Two months had passed on the island, and for some reason, Sawyer was becoming grumpier each day. With every passing hour, he sank further and further into himself. He no longer made excuses to accompany Kate and the others into the jungle, and prefered only to stay in his tent all day long, appearing only for a swim, and for some food. Adventures around the camp had been scarce. No one had disappeared, no one had been taken, no one had been found, and there was nothing to do. So it wasn't like he was making himself useless on purpose.

Kate remembered when she had found Sawyer sitting with that letter, and then she had watched in secret as he burnt it, but now, whenever she saw him, he was staring at another peice of paper. This one was smaller, perhaps a photograph like she saw Sayid looking at sometimes. She had asked countless times what was wrong with him, but even she had gotten no answer. She figured he was just angry at her because she was with Jack now.

Only Sawyer knew how much guilt was on that paper though. A photograph of the one person in life that he had left before he crashed. The last person he felt he could fully love. As far as he was aware, she had died in the crash. He had searched for her in the aftermath, even for a trace of her, but nothing was there. Not her belongings, not her. Every splatter of blood he had seen, he had dreaded it to be from her. He had disappeared into the forest at night, calling her name, hoping to hear a returning call, but had heard nothing. Now, after two months, he had been forced to accept the truth: she was gone.

So he let everyone believe he was on the plane alone. No one had asked him who he was with, so he hadn't told them. He kept himself to himself, and spread everyone elses secrets instead. He'd tell them every detail of his life if it meant that he could see her again though.

Nothing had happened, and he didn't expect it to now. He knew that Kate had disappeared the night before, and that she hadn't returned, so Jack and the others were organising a search team. He knew he should go, for Kate, but she had Jack now now, she didn't need him. So he got the shock of his life when Kate came stumbling out of the jungle one day; covered in mud, looking terrified, with someone he had long given up on..