In My Heart

By: TheFifthCharmedOne

Disclaimer: I don't own Pokémon that belongs to Satoshi Tajiri, Game Freak, Nintendo, and TV Tokyo/Shogakukan Production Co. Ltd. I only own the idea and the plot. If any music shows up along the way, I don't own that either.

Summary: REPOSTED AND REWRITTEN! In my heart I hoped we were meant to be, and I wondered if he wanted that too. And even if he did….could he handle this? Pokeshipping and hints of Contestshipping.

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A/N: Okay, so, the reason I decided to delete the original version of this story is that I reread it and I thought it was going way too fast, and some of the character's lines were really cheesy and I just felt like editing it and making it all the better, or at least I hope I make it better.

Prologue: I Wish You Were Here

But it's too late, too late to call
Are you out there?
Too late, too much to say

Wish you were here
Wish you well
If you'd only share this hell
But you leave, and stains are left on me
I wish you, I wish you were here
I wish you, I wish you were here

-Wish You Were Here, Hey Monday

It's been a month.

A month since I've seen him, a month since we…

Oh, dear sweet Mew, what did we do?

"Ash, I wish you were here," I whispered. Rain was pounding against the window above me, and I was sitting on the diving board overlooking the Cerulean Gym's pool. I stared down at the water, watching my Pokémon frolic through the depths of it. Azurill sat in my arms, looking at the rain with a sad look on her face.

"Hey Misty, like, what's the matter?" I felt a little more pressure on the diving board and I saw my sister Daisy scooting nearer to me. Of my three older sisters, Daisy is the one who really spends time at the Gym anymore.

"Nothing Daisy," I lied.

"Come on Misty, talk to me." I didn't respond and hugged Azurill tighter. She sighed and then I practically heard her smile. I know, weird, but she was close enough and my senses are seriously out of whack. "Hey, did like anything happen between you and Ash?"

Oh, something happened all right… I thought.

"No, nothing at all." I said.

"Really?" she said coyly.

"Really." I replied.

"Are you sure?" she continued. I let out a groan of frustration.

"Yes, I'm sure! Can you PLEASE leave me alone?" I shouted in her face, and I accidentally lost my balance, falling off the diving board and into the pool.

"Azuuri!" I heard Azurill call before I hit the water with an unforgiving splash. I opened my eyes and looked around, and saw for the surface. I swam for it and took a huge gulp of air. Daisy was looking down at me fearfully.

"Are you okay?" she called.

"Yeah, sure, I'm GREAT!" I called back sarcastically. I doggie paddled over to the ladder and pulled myself out. "This is your fault!" I told her. Azurill saw I was okay and jumped up and down happily, so much that both she and my sister fell to the pool below. I couldn't hold back a laugh as Azurill jumped up and splashed us both, giggling like a crazy Pokémon. Daisy was livid, because the pool had messed up her hair.

"Oh get over yourself Day, you needed a shower anyway."

"Humph." she grunted. This was just what I needed, a good laugh.

-X-X-X-X-X-

Later that night, rain was still pounding viciously outside, and many people from neighboring small towns were coming here and Viridian City to stay until the flooding was cleared. I hope Professor Oak, Tracey, Mrs. Ketchum and all of those Pokémon are all right! Just to be safe, I stood up and….whoa….a dizzy spell hit me. I stumbled slightly, and held on to my headboard. My eyesight was fuzzy for second and then I felt nauseous. Running to the bathroom, I puked in the toilet, making a huge mess.

I flashed back to one month ago…to the night we…oh…my…

I felt like crying. This can't be…I…can't be…

I hugged my knees to my chest and sat against the cold tile of the bathroom, trying to take deep steady breaths. I leaned my head against the wall as the tears ran down my face. We…it wasn't supposed to happen like that…it...was a mistake…it…oh my….

When I finally got the strength to stand up, I tried to clean up the mess I'd made, but the smell just made me want to throw up more. That and the fact that I could not believe what was happening….

I have to be sure.

-X-X-X-X-X-X-

I looked out the window and saw the rain had stopped, and I could get to the Cerulean Pharmacy without a problem. I left my sisters a note and told them I was going to get dinner and left the Gym with some of my Pokéballs, just as a precaution. While I was walking, I took out my PokéGear and scrolled through it, wondering who to call.

Ash was definitely out of the question. I could never call him and worry him about something like this.

My sisters would never understand, or even if they did, they would just be judgmental, and that was NOT what I needed right now.

Then I reached May's number. That's perfect. May's my best friend, she'll help me, I know she will!

….But…I can't bother her. She's off in Johto, getting ready for the Grand Festival. I can't bother her with this, I just can't.

I went to the pharmacy alone.

The door opened with a friendly sound that sounded like a Chimecho and I looked around for the aisle I was looking for. I found it and looked at the different kinds of tests. They all looked the same, and I felt myself getting queasy again.

I held it back as best I could and grabbed a random test. I paid for it as quickly as I could and hid it in my bag. I stopped at the local pizza place and picked up a pepperoni and extra cheese pizza, my sisters' favorite.

When I got back to the Gym, I dropped the pizza on the table, ran up to my room and put the pharmacy bag under my pillow, hiding it from view. I wasn't hungry for pizza, but I brought it back just so my sisters wouldn't ask questions.

I sat on the side of my bed and pulled the test out from under my pillow. Twirling the box in my fingers, I bit my lip. Could I…really be pregnant? After…just one time? My first time?

And…if I am…what'll I tell Ash? Do I even tell him….? Oh, this is so confusing. I need some help, someone to talk to, someone that'll understand…

But before anything else, I have to see if I'm actually pregnant.

Going to the bathroom with the pregnancy test in hand, I looked around for a sign of my sisters, and there was none. I went into the bathroom and locked the door.

-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-

I paced through the room, waiting for results. When five minutes was up, I went over and saw the little plus sign.

Oh…Mew…

It's…..positive.

I'm pregnant.

"Ash, if you can hear me, I wish you were here, I wish I didn't have to face this alone." I whispered.

-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X-X

A/N: Thanks for reading! Please review!

~Charmed