Warnings: None really.
Trust and Kindness
Epilogue - Choice
Daisuke _did_ see something that I hadn't realized yet. I didn't really _want_ to hurt anyone; I hated that I enjoyed it so much. That doesn't mean that Daisuke's gambit wasn't stupid; it was _incredibly_ stupid! If I hadn't finally realized what he was trying to show me, I could have ended up damaging him irreparably, or worse!
It's gotten easier now; the thoughts are still there, but I know that I'm not going to act on them. It's my choice; I am responsible for my own actions, and I know the difference between right and wrong. I still lash out when I'm angry, wince at the thoughts that abruptly flash through my mind sometimes, and fantasize about things that would give most people nightmares, but the fear of loosing control is all but gone.
As for the DigiDestined picnic...Daisuke persevered and managed to convince the others that it would be okay if I come for the last hour of it. He's still trying to mend fences, and I still think that it's probably a lost cause.
Daisuke hasn't kissed me since that night, but that doesn't bother me much one way or the other. We're just kids, after all; most people don't get into serious relationships at the age of twelve. A few years from now...who knows? But for now, it really doesn't bear thinking about; he's the best friend anyone could ever hope for...
...and that's enough.
A/N: Whew! Finally done! Congratulations me!
There will probably be a sequel, from Daisuke's POV this time, but it will be a while, I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do.
Trust and Kindness
Epilogue - Choice
Daisuke _did_ see something that I hadn't realized yet. I didn't really _want_ to hurt anyone; I hated that I enjoyed it so much. That doesn't mean that Daisuke's gambit wasn't stupid; it was _incredibly_ stupid! If I hadn't finally realized what he was trying to show me, I could have ended up damaging him irreparably, or worse!
It's gotten easier now; the thoughts are still there, but I know that I'm not going to act on them. It's my choice; I am responsible for my own actions, and I know the difference between right and wrong. I still lash out when I'm angry, wince at the thoughts that abruptly flash through my mind sometimes, and fantasize about things that would give most people nightmares, but the fear of loosing control is all but gone.
As for the DigiDestined picnic...Daisuke persevered and managed to convince the others that it would be okay if I come for the last hour of it. He's still trying to mend fences, and I still think that it's probably a lost cause.
Daisuke hasn't kissed me since that night, but that doesn't bother me much one way or the other. We're just kids, after all; most people don't get into serious relationships at the age of twelve. A few years from now...who knows? But for now, it really doesn't bear thinking about; he's the best friend anyone could ever hope for...
...and that's enough.
A/N: Whew! Finally done! Congratulations me!
There will probably be a sequel, from Daisuke's POV this time, but it will be a while, I'm not entirely sure what I'm going to do.