Just reread this story again. Hope you are able to update soon!

Still re-reading this fic often and love it more every time!

Fantastic! Please continue.

This is one of the best SVU fics I've EVER read! It's one of the best stories I've read, period! You are very empathic, introspective, resiliant, creative writer & person, lady .. I enjoyed (and also suffered a bit) every one of the 21 chapters. I LOVE how you worked through the old wounds in El & Liv's relationship (his retirement & abandonment of her especially) and how very real the process of gradual healing they had to go through in order to rebuild trust was. Your story is also magnificent for treading down dark paths bravely; your depiction of what it is like living with chronic pain, struggling with motherhood, slipping into depression and facing self-harm thoughts... You shed light on that all...it was hard to read at some parts, I admit, but how resiliant you made sure Olivia is, is what kept me going. It just kept coming to me: how come she hadn't considered seeking assistence from God? I mean I couldn't help but wonder if Elliot hadn't been there, her safety net, then I'm almost sure she would have taken her life already. People, as great support as they can be, aren't constant! They can get overwhelmed, get sick, they can die or not exist at all to begin with! That's why I kept thinking she desperately needed to find a connection to God..and to faith. I was depressed for quite a period of my life, and gradually it turned into self-harm and suicide ideation...I wasn't a religious person then (so I relate much to how Olivia wrestled with depression and its relatives) and I did feel the same hopelessness, purposelessness and loss...and I did try to end it all. Thankfully I failed. But that was when I found God ...when I had no one else, no purpose, no trust left in myself, no comfort ... He was there!... It didn't come easy but at least I talked to God and felt His presence and He held space for me to be angry, to complain, then to tell him I'm afraid and very very hurt...He was so very close I felt Him like a soothing blanket around me... And I cried my heart out! When I had the physical sensation that my heart was broken into pieces, He was the only one with me and there was so much love! You would think He'd be angry with me for what I've done (I expected it!) but all I felt back then was love and protectiveness... He grounded me and brought me back.
Wow, I guess I drifted into my own memories a little too deep here, forgive me. Faith is my pills since, so as to speak, ha! Thank you for a story that interacts with its readers so movingly. Please, please write more .. And think of publishing! You got great talent I would buy a novel like this (though I realize you'll have to change the characters) any minute! ... Hope you give it a go! ... I'm following your story so I'm looking forward to Ch. 22!
Love, peace & joy!

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Poor poor Liv! But at least she and Elliot know what's going on (finally!) and there's hope on the horizon. I adore this fic and can't wait to read the next chapter.

Yay! I was a bit close to the general answer, but I would never get the exact answer right

Please please PLEAAASE END HER SUFFERING! I am sure her recovery won't go smoothly (20 chapters of pure and raw suffering and pain made sure of that), but I really hope that at the end, she won't be feeling so much pain, ideally none at all. About twice a year I have this painful stomach ache that doesn't let me sleep, to the point I cry in frustration. I can't imagine being in pain 24/7 and never having a good night of sleep bc of it- so please, GIVE HER SOME SLACK

I’ve come to the conclusion that I must be a masochist because I’m hopelessly addicted to this story. It’s just so...painfully perfect.

It’s hurts, the way you describe her suffering feels so real and relatable, and yet there’s this level of comfort, hope even, that you manage to thread throughout the entire thing. It’s devastating...and beautiful.

I have never heard of this particular illness, or complication but it sounds horrific. I’m hoping for a little relief in the coming chapters. Liv needs it. Elliot needs it. I need it lol. The mystery is solved but there’s still so much unknown.

Anyway, I love this. Can’t wait for the next installment. I’m literally holding my breath.

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This chapter was very emotional and distressing at the same time, we can feel Elliot's anguish in the waiting room and also Olivia's fears regarding the dangers of surgery, nice to know that Noah is being well attended by Rollins. I was scared by the title of the chapter, but happy that she managed to do the surgery and had some success in the end. Looking forward to more chapters.

Poor Olivia. How frightening that must have been to go through. At least Elliot was by her side through it all, and they finally got to the bottom of what has been causing her problems all this time. I'm sure having to be rushed into surgery had to have been scary, especially with no guarantee that it would be a 100% solution to the problem. Her doctor is so caring and compassionate, and goes above and beyond to make sure her patient is cared for. Glad that Liv is resting comfortably after surgery, and Elliot is able to finally get some rest too. I know if he has his way, he won't be leaving her side any time soon.

That was painful and so well written. This fic is great! Really great!

I hope she's doing well and will be fine, without pain! She needs hope and be pain-free!

I’ve been a silent reader but this story is so good and emotional! I’m definitely relieved some answers were found and that Elliot is there helping her heal. Looking forward to the next chapter :)

Finally something positive happened! Love it, and I hope she will get better. Also they belong together so much!

wanna read more - thanks for writing !