactly helpful). Once I'm comfortable around people, I allow my crazy side to show, though.

I guess I'm what you can call a creative mind. I enjoy painting, drawing, photography... and reading and writing, well, obviously. I started writing stories of all different kinds early on in my childhood.

I am still new to the business of being an obsessive fan, though I read a lot of fanfiction before registering to the website.

One of my biggest problems: I hardly get a story finished.

I just want it to continue for some reason, or rather... my mind makes it continue - if I don't have the next idea popping up inside my head and I just have to write it down... and that really means I have to write it down, because I will otherwise forget about it. I have the memory of a goldfish (that's about 3 seconds, as far as I know). I actually started writing fanfiction as a sort of self-therapy. And now that I'm an active member in a short while, I actually see that I start to break stories up into chapters, which is a first success - I know, that's how stories normally work, but for the record, I have a 200-page story with no single chapter-break in it yet, because I didn't feel the need for it before. Posting chapter for chapter actually helps me to push a story towards an end, or so I hope... at least I get the feeling that I do. In any case, you may take this as a warning that if you decide to read one of my stories, you will have to wait for the ending to come.

Why do I enjoy fanfiction? Well, to me that is no question you can answer in a single sentence (unless you take that sentence for an answer).

Personally, I always was a TV-and-movie-addict, and long before I found out that there actually is this fantastic rainbow-colored world of fanfiction, I often found myself re-imagining my favorite TV shows, inside my head. I could do that for hours. Well, as I grew older, I started watching TV shows maybe not more seriously or on a meta-level, but I began to actually evaluate them. And when I felt disappointed with what the writers did to one of my favorite characters, that is when I started to re-imagine... but that I actually started to write it down took me a few more years. One of the reasons probably was that I felt hesitant to re-write a story someone else came up with (you know how it goes... we don't own anything, yadda). The other, perhaps more prominent one, was that in my community or peer group I had no one who shared that kind of interest (at least not that I knew).

And then I discovered this magical place with dark blue banner. And suddenly... and I know this sounds totally cliché now... I found out that I wasn't the only one. To me, that really was something that blew my mind. I didn't know that there is actually so many others who thought the same, wanted to re-imagine, and enjoyed the same kind of genre I always headed for inside my head. And so I started reading and that soon made me courageous enough to start writing down what I had inside my mind all the while.

So, back to the leading question - I suppose that the reason why I love fanfiction is that it gives me opportunity to re-imagine and therefore make up my own kind of fictional reality. It's not just to profit from a scaffold provided by the smart writers of the TV shows and movies, or to criticize them, but to discover new layers to a story that may not become as clear on the show, to dig deeper, scratch more than just at the surface. And to the day it simply amazes me that one scaffold, one TV show, one film, can create infinite foci, perspectives, points of views, readings, genres, new interpretations of characters and entire universes (I mean, the hell!). I suppose that fanfiction, as any kind of literature, simply shows that imagination is really infinite. And I love that.

Anyway, enough of that...

Sadly, English is not my native language. I wish it really, really were, because I just love English and the way it sounds. I know that my English is not where it maybe should be, but that won't stop me. I hope to improve through writing. My philosophy: If you love something, you hold on to it ;)

In any case, you can be assured that every story of mine I write with absolute passion, sometimes perhaps even too much. They are my babies, and that is also what makes it so hard for me to finish stories. I don't want them to disappoint others, because I spend so much time refining them, imagining them. I invest a lot into my stories, aside from time. And I can only hope that this somehow transmits into my fiction. At least I make any effort to transport these feelings and my devotion into all of my fictions.

I adore: Supernatural, Being Human (US Version, though I took a liking to the British version as well, but I didn't watch much of the show yet), NCIS L.A. (if only for Deeks, he's just too cute to be true), Melissa & Joey, Elementary, Avatar - the Last Airbender and its sequel the Legend of Korra, Numb3rs (I could still cry that the show ended...), Criminal Minds (I guess Reid-obsession goes without saying), Suits (meow), Lord of the Rings, the Hobbit (even if the movies were not matching my expectations), Avatar, Iron Man, Avengers in general, Thor in particular (of course... how could I not love Thor, or rather Thorki, right?!)... and many, many more. I may add at this point that Game of Thrones finally got me hooked, too, and now I am one of those fans hollering the theme music whenever the show is on (the OTP of my latest obsession is JaimeXBrienne. I love the chemistry between them - and if a character makes another character engaging in an incestous relationship at the cost of other people's lives and a boy's ability to walk, then I think they really belong together, but that may be just my opinion).

I enjoy: Mostly Hurt/Comfort stories. I know it's mean that I seemingly only want to see my favorite characters hurt, but... I don't know. I just love it when they are in pain, but still pull through somehow. Maybe it's my dark side calling then... at least I blame my dark side in case someone asks ;)

Romances are recently permeating more of my fictions. I guess I am just a bloody romantic after all. Once the clutches of OTP have you, there is no longer an escape, I guess.

Since I started writing fanfiction... I also realized that I actually enjoy AU a lot, or at least I often end up writing it (for some reason), but thinking about why I started writing fanfiction... that may be the reason why - I just love to create new universes inside my head ;)

Well... that's about it, I suppose...

Hope you enjoy my stories, if not... I apologize ;)