Okay, here's finally the last chapter! Sorry it took a while to post but have been whatever kind of things and I'm starting to get bored... DX

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Angelchan2012: Yeah, I'm good at that X3 Ichi really does have critical moment . But thank you so much sweetie~! Your reviews makes me always happy ^_^

ichibanseiken: I can't tell~ XP Ichi is so near death that... just don't know... Not sure if it's very interesting but I still hope you like the ending... ^^;

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And thanks to the rest too! Without you this wouldn't so fun ;)

But warnings are the same so there's not going to be lemon in this, sorry :( But I promise later on in my stories will be smut ;D

Oh, but you guys are so going to hate me for this begining... But to the story now~

Not beta'd.

Chapter 4

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-One month later-

Grimmjow sighed deeply as he walked through the small gate. The cemetery had become too familiar to him in these the last few weeks. He couldn't help it, but the place just seemed to clear his mind, letting him float just between the facts of reality and fantasy. Why he chose this place for walk was little unclear. Maybe it was to keep his memory alive. Maybe it was to remind him that how real death really was, how it was the only sure thing in this world and it could happen to anyone anytime. No one couldn't prevent it. Grimmjow looked at the tombstones as he passed them, one by one, showing the names of and last words for the people buried beneath. Beloved wife. Precious father. True friend and brother. Rest in peace amongst the angels.

Words.

That's all that was left of them now with of course the memories that belonged only to the loved ones and closest friends they left behind, a mystery to the wandering visitors that happens along.

Grimmjow looked sadly at the sky as he continued walking slowly along the path he'd come to know well. The sights were so burned into his memories that his mind knew where every step would lead him. He knew he wouldn't forget this as well as he would never forget that night just four weeks ago. 'Gods, it still seems like it was just yesterday… Will it ever become easier to forget?' he thought, holding back tears that threatened to come. No, not anymore.

Then he realized where his body had led him again. That same clearing, near the sea, and that same tree. The sea was calm, only slight waves rolled forward the shore that the warm wind had developed, and the sunset was visible on the horizon. One black, granite tombstone was standing proudly, bathing in the fading orange light. Grimmjow sat on the ground and leaned against the tree, not looking at the stone but gazing at the setting sun. It really was beautiful today, so pure orange, like giving hope of another day to come. Grimmjow let one tear roll down his cheek softly as he started to prepare for his goodbyes to that lonely but peaceful place.

He had to move on.

It was dark by the time Grimmjow got home. He kicked his shoes off and laid the bundle of mail on the small table by the couch which he had picked from the mailbox before coming inside. He then took off his jacket and threw it on the other side of the couch. He sat down and started to check the letters.

"Okay, let's see what we have today… bills… more bills… letter from tax office… what the hell they want now… notice on rent? Geez…"

Then he went silence as he picked the last letter. Priority mail from Western Karakura clinic.

'This is it…' the blunette thought as he took the letter with him and walked to the bedroom and placed it on the nightstand. He then noticed that the light was on and sighed, chuckling quietly as he gazed at the sleeping form on the bed.

Ichigo was sleeping soundly on his side, a book laying open under his fingertips. The light on the nightstand laid a slight golden glow on his face and bare arms and chest, his hair seemed so much more brighter too.

'Oh my lil' Berry, you've must got worried and tried to wait for me again…' the older male snickered in his mind and carefully picked the book, setting it on the nightstand along with the letter and turned off the light. He stripped down to his boxers before climbed under the covers, resting against Ichigo's back. Then he stroked Ichigo's side back and forth, trailing kisses along his neck and shoulder blades, slightly nipping the skin with his teeth as Ichigo stirred in front of him.

"Grimm?" he mumbled tiredly before yawned, snuggling closer to the body behind him.

"Yeah Berry, I'm here", Grimmjow whispered to Ichigo's ear before kissed the soft place just behind it. Ichigo sighed and rolled over to face his lover, his eyes half lidded from sleep and a smile on his lips.

"Good, you were gone longer this time. I was starting to worry a little. Where did you go?" Ichigo asked, snuggling his head to Grimmjow's neck.

"To the cemetery again."

Ichigo lifted his head up and Grimmjow noticed the worried look on his face, fully awake now. Grimmjow shook his head and wrapped his arms around his boyfriend.

"No Ichi, I'm okay now. This was the last time. I just had to say my goodbyes to that place, you know. I couldn't help but to drawn to it, I was trying to get used to visit you there back then so much, instead of a now unclaimed plot", he whispered as he took one of Ichigo's hand in his own, kissing his wrist. The wounds had scarred now, and they all know that they would leave a bone white, constant scars, reminder of that terrifying day.

-Flashback-

Ichigo had been unconscious when the ambulance had came and a nearly hysterical Grimmjow hugging him tightly, crying and muttering pleads incessantly. Ichigo's breathing had stopped and the paramedics had long and agonizing minutes reviving him. When they got him to breathe again, he was rushed into the ambulance, Grimmjow by his side all the time. They took care of his wrists as much as they could before they arrived to the hospital.

Inside, Grimmjow was forced to wait in the waiting room. After long time without getting any news of Ichigo, Grimmjow decided to get a hold of Ichi's father. He didn't know how to explain what has happened to his son so he let the doctors explain to him when he would come. When Isshin had arrived he couldn't help but ask question after question, he couldn't understand what his son had done and why. Why did this happen? Why did he do this? Will he be ok? The traditional questions which anyone of them couldn't answer thoroughly. Grimmjow had just sat quietly the whole time. Much later, he and Isshin had discovered about Ichigo's condition. He had lost so much blood that his internal organs were starting to shut down from lack of oxygenated blood, causing him the intense pain that he had felt before losing his conscious last time. He had needed an immediate blood transfusion before anymore damage was done. Luckily it wasn't anything that Ichigo's body couldn't fix on its own, granted he be kept at the hospital for a week or two for observation and a lot of rest.

A few days later Grimmjow had got the doctor's permission to go see Ichigo. He had been so close losing him that he had to see that Ichigo really was going to be ok. At nights he was having dreams where he was at Ichigo's funeral, facing a grave plot against the setting sun. He would hear the priest closing the prayer as they lowered the coffin to the ground, and the sun at the right angle to shine on the tombstone where was text carved with golden letters. Ichigo Kurosaki. Beloved son, brother and friend.

He walked in Ichigo's room, slightly shaking. The medicine smell was little thicker in the room than in hallways, but Grimmjow didn't mind that as much as about the sight. Ichigo was laying on the bed, breathing softly, IV was attached to his right arm as some clear liquid was attached to his left along with two thin tubes in his nose to help him with his breathing. Grimmjow quickly walked over to the bed, sitting on the chair next to it. Ichigo looked so pale and so vulnerable, hardly like the berry he knew but still so beautiful to him.

He took carefully Ichigo's bandaged hand in his owns, rubbing his fingers and skin around the bandages. He didn't notice when Ichigo opened his eyes until Ichigo squeezed his hand slightly. Astonished blue eyes lifted up to meet watery, honey brown ones finally. Grimmjow cried again after for the first time since the ambulance had got to their house and found Ichigo bleeding to death. The taller man stood up and hugged Ichigo as tightly as he dared without hurting him more.

"Don't you ever leave me like that again, you hear me you stupid? Never again or I'll kill you myself!" he cried into Ichigo's neck.

Ichigo hugged him back weakly as tears slide down his cheeks as well.

"I won't I promise… I love you…" the smaller man whispered with a hoarse, barely audible voice.

"Thank you, Grimm…"

-End of flashback-

Ichigo wrapped his arms around Grimmjow's middle, hugging him as he recognized the distant look on his boyfriend's face. Grimmjow knew that Ichigo was still worried about him and his unannounced walks in the cemetery. But to Grimmjow it was like something he couldn't explain. Like thinking of how thinks would have been but still keeping the reality. No, he wasn't going crazy… far from it, it just gave him sense of relief. He probably would have went crazy and killed himself if he had had to read Ichigo's name carved in a cold stone, like in his dream. But no, Ichigo was right here, by his side, in his arms, his warm body against his own. On their bed, in their common house.

The blue haired man leaned his head down a little and kissed the berry on the lips. He pulled away, his lips still slightly brushing against Ichigo's so the orange haired man could feel a smile forming on his lips.

"You don't have to worry anymore Ichi. My walks are over now, as I said before, I've now said my goodbyes. You're here, I'm here, that's all I need. And I'm not going to let anything to come between us like this ever again, I promise. So no more worrying about me, okay?" he said, pulling away and Ichigo gazed into the beautiful sky blue eyes.

"I know Grimmjow, but I'll still worry about you. How can I not? I understand why you always went there, but really Grimm, who in their right mind goes walking around cemeteries until the late hours of the night? I mean, it's a little strange if you ask me", Ichigo laughed slightly.

"Shut up you over grew Strawberry."

"Oi, I've told you countless of times to not call me that", the berry growled dangerously, glaring annoyed at the older man.

Grimmjow chuckled and pulled Ichigo into a firm hug.

"Aaw, you didn't meant it sweetie~! Don't be so mean to me, my small, fruity, lil' Ber-"

Grimmjow was cut when an elbow hit him on the chin. The blunette started to rub his now sore chin, cursing while Ichigo just smiled and rested his head on top of his boyfriend's chest, snuggling in his warmth. Grimmjow wrapped his arm back around the younger man. They relaxed just in silence, enjoying each other's closeness. Ichigo circled his index finger around Grimmjow's stomach, feeling the hard muscles, and then he felt the familiar tingle in his wrist and glanced at his scar.

"You know, I still feel guilty for not telling about this sooner. If I had, maybe I could have prevented this whole mess. And maybe I would have saved you from the virus… I'm so sorry Grimm, I never meant to-"

Grimmjow silenced him with a kiss.

"Don't you start that again Ichigo. You didn't know so it wasn't your fault. I know you didn't mean it. You went to get tested when you found out and it said you didn't have it at the time. You didn't know that it took longer to be shown so there's nothing I can blame you for. You did what probably everyone would have done in your position. So I should say that I'm sorry for the way I acted, it wasn't right."

Grimmjow kissed the top of Ichigo's head and started to run his hand back and forth along the berry's back gently before he continued.

"That day Nel helped me to realize that how much I love you and you love me. We need each other in this and I'm not definitely abandoning you. We'll get through this together, no matter the outcome. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, whether it'll be a long or short one."

He gently lifted Ichigo's head by his chin until his gaze met with teary brown eyes.

"Just remember that before you go doing something drastic, okay? I don't want to lose you… I can't…"

"You won't Grimm…" Ichigo smiled happily as he laid his head back against Grimmjow's chest.

He was glad being able to just lay there with him. He couldn't believe that he had almost given this up, it all seemed like a bad dream.

Grimmjow felt Ichigo sigh, a little sadly.

"Ichi? Is something wrong?"

"No, nothing. It's just that… we still don't know what's going on. The doctor never did call me about the results and I haven't been able to get a hold of him yet. I just hate this unawareness, that's all…"

"Oh, that reminds me. I almost forgot…" Grimmjow said as he sat up a little, leaning on one elbow, and reached across Ichigo to crap the letter on the nightstand where he had put it earlier.

"This was in the mail pile today. I believe it's from the doctor. Maybe it's the results now."

He handed the letter to Ichigo, who took it slowly in his shaking hands.

"Why not open it and find out? Hopefully then you would have some peace of mind. To me it doesn't matter much though, I love you no matter the results."

Ichigo looked at the letter for a few moments, his mouth dried and butterflies were flying in his stomach rapidly.

"Grimm, what… what if it's bad news? What-"

"Like I said Ichi, we'll work through it", Grimmjow answered, rubbing soothingly the berry's neck.

Ichigo glanced at him before took a deep breath and opened the letter. He took out a few papers that were inside and tried to turn watch Grimmjow but he had buried his face on his orange locks.

"Don't you want to know what it says?"

Grimmjow lifted his head to watch Ichigo in the eyes.

"Stupid berry, I already told you that I don't care about what it says, I only care about you. I know you need to know or it'll eats your mind forever. I on the other hand don't care less and I'll still be here with you. Now go on and read it already so I can fucking get back kissing you."

Ichigo chuckled slightly and turned his attention back to the papers. 'This is it…' he thought and started to read the typing text with some of the doctor's handwriting along it. 'These papers holds mine and Grimm's future…'

Grimmjow stared Ichigo the whole time, not looking at the papers even once. He had meant every word he had said. It really didn't matter to him if the results were positive or negative, he would just continue living as if nothing had happened. Just normally. But he knew that Ichigo still felt guilty and he hoped that this notes would calm his mind. If it was good news then hopefully he wouldn't feel guilty anymore and they would leave this whole thing behind them. If it was bad news, then… well, it would be something to work on together. Just like any other problems they had had to and they would be bound to face. But still, Grimmjow couldn't help but feel a little nervous as Ichigo read the papers. He watched closely Ichigo's eyes and felt his heart sank when he noticed the tears starting to form in his honey eyes. 'Oh god… I'm sorry Ichi…'

He was about to pull the orangette in a loving, comfortably hug, when Ichigo suddenly lifted his gaze to him, a smile forming on his lips. Confused and his heart beating faster, Grimmjow whispered.

"Ichi?"

"Grimm! It's… we're… oh god!" he trailed, unable to finish as happy tears rolled down his cheeks and he hopped on Grimmjow's lap as the blunette pulled him into a tight embrace. Ichigo returned it just hugging as tightly back and buried his face against the blue haired man's neck as Grimmjow started to run his fingers through his hair. He didn't need Ichigo to finish his phrase, he just know that from now, everything was going to be just fine.

~The End~

A/N: And there! That really was sappy ending... Oh well, at least Ichigo is still alive ^^ I couldn't bring myself to take Ichi away... ichibanseiken was right, I can't kill him!

Grimmjow: So you admit that you were going to kill him?

Panther Tenebrae: I'm not going to admit anything... *shrugs*

Grimmjow: Why you little bitch-

Ichigo: Grimm, just leave her alone...

Panther Tenebrae: Thanks Ichi~ And hopefully you all liked this story even if it was my first in English one... but if there was too many mistakes and the writing was crap at any kind, I believe that I deserve a kick in the ass...

Grimmjow: *kicks Panther in the ass* The idea of killing Ichi was crap!

Panther Tenebrae: Die you damn blueberry cat!

Grimmjow: The hell did you say?

Ichigo: Stop the both of you! *separates them* Grimm! Go to our room, now! *threw Grimmjow out of the room*

Panther Tenebrae: Aaw, Ichi~ I know you would save me~! *hugs Ichigo*

Ichigo: *sighs*

Thanks for reading this and reviews, pretty please! Those just makes me happy ^.^ But see you in a next fics later on ;)

-Panther Tenebrae