Fate in a Trench Coat

Part 5

by Trycee

Time Frame: All Things, Season 7: Scully has to confront her guilt over the past.

Disclaimer: I do not own the X Files, its owned by Chris Carter and Fox. I wrote this for fun not profit.

***I first wrote this in August 2010 but I thought I'd update it.

Colleen stood in the back of the hospital room, a healer was standing over Daniel, and I stood next to Colleen, nervously pacing the floor and listening as the healer explained his method of healing, something I was very unfamiliar with. Dr. Kopeikan came in, "Dr. Scully, who do you think you are?"

"We have nothing but Dr. Waterston's welfare in mind here," I said.

Offended he said to me, "You're not his doctor."

"I understand that. What's taking place here is an alternative approach, " I said barely able to get the words out of my own mouth.

He looked at Daniel and then back at me. "Whats taking place here is a waste of time, Dr. Scully. And I think that Dr. Waterston would be the first to agree with me. Have you considered that?"

"I just wanted to help him, " I said, looking into Dr. Kopeikans eyes. "It seemed like nothing else was working."

"All due respect, " he said, pointing at me. "That is not for you to access. Its for me or Dr. Waterston's family to decide."

I nearly jumped when I heard her voice behind me. "Then let them continue," she said.

I turned to face Maggie, she walked right up to me and Dr. Kopeikan.

"If it isn't hurting him, we should at least be open to it," she said to the doctor.

She turned to look at me and I was grateful but I saw something in her eyes. The look of my old friend, the one I had betrayed.

The healer chimed in, "I'm afraid there's nothing more I can do at this time. This man quite frankly is ready to move on but something seems to be holding him back. Unfinished business is binding him to the physical plane, something he needs to release before he can let go."

I nervously looked towards Maggie and she met my gaze. I knew it was me. I knew it immediately that it was me. I went home still in a daze, I took a shower and tried to make myself some tea but it all seemed unreal, like a dream. I must've been dreaming because I saw myself going to Daniels bedside but when I looked at him I saw myself looking like I did throughout my cancer. I jolted out of bed and the phone was ringing, it was Maggie telling me she needed me to come to the hospital right away. She hung up before I could find out why.

I was very surprised when I saw Daniel sitting in the bed..."You were slipping away, no one thought you'd come out of this. I'm still in shock."

"Imagine my shock when my doctor told me about the voodoo ritual you'd arranged for last night. "

"I was afraid it didn't work," I said, nervously.

"Of course it didn't work, don't be absurd! Where'd you get this crap?"

I looked at him then. "Daniel that 'crap' may have just saved your life. Whether you're open to it or not!"

He shook his head. "That doesn't matter, I don't want to talk about that."

I looked off, my mind on Mulder.

"Look at me, " he demanded. "I'm gonna get well. We need to talk about what happens next for us."

"I spoke at length to Maggie," I told him.

He looked away from me.

"Its time, time that you took responsibility for the hurt you caused your family. Its no accident that you got sick, Daniel. You've been running from the truth for 10 yrs."

He shook his head more, "Dana, it was all to be with you, " he whispered. "You were all I lived for."

A tear was forming in my eye, "Maybe the reason you're alive now is to make up for that."

Maggie and I had sat for more than an hour talking about our past friendship and the betrayal I had caused her. I had asked her to forgive me for what I'd done. She told me she forgave me and I could literally feel the weight on my heart lifted. I was free and now it was time to tell Daniel how I really felt.

"Make it up to Maggie, " I continued.

He laughed. "That's Maggie talking not you."

"No!", I said staunchly.

He looked confused. I had never raised my voice in any way to him before. "I'm not the same person Daniel. I wouldn't have known that had I not seen you again."

Half in shock and half proud of myself for finally exorcising my demons, I felt free, freer than I had in many years. I turned behind me and found Maggie standing there. I looked one last time back at Daniel and I turned and walked away.

I sat outside the hospital as my mind replayed the events between Daniel and I, and that's when I noticed that time was again slowing down. I wasn't afraid anymore and that's when I saw her again, the woman in the trench coat walking. I jumped up to catch her this time.

"Excuse me, " I yelled, turning her shoulder around and somehow it wasn't her standing before me, no, it was Mulder in a trench-coat and a hat just like the woman had been wearing. How did that happen? I was surprise, elated, but still so very shocked. He explained to me that there 'was nothing to find in England, no case, a big waste of time' as he put it.

I sighed. "Maybe sometimes nothing happens for a reason."

He looked surprised. "What does that supposed to mean?"

I smiled. "Nothing...come on I'll make you some tea..."

We ordered a pizza and were waiting on it to arrive. I spent the time curled up right next to him, telling him everything that happened. This was a first for us, I typically held back my past relationships, my experiences with unknown phenomenon but this time I told it all. I had never felt more close to him than I did at that moment. I wanted to be closer but sleep overtook me and I fell asleep on his shoulder. I could feel the warmth of the blanket that he'd apparently wrapped me in as I laid on his couch. But then I felt his strong arms as he picked me up and placed me in his bed. God, it smelled like Mulder. I was half conscious when I felt him staring at me and I felt his lips brush against mine. I awoke to him kissing me softly like he had been waiting for a moment like this all of his life. I knew he couldn't resist. I couldn't resist either and I didn't want too any more. I knew he was the one, the only one and I didn't have anything to fear. I didn't need to hold back anymore. I could let myself be free, free to love this man openly as I had done secretly. There was no other choice for me. Mulder was it! He was my fate!

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