A/N: I'm going to take this opportunity to say that I never had any
intentions to write Digimon fics…that is, until I found myself identifying
strongly with Ken, which is why I wrote "Shattered Reflections". I also
didn't intend to write a sequel…for about the first three days after
writing SR, that is… it took this long to write, because I couldn't figure
out how to start it until today (Marin1x2, if you're reading this, it seems
I spoke too soon about Cyra being a useless muse, within ten minutes of
posting that review she hit me upside the head with inspiration [I must
have annoyed her enough]). To round off this little note, I do not intend
to write a sequel, or even to continue writing in this fandom; but by this
point we all know that my intentions have very little to do with what I
actually do, so we'll see…
This should be about 2-3 chapters, plus prologue and epilogue…but again, we'll see…
I'm using the original names (even though I've [unfortunately] only seen the dub), though I may use some of the dub names if, when, and where they make suitable nicknames and it is situation and character appropriate to do so (I don't really see Ken as being one to use nicknames in most cases, especially when he's being as serious as he is in this story).
Disclaimer: Obviously, these characters are not mine; I wouldn't even know what to do with them if they were, though I can say for sure that I wouldn't have ended the series so idiotically.
Warnings: Angst, Dark, a touch of Sadism and Bondage, possibly lime, yaoi (though the goings-on in this fic could be construed as an act of [_very_ close] friendship, given the particular circumstances and reasons for them), discussion of disturbing topics such as Suicide, Murder, and Rape.
Warnings for this chapter: Angst, Dark.
Pairing: Abortive Kenyako/Miyaken (mentioned only), Kaisuke/Kensuke/Daiken.
Trust and Kindness
Prologue - Loosing Control
Isn't it strange how sometimes one forgets why one got angry in the first place? I find this happens to me quite frequently. Not that I'm not the type to carry grudges; I'm really very good at that, it's just that if it's not something personal I tend not to carry it around. Daisuke seems to be very different from me in that respect.
Like with that girl years ago, I don't remember exactly what Miyako said or did that made me snap, I just remember her sitting on the ground with a look of shock on her face after I'd hit her, and the drop of blood slowly making its way down her chin from her split lip. It came as no surprise to me when Takeru intercepted me on the way home from school the next day and dealt me a punch that left me reeling until well after he had told me I wasn't welcome among the Digidestined any longer and stalked away.
I can't say I blamed him.
Needless to say, there is no longer any chance of a further relationship between Miyako and I. I doubt there's even a chance of us becoming friends again.
Now…now I'm afraid.
I know that the reason I hurt Miyako has much less to do with my being angry with her, and more to do with the lack of an outlet for my darker inclinations; it was bound to happen sooner or later, she just happened to be the one who set me off. It's not like I can go back to being the Digimon Kaizer, now that I can no longer blind myself to the fact that they are living beings with minds and emotions.
So I'm afraid…
Mostly, I'm afraid that it might be Daisuke next time…it's ironic really that he's become my best friend…considering…
A/N: I think the notes were longer than the fic! Review onegai shimasu! I'll post chapter 1 in a few days.
This should be about 2-3 chapters, plus prologue and epilogue…but again, we'll see…
I'm using the original names (even though I've [unfortunately] only seen the dub), though I may use some of the dub names if, when, and where they make suitable nicknames and it is situation and character appropriate to do so (I don't really see Ken as being one to use nicknames in most cases, especially when he's being as serious as he is in this story).
Disclaimer: Obviously, these characters are not mine; I wouldn't even know what to do with them if they were, though I can say for sure that I wouldn't have ended the series so idiotically.
Warnings: Angst, Dark, a touch of Sadism and Bondage, possibly lime, yaoi (though the goings-on in this fic could be construed as an act of [_very_ close] friendship, given the particular circumstances and reasons for them), discussion of disturbing topics such as Suicide, Murder, and Rape.
Warnings for this chapter: Angst, Dark.
Pairing: Abortive Kenyako/Miyaken (mentioned only), Kaisuke/Kensuke/Daiken.
Trust and Kindness
Prologue - Loosing Control
Isn't it strange how sometimes one forgets why one got angry in the first place? I find this happens to me quite frequently. Not that I'm not the type to carry grudges; I'm really very good at that, it's just that if it's not something personal I tend not to carry it around. Daisuke seems to be very different from me in that respect.
Like with that girl years ago, I don't remember exactly what Miyako said or did that made me snap, I just remember her sitting on the ground with a look of shock on her face after I'd hit her, and the drop of blood slowly making its way down her chin from her split lip. It came as no surprise to me when Takeru intercepted me on the way home from school the next day and dealt me a punch that left me reeling until well after he had told me I wasn't welcome among the Digidestined any longer and stalked away.
I can't say I blamed him.
Needless to say, there is no longer any chance of a further relationship between Miyako and I. I doubt there's even a chance of us becoming friends again.
Now…now I'm afraid.
I know that the reason I hurt Miyako has much less to do with my being angry with her, and more to do with the lack of an outlet for my darker inclinations; it was bound to happen sooner or later, she just happened to be the one who set me off. It's not like I can go back to being the Digimon Kaizer, now that I can no longer blind myself to the fact that they are living beings with minds and emotions.
So I'm afraid…
Mostly, I'm afraid that it might be Daisuke next time…it's ironic really that he's become my best friend…considering…
A/N: I think the notes were longer than the fic! Review onegai shimasu! I'll post chapter 1 in a few days.