Ocean of Ashes
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Joined 09-21-05, id: 900922, Profile Updated: 08-26-11
Author has written 34 stories for ER, Grey's Anatomy, Good Wife, and Downton Abbey.

First things first, thanks for stopping by and having a peruse of my profile. This probably means your eye has been caught by one of my stories, so thank you even more for that.

As you can no doubt tell by the graveyard of half finished stories abandoned below, I don't post a lot here anymore. If anyone has been left hanging on any of these stories, please accept my hearty apologies, but I simply don't have a lot of time for writing anymore, and what little I do have I try to spend on original work. However, every now and again a one-shot pops into my head and won't leave me alone so I haven't disappeared from here entirely.

In the unlikely event that you are interested, aside from writing, I spend my meagre spare time either with my nose in a book, rowing, drinking cider or listening to cricket on the radio, though I am yet to manage all these at once. I love travelling, and have a considerable list of places that I want to visit but never will because every time I have saved up enough for a trip somewhere, I know I'll be on the first plane back to Australia and New Zealand, because I just can't get enough of those places.

If you want to know any more about me or my stories, then please feel free to ask.

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University Challenge by Epea Pteroenta reviews
Modern university AU. Mary is an Oxbridge reject with a past, Anna and John are in the friendship zone, Sybil has a secret life out of school, Matthew and Lavinia are stuck in a rut, and Downton is owned by the National Trust. Drama and hijinks naturally ensue. Chapter 25: Over the summer holidays, Matthew and Mary navigate their new relationship.
Downton Abbey - Rated: M - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 25 - Words: 112,383 - Reviews: 781 - Favs: 307 - Follows: 553 - Updated: 12/25/2015 - Published: 8/15/2011 - Matthew C., Mary C., Sybil C., Anna S.
Never Such Innocence Again by Chickwriter reviews
June 1918. "All alone, with plenty of money, and a house in Eaton Square? I can't imagine anything better." It came too soon for her, and now Lady Mary Carlisle feels nothing. Definitely AU and positively M/M.
Downton Abbey - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 47,935 - Reviews: 288 - Favs: 385 - Follows: 242 - Updated: 3/12/2012 - Published: 9/25/2011 - Mary C., Matthew C. - Complete
Any Other World by Chickwriter reviews
When a badly wounded Matthew returns from the front, the only person he wants is Mary... but he doesn't know that.
Downton Abbey - Rated: M - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 7 - Words: 22,862 - Reviews: 99 - Favs: 257 - Follows: 52 - Updated: 9/5/2011 - Published: 8/3/2011 - Mary C., Matthew C. - Complete
You Can Sit Beside Me When The World Comes Down by Darling Pretty reviews
Addison helps Alex to deal with Ava. So when Addison ends up in trouble, Alex helps out, figuring he owes her one. Addison/Alex.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 24 - Words: 38,622 - Reviews: 157 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 35 - Updated: 8/14/2009 - Published: 4/17/2009 - Addison M., Alex K. - Complete
Path to Destiny by butterflyswest reviews
A chance encounter at his daughter's birthday party puts ray face to face with his past.
ER - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 41,344 - Reviews: 194 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 29 - Updated: 1/26/2008 - Published: 1/21/2007 - Complete
Orange Juice not Champagne by starryjen reviews
What happens after the season finale? Contains major spoilers, do not read if you've not read them. NeelaRay. Chapter 8 is M Rated.
ER - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 13 - Words: 10,813 - Reviews: 83 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 14 - Updated: 9/3/2007 - Published: 4/25/2007 - Complete
A Chance Encounter by GalaxyDuster reviews
Neela is off on a conference trip when she unexpectedly runs into Ray – and nothing goes quite the way she expects. All season 13 spoilers, and mild spoilers into S14, as well. Warning: Chapter 15 is rated M! Please read and review!
ER - Rated: T - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 17 - Words: 36,529 - Reviews: 264 - Favs: 74 - Follows: 42 - Updated: 7/16/2007 - Published: 5/12/2007 - Complete
Two Worlds by fphp reviews
Ray and Neela are in separate worlds...will they ever come together? Contains major spoilers for the season finale and next season.
ER - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 16 - Words: 26,119 - Reviews: 159 - Favs: 37 - Follows: 39 - Updated: 7/3/2007 - Published: 5/5/2007 - Complete
Airplanes & Hospitals by fphp reviews
EPILOGUE added. A visit from Neela's brother changes Ray and Neela's lives forever.
ER - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 9 - Words: 20,094 - Reviews: 64 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 15 - Updated: 5/4/2007 - Published: 3/28/2007 - Complete
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Crawley Blue Eyes reviews
2x05. 'Oh Matthew, how can you not see? Heroes are not heroes for their fair faces and blue eyes, beautiful though yours are.' 'No, it is generally their esteemed titles and grand estates.'
Downton Abbey - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 11,479 - Reviews: 12 - Favs: 41 - Follows: 6 - Published: 10/23/2011 - Mary C., Matthew C. - Complete
His box of medals reviews
They all knew what missing in action meant even though no-one was prepared to say it. He was not going to be found, mildly shellshocked and his memory blurred, in a Belgian field hospital.
Downton Abbey - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,742 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/27/2011 - Complete
A wet muddy hellhole reviews
This wet muddy hellhole was no place for the beautiful Mary Crawley, even if only in their thoughts and dreams.
Downton Abbey - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,345 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 1 - Published: 8/22/2011 - Complete
Streetlamps reviews
When she says 'use me' a thousand different ways in which he would like to do just that burst into his mind.
Good Wife - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,167 - Reviews: 18 - Favs: 42 - Follows: 11 - Published: 5/11/2010 - Will G., Alicia F. - Complete
A Dictionary in Progress reviews
A companion piece of sorts to "Greatness". Alicia reflects on how the person she is measures up against the person she wants to be.
Good Wife - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,764 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 6 - Published: 4/7/2010 - Alicia F., Will G. - Complete
Greatness reviews
Will reflects on how the person he has become measures up against the person he wanted to be.
Good Wife - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,760 - Reviews: 21 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 7 - Published: 4/5/2010 - Will G., Alicia F. - Complete
We die on the march reviews
Alex finds himself fighting a battle he doesn't know how to win, with help from a doctor who is a few steps further down the same path but with a formidable set of demons of his own. Grey's/ER crossover.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 6 - Words: 15,760 - Reviews: 32 - Favs: 10 - Follows: 19 - Updated: 11/18/2009 - Published: 8/6/2009 - Alex K., Addison M.
Be careful what you wish for reviews
Five years ago, I went to unforgivable lengths to not have a child with Mark Sloan. And now, suddenly... I have one." A tragedy brings Addison back to Seattle...
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Family/Romance - Chapters: 19 - Words: 32,010 - Reviews: 124 - Favs: 43 - Follows: 46 - Updated: 11/10/2009 - Published: 1/12/2009 - Addison M.
The Tenth Anniversary reviews
Second in my New York series, a short story about a particular anniversary that Addison, Derek and Mark can't help but share.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 4 - Words: 6,370 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 10/2/2009 - Published: 9/14/2009
Remember the Debutante Ball reviews
‘The Debutante Ball, Derek. The summer of 1985. Do you remember?’ History is written by the winners, and after one too many whiskies, Mark decides he has had enough of Derek's version of events. First of my New York Series, Mark/Derek/Addison of course.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,478 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 1 - Published: 9/6/2009 - Mark S., Derek S. - Complete
Back to the Beginning reviews
A prequel to Against the Odds. A slightly alternative Season 12 fic chronicling events that led up to the start of Against the Odds. When Michael proposes, Neela is faced with a hard decision.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 29 - Words: 72,544 - Reviews: 177 - Favs: 29 - Follows: 20 - Updated: 7/8/2009 - Published: 6/10/2007 - Ray B., Neela R.
Some nightmares you don't wake up from reviews
You make a decision when she tells you that the cancer is terminal and that its weeks not months that you’re going to be strong and hold it together for as long as she needs you to. Then, and only then, you’re going to fall to pieces."
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,585 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 2 - Published: 5/23/2009 - Alex K. - Complete
A Million Tides reviews
An indulgent expansion on Addison's dream in the latest chapter of my ongoing story, Be Careful What You Wish For, based on Alex and Addison's kiss at Joe's in Episode 3.12. One Shot.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,413 - Reviews: 6 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 2 - Published: 4/20/2009 - Addison M., Alex K. - Complete
You can run reviews
... But you can't hide. Alex Karev has unexpectedly swept all before him in his career, or out-Cristina'd Cristina as Izzie likes to put it, but it's been an empty success. He needs a new start, and it isn't going to be in California. Alex and Addison
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 34 - Words: 57,505 - Reviews: 265 - Favs: 67 - Follows: 34 - Updated: 4/8/2009 - Published: 7/20/2008 - Addison M., Alex K. - Complete
Hold the Dice and swear reviews
Ten songs, and ten moments. Ray and Neela
ER - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,585 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 2 - Published: 1/22/2009 - Neela R., Ray B. - Complete
Great Expectations reviews
Addison surprises herself with her choice of morning coffee.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 859 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 6 - Published: 12/5/2008 - Addison M. - Complete
I Am reviews
Short recollections from various characters on what has made them who they are. Hints of Addison/Alex, Izzie/Alex and by the time I'm done, probably a whole lot more besides.
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: K+ - English - Poetry - Chapters: 5 - Words: 2,575 - Reviews: 15 - Favs: 1 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 11/15/2008 - Published: 8/17/2008
Epistles of a Fragmented Friendship reviews
Letters that pass between Ray and Neela following the accident. AU in terms of season 14 timeframe but in terms of content isn't too contradictory.
ER - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 28 - Words: 44,551 - Reviews: 241 - Favs: 36 - Follows: 34 - Updated: 10/29/2008 - Published: 10/22/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
Whiskey and Fear reviews
Post season three finale. Lost after Ava's departure, Alex wanders aimlessly for hours until he finds himself seeking shelter with the one person he has left. Alex and Addison
Grey's Anatomy - Rated: M - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 6,441 - Reviews: 16 - Favs: 32 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 9/19/2008 - Published: 9/3/2008 - Addison M., Alex K. - Complete
An afternoon in Chicago reviews
A companion piece to "An afternoon in Baton Rouge". Severe season 15 spoiler warning.
ER - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 3,452 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 5 - Follows: 1 - Published: 7/6/2008 - Neela R., Ray B. - Complete
An afternoon in Baton Rouge reviews
Ray reflects... Beyond that I will not say as this goes with an extreme spoiler warning. Spoilers for Season 15 inside.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 2,078 - Reviews: 11 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 2 - Published: 4/29/2008 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
Power Cut reviews
After a simmering argument, Ray and Neela find themselves thrown together, pushing them to breaking point. Warning: note the rating please.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 4,427 - Reviews: 19 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 1 - Published: 4/19/2008 - Neela R., Ray B. - Complete
Pushing Charts reviews
Ray has always enjoyed being a doctor, but accusations that he doesn't take his job entirely seriously haven't always been amiss. One day though, something happens and he realises there's a lot more to it than just pushing charts.
ER - Rated: T - English - Angst - Chapters: 14 - Words: 34,169 - Reviews: 81 - Favs: 7 - Follows: 12 - Updated: 1/10/2008 - Published: 7/4/2007 - Ray B., Neela R.
The End reviews
Ray and Neela's story after the accident told through snapshots of the lives of other members of the team at County.
ER - Rated: T - English - Chapters: 13 - Words: 83,839 - Reviews: 97 - Favs: 31 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 8/10/2007 - Published: 4/13/2007
The Wedding Gift reviews
Neela is excited that Michael's tour in Iraq is finally over, and she plans a belated wedding gift as a welcome home surprise for him. But even the best made plans can go awry, and as always, Ray is there to pick up the pieces.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 3 - Words: 8,038 - Reviews: 30 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 7 - Updated: 8/2/2007 - Published: 7/29/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
London Calling reviews
A sequel to Against the Odds. When Lucy Barnett goes to university in London, she is vaguely aware that son of old family friends, Joe Kovac, is also there, but soon gets swept up in her new life. But will childhood bonds catch up with them?
ER - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 5 - Words: 12,305 - Reviews: 31 - Favs: 8 - Follows: 9 - Updated: 7/29/2007 - Published: 7/2/2007
Against the Odds reviews
A few months after Gallant dies, Neela gives birth, and finds motherhood, and coming to terms with her husband's death, hard. But there's someone who's willing to help her.
ER - Rated: T - English - Angst/Romance - Chapters: 27 - Words: 70,168 - Reviews: 303 - Favs: 68 - Follows: 30 - Updated: 6/13/2007 - Published: 3/22/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
Two can play at that game reviews
A fun little two parter set back in the day when Ray and Neela were roomies and life was a whole lot simpler
ER - Rated: M - English - Romance - Chapters: 2 - Words: 5,437 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 20 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 6/4/2007 - Published: 5/29/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
Bright Lights Pounding Feet reviews
They say, when staring death in the face, your life flashes before your eyes. Ray and Neela find out that's true.
ER - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 830 - Reviews: 20 - Favs: 9 - Published: 5/22/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
You set the tone reviews
Abby's thoughts and feelings at the end of her final shift as an intern, sparked by Carter's departure. Season 11 finale
ER - Rated: K - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,453 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 9 - Published: 5/10/2007 - Abby L. - Complete
Choices reviews
Begins in the episode Strange Bedfellows. What might have happened if, when Ray leaned towards her in the doorway, Neela hadn't turned away? Note the rating: applicable from the first chapter.
ER - Rated: M - English - Angst - Chapters: 21 - Words: 52,801 - Reviews: 148 - Favs: 55 - Follows: 20 - Updated: 5/10/2007 - Published: 3/15/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
Strange and Beautiful reviews
A brief oneshot regarding Ray's feelings towards Neela, roundabouts earlymid season 13.
ER - Rated: K - English - Angst - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,186 - Reviews: 4 - Favs: 6 - Follows: 1 - Published: 3/21/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
Home reviews
My take on how things pan out after 13.17. Obviously spoilers for up until then. This story is now complete.
ER - Rated: T - English - Romance - Chapters: 15 - Words: 28,033 - Reviews: 76 - Favs: 28 - Follows: 12 - Updated: 3/13/2007 - Published: 2/25/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete
Looking Back reviews
A snapshot of a much older Ray reflecting back on his life with Neela. Just a oneshot, please have a read and tell me what you think of it.
ER - Rated: K+ - English - Chapters: 1 - Words: 1,303 - Reviews: 9 - Favs: 7 - Published: 3/9/2007 - Ray B., Neela R. - Complete