Disclaimer: I don't own ER or any of the characters mentioned. I was inspired to write this after watching Under Pressure last night, its a bit of a drabble, and I'm not 100 happy with it, but I think it works relatively well. Reviews please. PS: I may have just made a huge step with the next chapter of Guilt so fingers crossed!

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Shaking.

Tears flowing.

Tremors.

Utter weakness.

Feeling like she's been trampled. She would know.

Curling up on the couch.

Angry that her world's been invaded.

Despising Daniel for what he's done to them.

Cursing whoever made up the on call schedule.

Wishing she'd been unavailable.

Hating herself for wishing that.

Cursing that she's a doctor, a surgeon.

Regretting that long made decision.

Cursing that she wasn't strong enough, that she let the tears fall.

Wishing she hadn't seen the snipers bullet impact.

Hating that her legs buckled afterwards.

Respecting Archie for his courage.

Envious of the love that Daniel had for Rebecca, so strong, so desperate.

Wishing that she had someone to share this with.

Longing for someone that she'd love that much.

Admitting to the weeks, months, spent pretending, hiding.

Recognising that she loves someone with that passion.

Realising that she's still running from that love.

Unfurling.

Picking up the phone.

Strength.

Calmness.

Dry eyes.

Steady.