So, this review might be mostly incoherent happy shrieking, because YES YES QUEER LUCY PEVENSIE MY FAVOURITE? MY BEST? I LOVE HER? I LOVE THIS?

So sad for her feeling all that awful needless guilt but SO HAPPY THIS EXISTS and well done on a fantastic fic.

This OTP is one of the most beautiful and pure of them all, and I found myself aching on Lucy's behalf with every scene and every growing feeling of guilt and wordless longing. The picture you paint of her profound connection with the Sea Girl, the relationship they have without even one word between them, and all that the Sea Girl represents for Lucy, is heartbreaking yet gorgeous and so lovingly written. In this vision, Aslan's Country seems like a blessing for Lucy and not the "sharp knife of a short life" as The Band Perry's song puts it.

Hauntingly beautiful, Animus! And the title is divine.

This was absolutely beautiful, heart-breaking and realistic! I think it showed a very real side of Lucy, her desires and her struggles. Well done :)

That was wonderful...

You just keep getting stuff from me... Cause I found you.. and I like your writing.

I like how Ed was the only one she could really talk too.

I adore fan fiction for its glorious, tranformative ability to take a familiar character, a tiny, well-known scene from a book, and look at both in a new light. As one reviewer below aptly states, characters have existence outside of the narrow space they originally occupied. If we presume that Narnia is a place where Bacchus, Maenads, Dryads, Silenus, Satyrs and Fauns are true to their mythological roots, where heathen, pagan Calormenes and "bad" Dwarfs who shoot the Horses from TLB can reach Aslan's Country, and that even murderers/would be rapists are shown more mercy than they deserve, then how can anyone presume that the very gentle, touching, sweet longing and desire here is un-Narnian?

This is a beautiful story and I find Edmund's stout statements to Lucy at the end absolutely perfect and heart breaking. And I want to take Lucy's hand and say that your world is wrong and you are right and it's OK to doubt because everyone doubts, and doubt is a part of growth but like others I do long for a happy resolution for Lucy as well.

The first time I read this, the slash made me mad. Then I read it again. Though I'm not a fan of slash, you made this story into a competly unique longing for Narnia story. I loved the line you threw in about "Strange facination with lions." I liked how Lucy was angsty, most stories have her as being totally accepting, but you pulled it off while still having her be Lucy. Good job!

Oh! I liked this one too! Again wonderful characterzation of Lucy! I love how you took something as... well I don't really know the word for, simple I suppose but not really, as Lucy seeing the Sea Girl and turning it into something so beautiful, and unique! Personally I think this is VERY Narnian, and from the way you write it, realistic! Beautifully written! Good work! )

I found Metonomia's recommendation on your stories on the NFFR forums, and I am SO glad I did. I usually tend to avoid slash of any kind, but your Lucy in this was just fantastic. Her frustration and uncertainty make her much easier to relate to. I love how you've taken such a fleeting character and turned her into the source of conflict. Absolutely brilliant.

The title is great, too. Had I seen this when it was first published, I definitely would have clicked on it just because of the title.

Thank you so much for this!

This was absolutely lovely in so many ways. A truly unique story and a gem which I will recommend to all. Thank you for this wonderful look into a side of Lucy rarely explored within the fandom.

Oh my goodness. This is seriously one of the most beautiful and awesome pieces of fanfic I've seen on the site.

Lucy is my favorite character ever out of Narnia, and I am so moved by what you've done with her here. It's perfect, and lovely, and absolutely amazing.

I always adored the scene with the Sea-Girl in VotDT, and I am astounded (in a good way) by how you've taken it here and made it into a gorgeous, utterly unique story.

Most authors on this site (myself included) tend to write Lucy as very accepting of the end to her Narnia days - utterly faithful and sure and peaceful. I LOVE how you've made her frustrated, unsure, and scared.

And then the Lucy/Sea-Girl stuff! I love the way you flowed into that, connected to the societal norms of the time, and noted the failures of conventional religion to apply to Lucy. Her doubt in what Aslan would say is what gets me the most, I think - it's so SAD, yet so perfect. Of course she doesn't know what he'd think, seeing as it never came up for her before in Narnia, and everything she knows in Spare Oom says it's wrong.

And then, even with all this personal doubt, it's not Aslan she's unsure of but herself - and that is what breaks my heart. Poor Lucy, not knowing how to ask, to search, to find; dismissed by the adults around her...and then, at the end!

"Lucy wants to cry, because she knows Edmund's right, and that means she isn't" - Oh no! Poor poor Lucy, to think herself wrong, to want to FORGET Narnia.

This is utterly brilliant - thank you thank you thank you for writing it! It's wholly unique and a true joy to read.

P.S. I LOVE that the title comes from Sappho! So perfect!

P.P.S. Would you, by chance, be willing to submit this (and your other stories) to Narnia Fan Fiction Revolution? All your work is so incredibly well-written and unique and touching, and I personally think it would be an honor to have your stories added to our archive.

Oh my, that was absolutely beautiful. Despite what other reviewers have been saying, I don't think I've read anything *more* Narnian in a long while...the confusion and uncertainty, Lucy's inner turmoil, it all fitted perfectly.

I think you've just written my favourite story ever.

nicely done

I think this is amazing and that you should write a second part in which she and the sea girl meet it would be lovely. And while CS Lewis wouldn't approve he also wouldn't approve of a lot of other things like the Islamic faith or women in untraditionnel roles. Very well written!

Props to you; it's a beautifully written piece.

As you know, I am not a fan of slash, but from my perspective this story works from a deeper psychological standpoint, in that Lucy, in her yearning for Narnia, has transferred her desires to the Sea Girl. In effect, the Girl has become a symbol for Narnia itself; its wildness, beauty and mystery side-by-side with its comforting familiarity and instant sense of home. With such a desire I can sympathize, and it is, in fact, quite accurate psychologically.

Lu's doubts and pain are, I am certain, portrayed realistically; there is no doubt that someone who experiences homosexual desire goes through a great deal of emotional turmoil - a fact that even those of us who disagree with it would do well to remember and not blather on about "choice" as though something as deeply complex as human sexuality was like deciding what color socks to put on every morning.

I do agree with a previous reviewer that Lewis certainly would not have supported such a notion, and thus its position in fanon is debatable. However, as a stand-alone, it is a well-crafted and thoughtful story. The last paragraph's conversation with Edmund really makes it work either way, so that was a rather brilliant little twist on your part. Kudos!