Dear all my readers and reviewers and those who don't fall in either category:

I apologise for not updating for over... several months. I can assure you that I have not stopped writing. In fact, I am planning on removing all of my stories and redoing them, as I know that there are major points to be improved upon. I have been going through a crisis period, as some might call it, where I am trying to wean myself off fanfic (highly unsuccessfully might I add) due to the steep decline in my motivation and general work performance.

Some of you will be severe addicts like me - reading at least five to ten fics per day and spending minimal time sleeping. Others may not have reached that stage yet, and might avoid it completely. I warn you that the land of fanfiction is wrought with terrible demons and once you start, it's unlikely you'll stop. I would like to blame a large bulk of my problems on fanfiction, but I cannot. It is fanfiction and the stories that I write that reflect the problem within me, and to tell you the truth, I don't have the willpower to stay away.

I don't expect you to come away thinking Oh sob!sob! poor blossomed_angel!! I'd rather you threw sheep at me.

I once tricked myself into thinking that, by writing stories, I was satisfying other people like me, who craved a new story to spend hours fantasising about, to escape from whatever unhappy world they are in (I presume it is so since I doubt anyone with a sparkling fun life would spend hours pooling over fanfiction.net or other admirable fanfiction websites), or merely to forget the selves they hate so much and adopt a new role. I now know better. I am writing these stories, not for you, not to spite my oh-so-perfect family, not to reflect a rebellious streak, but to satisfy my own need to read such stories.

These fictions are my own creation. Writing them was a form of my own escape from reality, almost always during times when I felt depressed, hurt, suicidal, or mainly mentally unstable. Reading them brings me back to the euphoric state that I wander into when I dissolve into that other level where you are no longer who you are, but whoever the main character is. You come out of it, appreciating (almost) how your life is better than that, or how it is so similar, you're relieved that someone else out there must be going through the same thing.

At the same time, a happy ending to a story almost makes you believe that your own story will end happily. That is what I believe anyway. And so, my earlier fics tend to be very heartwrenching, very violent, and always happy at the end. I am now more realistic. A happy ending? Fat chance. It depends on you. It depends on what you make of your own life and how you perceive happiness. When you start seeing my fics with tragic endings, you know that those are the ones that were written in the past year.

I am rambling. Pardon me.

I don't expect anyone will read this. And if they do, I doubt that they will have made it even through the first paragraph.

In short, these stories are for me. I'm just saying to you that you're welcome to come along on the ride. See into my mind in the way my closest friends and family cannot. See the similarities in what I write and what you crave to read, and realise:

You're not alone.

With love,

~blossomed_angel~ (06/01/2007)

Old Profile:

"Obsession: a word used by the lazy to describe the dedicated" - ?

"an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind" - Gandhi

"Shoot for the moon; even if you miss you'll land among the stars" - ?

"we must believe in luck, for how else can we explain the success of those we don't like?" - ?

"I may be drunk, Miss, but in the morning I will be sober and you will still be ugly." - Churchill

"If at first you don't suceed, blame the teacher" - ?

"It's nice to be important, but it's important to always be nice" - Alyssa Milano

“How do you tell a Communist? Well, it’s someone who reads Marx and Lenin. And how do you tell an anti-Communist? It’s someone who understands Marx and Lenin.” - Reagan

"Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end." - ?

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not." - Kurt Cobain

"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live"- Dumbledore

"Reality's a nice place, but I wouldn't want to live there." - ?

"Winston, if I were your wife I'd put poison in your coffee."
"Nancy, if I were your husband I'd drink it." (Another Winston Churchill quote)

"depression is merely anger without enthusiasm" - ?

chocolate: the lip balm of the gods -- cool one. it's also a cure for depression (IMO).

When Voltaire was asked to renounce the devil on his death bed
"This is no time to be making new enemies"

"Before you judge a man, walk a mile on his shoes. After that, who cares? He ‘s a mile away and you’ve got his shoes!" - Billy Connolly

Experience is something you don't get until just after you need it. - ?

My HG/SS fics:

'Toy' - Completed at eleven chapters.

'Blind' - progessing, slowly.

'Emerald Fire' - also progressing - needs some major cleaning up

'Absolution' - Sequel to Toy as many have been requesting. I hope it is up to your expectations. I'm not 100 sure about it, but it's okay for the fics I have written so far.

'Please' - Completed One Shot. I really like this one in terms of idea. I think I might have been able to write it slightly better, but I'm not changing it. It's fine as it is.

HG/RL fics:

'Meant For Each Other' - Completed One Shot. This was my first HG/RL pairing. Don't shoot me because it's so unhappy. I wanted something unhappy so I wrote something unhappy. Deal with it. I edited out some of the more explicit bits for my readers' benefit.

My OC (continuation of sugarwhirl's original ideas) fic(s):

'Escape from Reality' - an exploration of a girl's journey through her teenage years. Normal + not-so-normal things mixed inside. It's also meant to be a show of a different perspective on the things that occurred in the first 5 books, on what could have happened at the same time. Please give this fic a chance, most people won't approach OC fics with a barge pole, but I find them more difficult that normal fics to write. At least, with normal fics, you know what the characters are like... -- being completely renovated / considered for scrapping.

Anyway, please go ahead and read, enjoy (or not), and review (tell me what you liked! And what you don't like!)

--blossomed_angel--