Hello there! I've actually only recently discovered the majesty that HxH is, and this is the first story I came upon after catching up on the series. And I have to say that I am truly and utterly amazed! Awestruck even! So much so that I somehow found the email and password I made to this account 14 years ago when I was in middle school so that I could favorite / follow/ review and all of the above.
Reading your rich writing not only brought me all sorts of vivid imagery but it also made me feel so many conflicting emotions - the feelings of fear, anxiety, guilt, shame, and longing that Gon and Killua cycle through are so palpable. So tangible. And that's just a testament to the kind of writer that you are. You write their ruminations so evocatively that even I as a reader am left connecting my own life and misgivings to their stories. To the things I don't understand about myself. And to the things others might not understand about me. Thank you for that.
I absolutely love the deep character development within these chapters. It kept me so engaged, and I am able to empathize with every character. I especially love the journey it took for Killua and Gon to realize and ultimately act on their feelings for one another. When it finally happened, my heart leapt in happiness and giddiness! You really did their relationship justice, and I applaud you!
Moving forward to this chapter, I gasped at the cliffhanger. How could you? haha. I'm so happy that after three years and numerous years of schooling and travels you are still willing to update. All I can say is I'm sorry I wasn't there in 2017 to follow this story from the start to encourage you along the way with every chapter. But now I will blissfully finish this ride with you, cheering you on as we go! Please never let your spark die out. It's effervescent!

Ah damn, I've been binge-reading this ever since I found it two or three days ago. Even for a fast reader, 31 chapters is a lot to plow through. Some part of me is glad I finally got caught up, but the other part of me is eagerly awaiting the next chapter.

I really enjoyed reading this. It's so packed with intensity, suspense and passion. I love it. Your writing style is so clean and descriptive, it's exactly as I would like my writing to be (but I need a lot and I mean a LOT more practice before I reach this level of skill). Although I did notice a few typos here and there, they were minor. Nothing that needs to be worried about.

And lastly, I just wanted to say that I love the way you wrote Illumi. He had such an interesting development in this story, and his death really hit me hard. This is why he's one of my favorite HxH stories, he's got such an interesting villain complex going on that I absolutely adore and I think you captured that perfectly in your writing.

I'm really looking forward to the next excellent chapter! Keep up the good work!

-UltimatexAdmin

Wow this one really packed a punch into my heart. Kinda showed how they were both caught in a vicious cycle that was passed through the generations. V sad ;-;

Oh shit they said the thing

Hi I finally read this chapter and... omg I hate you... anyway my review is all over the place but I hope you find it enjoyable. I especially loved Killua holding Gon's hand at the start, it's such a sweet moment... honestly it's almost funny to see him going full heart eyes while Gon's like "omg I hope he doesn't leave me".

"Actually, I used to fantasize about having conversations like these with you all the time when we were kids. But I was so scared of telling you how I felt that I pretended my feelings didn't exist, and hoped just being near you would fix everything." Just...this. I'm heartbroken.

This first part felt like a back and forth of them comforting each other (even if it was Gon's pov) all throughout. I like how a lot goes on without words. It feels like Killua was aware of Gon not being fully there at first so he held his hand and took the lead by taking them to the diner... then when Killua was starting to speak too harshly with himself Gon just perceived something and "His dark tan hands cross the table and around the tea glass, over Killua's hands, interrupting his deathly vision."

You earlier focused the reader's attention on the tea's brown color and its resemblance to blood and Killua's memory/ies. But as I was imagining this scene I was thinking on how uncomfortable it must be to hold a cold beverage for a while, just to have someone else put their hands over yours preventing you from leaving. But then it clicked: the difference in temperature. Killua may not be able to let go of the cold glass until he's gone over all of it... which can get freezing until it numbs his senses, perhaps due to his training he already is. So since Killua can't let go, Gon shows his support by sharing his temperature. Even if he can only give comfort from an outside perspective, it could help Killua remember he has someone to fall back on, a point of comparison: "this is how warm you could be, this is warmth I'm willing to lend". Just... hope spoken without words.

Are "I love you, Killua, but sometimes, I have no idea what you're thinking" and "This is what it feels like." related? Like since Gon doesn't know what Killua is thinking it feels like his support may be useless but then the conversation falls on a steady rhythm... a silent support (The conclusion to his earlier spoken trouble is a thought), a leverage, a listening ear: "This is how it feels like... (to love each other)" in their personal way, an intimate game, their secret bond... Gon's head must be so full of a certain feeling he can't even pronounce it inside of him. A feeling so intimate, so private, so magical, unique, he can only bear keep to himself for now to understand... so he overheats trying to contain it and that's why he blushes (but that's just my theory).

...anyway I can't believe you'd hurt me like that with Kikyo's return after showing me this warmth wtf I guess you rly took the equivalent exchange law to heart... and now I'm scared of the ending knowing you have an outline drafted, I really don't know what to expect omg.

Anyway, have a nice day~

Ha finally reviewing 31 chapters deep.
But really, I'm so hyped for where this fic is going. Others have probably said this already, but I love how you explore the dynamics of Gon and Killua's relationship, especially in the context of the Zoldycks' (batshit crazy) family dynamics. It's also super interesting how you've explored Kikyo's character these past few chapters, giving her a bit more backstory and dimension than her more ~mysterious~ counterpart in the source material. Great work as always, take care!

I love these calm moments between them. It feels so quiet like I’m an outsider looking at something that’s just meant for them if that makes sense.

Bitch I cried. This story has captured my heart and each chapter feels like ur personally reaching through the scream and squeezing my heart in my chest bro ;-;

Ok first of all how dare you ( that ending)
AND SECONDLY
This update was a amazing! I loved the conversation at the beginning, it feels like Killua and Gon have really grown since the beginning. They're now able to talk to each other about their problems and not run away from said problems (Or each other). And they're willing to depend on others a bit more, which is something I never imagined them being able to do jejckekrkek
I was caught up in the euphoria of mutual trust and respect I had lived in a world where Kikyo didn't exist nsjwkel
For real tho imma throw hands if this doesn't end well for the boys
Amazing update as always, Nay! Can't wait for the next one

Hi! Just wanted to say I read the entire work this past week, and am looking forward to the next chapter and how the rest of the story unfolds! I have to say, I love everything so far. Your writing is vivid and expressive, it’s really been enjoyable to read. Super curious to know how Kikyos poison will affect Killua— also curious, will gon ever find out when killua removes the needle?

PS, I was glad to see you mention BLM in your latest authors note—never shy away from using any platform you have!

I SEE KNOW WHAT U MEANT BY THE GENDER TALK ON INSTAGRAM LMAOOO
Ok but seriously thank u for including that (very soft, I cri) scene between Kalluto and Alluka. Even with everything going on with the story, I really like how u included the younger siblings' reactions and bonding! They...were victims of their family's...dysfunction too. Alluka is such a good older sister im cry ;-;
(And nonbinary Kalluto rights ) .
AND THOSE SWEET SCENES WITH KILLUA AND GON! THEYRE SO IN LOVE IM JEJEJFJEJDJJEXBDJEUC
(In which I am the cashier LMAOO).
I love the perfect blend of intensity, angst, fluff, love, and over all emotion this chapter had.
Killua remembering Zeno and his' past really hurt. :((
But overall I'm just glad Killua and Gon are learning to let others (and each other) help them.
You know what that is? Growth.
(Can't wait for the next update, Nay! ;w;))

(This is for ch 29)

Kalluto and Killua's talk felt so real, how conflicted were Kalluto's feelings and how Killua's first thought was to bring out his "selfishness" of not wanting a boring life... like it's not like his first thought was to be a "good person" and that's cool.
"Relieved to see his younger siblings so carefree, Killua smiles. Perhaps the burden of the Zoldyck Family won't be so heavy on them after all…" tch don't mind me, just going through it

Anyway the peak here was Kikyo's backstory... wow the way she was the one to research the ways how to cause pain... scratch that, all of it, her entire life. The way she's seen as misunderstood and not listened to the whole time wait- I CANT BELIEVE YOU MADE ME READ A STORY AND EMPATHIZE WITH A MISUNDERSTOOD SERIAL KILLER ABDSJSJ AND THEN THEIR MEETING IS SO INTERESTING (CUTE?) I-
Aaah I really dont know how it makes me feel, it's just so unreal... and then the way she just reasons to herself Killua's behaviour and her reaction to it was soooooo descriptive, real chills (oh wow she's suddenly 100% more interesting as a character).

Loved Kuzco's poison, though I was hoping her reaction to death would be slightly different to more death as someone that loves experimenting with new things in life LOL I GUESS THERE'S NOT MUCH REASONING TO MURDER- though the change now is that she wishes to kill with a purpose and not for research or sadistic purposes! And I just think that's great3

Hiii hope you're doing good,

The Allluka-Kalluto talk brought so much hope... the two siblings finally had a talk one-on-one and Kalluto was able to (mostly) break out of their stone character. They talked about Killua and them and then Kalluto asked her about why she looked so different. So in a way they started a talk about gender which I was kinda looking for... I guess I was expecting more hesitation or confusion out of the two? Anyway they left Kalluto's gender at a stand-by and didn't state anything. Also Alluka telling them that they don't have to know is nice... people are allowed to explore and look for their truth until they find it and live for it... Agdhahs these kids have it so clear and she sounds so wise whatagdhsh. Oh! l really enjoyed that they got closer-GOD I waited for a long time for the kids to be safe ahdhsh

I LOVED THE KILLUA-ZENO TALK like the sweets scene of them trying different stuff was so cute and when Killua remembered Illumi's advice I just suddenly felt so sad... why hurt me like that he almost seemed like a good guy worrying abt his reckless brother...

And Killua finding Gon in the arcade and hugging him was the softest... need me more cuddly Killus... Also I was kind of expecting more danger so that was very relieving to see. Oh and also Gon yelling at the random cashier and he calling them a couple ahdhahsj
Oh also the way they left at a stand-by what to call their relationship, I liked that. I guess going from bffs of years to suddenly wanting to change the name would feel like they'd have to be someone else entirely.

I forgot to mention it but the full squad development brings feelings... bc last time pinning all responsibility on Gon was careless of them but to know that they offered doesn't feel like they're isolated from the others anymore (probably each others obsessive attitude worried the others of being more counterproductive in their help). To know that they see each other differently now and have generally developed as characters feels hydrating thank you.

Have a nice day~

Oh my goodness, I caught up so fast! I am in love with your writing! You portray Killugon so well and your grammar is on point. I am excited to read more Killugon stories written by you. And I cannot wait for the next chapter and for more Killugon sweetness 3

I know there are still many chapters to read, but oh my goodness, I am loving this so far! So well written and in character. My tummy is fluttering from their sweetness together! I just recently finished watching the HunterxHunter anime, and fell in love with this ship! Can't wait to read more after work!