I Wish I Was Her.

"I was gonna be with you forever. The rest of my life traveling in the TARDIS. The Doctor-Donna. No. Oh, my God...I can't go back. Don't make me go back. Doctor, please. Please, don't make me go back." Donna cried out begging me to let her keep her memory, but I couldn't. There was nothing else I could do now, short of letting her burn.

This won't break your heart
But I just think it could
Cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two

"Donna. Oh, Donna Noble. I am so, so sorry. But we had the best of times. The best." I whispered sadly as if that made up for what I was about to do. As if she would remember any of those moments we had shared. As if she wouldn't have to go back to being an average everyday temp. and never know what she had been before. "Goodbye."

I wiped her memory.

I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me

"I just want you to know that there are worlds out there, safe in the sky, because of her. That there are people living in the light, singing songs of Donna Noble, a thousand million light-years away, they will never forget her, while she can never remember." I told Wilfred and Sylvia vehemently trying to make them understand how much she meant to not only the world, but to other worlds as well. How much she meant to me, as a part of my world. "And for one moment, one shining moment, she was the most important woman in the whole wide universe."

Now I'm thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won't have to hurt anymore
Cause it's really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me my dear
And if they ever become too clear...

"She still is. She's my daughter." Sylvia retorted as if Donna had been perfectly happy before. As if she had ever listened to any of Donna's wants, needs, or dreams before.

"Then maybe you should tell her that once in a while." I stated because Donna had never believed that. She never believed that she was anything special. I hoped that things would change for her, my Donna Noble because she was brilliant. With Wilfred here, they might, but only if Sylvia let Donna shine.

I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me

"No, no, no. But every night, Doctor, when it gets dark, and the stars come out, I'll look up. On her behalf. I'll look up at the sky and think of you." Wilfred told me. If was good to know that someone was looking out for me.

Now you've gone away
Don't worry it's ok
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays

As I wandered around the consol alone I flashed back to Wilfred's earlier words.

"What about you, now? Who've you got? I mean, all those friends of yours...?" He had asked me and honestly I didn't know the answer to that. Who have I got? No one, that's who. Maybe it was better that way.

Where in the world have you gone now?

Sometimes I wished that I could forget.

Song: I'll Keep Your Memory Vague-by: Finger Eleven