Fallen: The Original Version

Written by: chochowilliams

Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.

Summary: Can you die of a broken heart? Shuichi never thought he would discover the answer to that question at such a young age.

Chapter Summary: He had a dream. In this dream, the love of his life left him without ever saying goodbye, and when he wakes up, he discovers that it wasn't a dream.

Warning: angst, drama, romance, language, characters death, suicide, m/m

Inserts: my original poem

A/N: The title was inspired by the song "Whisper" by Evanescence from their Fallen album. My dad suggested the name.

I wake with a start from a dream that seems too real to find it wasn't a dream at all.
My nightmare is my reality.
Like a kunai to the heart, the source of my life's blood has been severed.
My bed has grown cold.
It's empty just like me.

Alone. So alone and afraid.
I can't decide where I've been or where I'm going.
Nothing seems real anymore.
Without you, I remain undecided.
This roadblock is impassible.

I see you everywhere I go.
It's driving me insane.
There you are at the mall at your favorite store,
Behind the wheel of your Mercedes
That sits all alone and afraid in the spot where you left it.

I wake in the night to see you in the bed besides me.
But like smoke blown about in the wind,
When I reach out for you, you vanish.
You're slipping away from me
And I'm so alone and afraid.

Are you still with me?
I can feel you near me.
You're presence comforts my rising fears.
I hear your whispered voice in my ear,
Feel your strong arms around me.

My friends believe I'm getting along fine without you.
I even fool myself.
Then I come home and I'm all alone.
The emptiness surrounds me.
I'm trapped within its cold embrace.

Like the Little Engine that Could,
I tell myself, "I think I can. I think I can."
But a single thought has my resolve crumbling
And the pain explodes.
I fall back into the memory of you and me.

As night falls, I pray for a dreamless sleep.
My dreams have become my nightmares.
You're always there haunting me
And taunting me
And forcing my hand.

I wish you were here.
I don't know how to live without you.
This pain, it's too real.
It hurts.
I want to die.

They say time heals all wounds.
But not for me.
Not me.
I'm still bleeding.
It won't stop.

Cause you're gone and my dreams are still haunting me.