Yes, Cloud rules!!

A few things I just want to say first:

I don't think anyone actually reads all this and cares. ... -shrug- oh well.

School is complete torture!!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!! If you know any good Christian bands PLEASE tell me cuz I really am trying to find some!! I'm desperate!! So please!! Or Christian books or anything!! I'd really appreciate it!

If you want to message me about anything, feel free to. I like message things.

I write the most when it's between 10pm and 3am in my pyjamas sitting on my bed. I think best and am more calm and not stressed at night. Yayy!

I love God very much!! He's very important to me!! A lot of stuff on here ... Yes, I'm a Christian still!! And even though I'm a Christian and all, I have ... only two friends that are also Christians. So, I ... I don't freak out if you don't believe in Him, it's just what I believe. I won't judge you or anything just because you don't believe in Him or never will. Just please, don't judge me!! So ... Don't be scared of me!!

Oh yeah, and I'm a proud Canadian.

I have a VERY EXTREMELY HARD time trying to explain what goes on in my head - it mostly comes out totally confusing and I may forget a few words. A lot of weird stuff goes on in there so ... Lots of stuff won't make sense. But I'm sure, it won't be hard to understand what I'm saying here cuz ... I'm not really going insane right now so ... It's all good :)! Oh, the same goes for when I'm writing cuz ideas will keep popping out and I try to write fast enough but I end up missing really important words. interesting ... kay!

Okay so this is a song "Deathbed" by Relient K ... actually this is like half of the song cuz it's eleven minutes long and it's too long to write out. This is just the especially really good stuff. Please read. Really good. Especially if you're a Christian. Or thinking of being one ... I don't know!!

"I was so scared of Jesus but he sought me out like the cancer in my lungs that's killing me now. And I've given up hope on the days I have left but I cling to the hope of my life in the next. When Jesus showed up said "Before we go up I thought that we might reminisce. See one night in your life when you turned out the light, you asked for and prayed for My forgiveness. You cried, wolf. The tears that soaked your fur. The blood dripped from your fangs. You said 'What have I done?' You loved that lamb with every sinful bone. And there you wept alone. Your heart was so contrite. You said 'Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes. Sanctify this withered heart of mine. Stay with me until my life is through and on that day please take me home with You.'" I can smell the death on the sheets covering me. I can't believe this is the end. I can hear You whisper to me "It's time to leave. You'll never be lonely again." But this was my deathbed. I died there alone. When I closed my eyes tonight You carried me home.

"I am the way. Follow me and take My hand. I am the truth. Embrace Me and you'll understand. And I am the life and through Me you'll live again. For I am love. I am love. I am love.""

Yes, I love that song. Makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

Oh, I'm also very shy in person. I seem very happy, content, and like I think normal ... but it's not true! Also, I have a pretty darn low self-esteem ... Sucks! But writing and MUSIC help! Seriously, I've been writing ever since I learned how to (not exaggerating).

I LOVE rain!! I'm WAY more happy when everything's gloomy and dark around me (seriously), ... unless it's people. If people are grumpy, I get REALLY upset and angry ... yeah, but basically, i'm mostly always grumpy, angry, and sad every day UNTIL it reaches night. Then I get really happy and wacked and insane. It's really weird. And I'm not as shy when it's night! I do not know why!!

I don't like chocolate cake, chocolate ice cream, chocolate pudding, etc. but i like chocolate bars!! haha ... I know, I'm weird.

I have 3 dogs: one bluetick coonhound, Jammer (5 yrs), one redbone coonhound, Jynx (1 year), and one westie, Kirby (10 mos)!

Oh, and when i say "keeeeeee" in ... reviews and stuff, that's just my spastically happy side. Yup.

Name: Miserable Cloud (like I'd tell you my real name)

Age: 16 (though if you just met me you'd think I was thirteen)

Favourite Band(s): right NOW mostly Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Relient K, and the Beatles. But i also like Smashing Pumpkins, Evanescence, Panic! At The Disco, etc, Blaqk Audio ... Korn.

Favourite TV Shows: Lost, House, the Office, 21 Jumpstreet (though i do watch MANY more) lazy me!

Favourite Movies: Nightmare Before Christmas, Pirates of the Caribbean, Titanic, everything that Johnny Depp's in, X-Men, The Outsiders, Harry Potter, The Karate Kid, Edward Scissorhands, Sleepy Hollow, Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children, Brick, Donnie Darko, Amelie, Run Lola Run, Chicago, ... ummm ... Kill Bill 1 and 2, Pulp Fiction, Requiem For A Dream, um ... and a whole lot more.

Favourite Manga: Vampire Knight, Millenium Snow, Naruto, Full Moon, W Juliet, Ouran High School Host Club, La Corda D'Oro, Fullmetal Alchemist, Fruits Basket, Demon Diary, etc.

Favourite Novels: Twilight series, Harry Potter, The Outsiders, The Series of Unfortunate Events, Bloody Jack, The Boy With The Thorn In His Side (i don't know if that's even a novel), Abarat, Eragon, and more that I can't think of, cuz I'm having a hard time thinking.

Favourite Comic: Umbrella Academy

Who Do I Look Up To: well ... now i look up to Bob, my pastor. -grin-

Who Do I Love: Johnny Depp, Ralph Macchio, Jade Puget, Ryan Ross, Gerard Way, Pete Wentz, Mikey Way, (and not because of looks!! I am sooo not like that!!)

Favourite Characters: Charlie (Lost), House and Chase (House), Shikamaru and Kakashi (Naruto), Char (Ella Enchanted - the BOOK, i hate the movie), Jack Sparrow (Pirates of the Caribbean), Soda and Johnny and Ponyboy (Outsiders), Zero Kiryu and Kaname Kuran (Vampire Knight), Toya (Millenium Snow), Takuto (Full Moon), Makoto (W Juliet), Ed (Fullmetal Alchemist), Jack Skellington (Nightmare Before Christmas), Jack and Fabrizio (Titanic), Sirius and Lupin (Harry Potter), Edward (Edward Scissorhands), Ichabod Crane (Sleepy Hollow), Tom Hanson and Doug Penhall and Harry Ioki (21 Jumpstreet), Cloud Strife (Final Fantasy), Edward Cullen (Twilight series), Yuki Sohma (Fruits Basket), Raenef and Eclipse (Demon Diary), etc.

My interests involve music, writing, reading, eating, watching movies, watching TV, obsessing over bands and books and movies, er ... just plain being lazy and just using my head, like thinking. I'm always thinking. But I'm not always moving :)

Okay, I don't swear, I don't smoke, I don't drink, I don't do drugs, and I never will!! It's just a choice I made!! BUT I don't judge people that do any of those stuff. ... I have friends ...

LAZINESS!! YAYYY!! People call me lazy all the time but it's soo true! I know. I'm sorry.