[Hazel can't forget. Thalia can't handle pressure. Nico keeps running. Jason is never the hero. Percy is okay.]

Title: I'm Not Okay (I Promise) or Why it Sucks to be a Child of the Big Three Unless You're Percy Jackson

Pairing(s): Percabeth, implied (past) Thaluke, Jasper

Summary: Percy seems to be the only one who has his shit together nowadays.

POV: third, Big Three Kid-centric

Warning(s): Possibly triggering (although I can't really see why), a little Percy-bashing but I still love him, Children of the Big Three-slamming(?)

Rating: Ehhh, mid-low T for cussing and such

Disclaimer(s): I don't own PJO or HoO yada, yada, and I also do not own MCR or their song titl. (although, if I did, I'd force them to get back together)

Notes(s): Title taken from "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" by My Chemical Romance. I wrote this as a charcter study thing for the Big Three Kids (I'll probabaly use that term a lot) because I haven't seen anything like that before and yeah...

"Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say, I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way"

Thalia is freaking out. She's completelytotally freaking out because her baby brother is gone.

And it's totallyhonestly her deadbeat mom's fault, because Thalia is nine-years-old and what is she supposed to do?

So she runs away {it's for the best} and she doesn't think about turning around ever again.

Jason is twelve and they want him to kill an animal and he totallydoesnot want to do the thing, but he's a Roman and that's what Roman's do.

{or so reyna said}

So Jason doesnottotally want to kill this cute, gold puppy but he has to.

{or so reyna said}

But he isn't one for rules, so he stuffs the dog in his pants, little, gold head flopping under his shirt as he runs backs to his quarters.

{screaming about how he needed to take a shit}

Jason ends up giving the puppy to Reyna, because puppy love.

Nico DiAngelo is ten-years-old and he totally just lost his sister when she left him.

{not that you're bitter about it or anything, death breath}

But she totallymaybe got sick of him just like everyone else does, so he puts on that aviator jacket and runs in the middle of the night, because he's ten and he just lost his sister and it totallycompletely sucks.

Hazel is nine and she absolutely doesn't want to be know as the colored witch's cursed child, so she sticks to herself and then she meets Sammy Valdez and he's kind and funny and loving.

So she's nine and she finally has a friend who isn't scared of her, but her mother won't let her see him after school and that totally sucks.

Maybe Percy has just been to Tartarus, a completelytotally grosslyscary endless pit, but he has Annabeth and that's enough for him.

Because Percy is the totallycompletelypowerfulinvincible Hero of Olympus and all he needs is the love of his life and maybe his mom and then he's okay.

"I'm not okay, I'm not okay, I'm not okay, you wear me out"

It taks him awhile to figure out, but Jason realizes he isn't going to be the hero.

{and he totally knows that after being knocked out for every battle}

Because Perseus is the one who get's to be heroic and happy, not Jason.

Jason even has a totallyamazingbeautiful girlfriend who totallyisnot the stereotypical Aphrodite kid, and Jason loves her for not being a stereotype.

But everyone expects him to be the "blonde Superman".

{leo even gave you superman pjs, right, studmuffin?}

Because he's Jason and he was named after one of the greatest heroes of all time, but he totallywillnot end up like the other Jason and everyone knows why.

Thalia Grace is fifteen and she's going to be the child of the Prophecy and Thalia Grace totallydoesnot need that pressure.

And Thalia is absolutelytotally tired as shit and she just needs a break.

{because she's just that close to breaking herself}

Nico is only- what? Thirteen?- when he's shadow-traveling and being stuffed in big, golden jars and being the only mature one.

Because he's the scary child of Hades and that's what kids of Hades do.

That's when he really starts to need Bianca (even though Hazel is there, it's just not the same) to do all these things because she was alwaystotallycompletely better at these things.

It's totallyepically not fair.

She's finally back from the dead without her mother who doesn't even know her and it's all thanks to Nico Di Angelo.

Hazel loves being alive, she honestly does, but sometimes her age catches up to her.

She doesn't know what a computer is or a Minecraft or The Walking Dead and that totally sucks because it's all Percy, Jason, Leo, and Frank talk about.

And it totally sucks.

Maybe Percy has just been back from Tartarus. Maybe he's been through Death Mist and an evil, darkness Goddess. Maybe Percy isn't totallycompletely okay.

But maybe he is somewhattotally okay.

Because he can visit his mom and kiss his girlfriend and see his friends and watch The Walking Dead (with the occasional Tartarus flashback).

Everyone else says it's totally not fair because Percy's supposed to feel like he just gave birth to a watermelon, but within a few days of being back, he's back to his normal self.

"What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems (I'm not okay)? I've told you time and time again, you sing the words but don't know what it means (I'm not okay)"

Thalia really hates being friends with a daughter of Athena sometimes, because, yeah, Annabeth is book and somewhat-street smart, but other times she just doesn't get it.

"How is screaming appealing?" Annabeth would say. "Sure, the guy has some deep lyrics, but screaming? You're a demigod, Thalia! I'm sure that screaming isn't something you'd want to hear."

But, Thalia totally wants to listen to Bring Me the Horizon and Green Day and the bands that Annabeth calls shitty, because the Gods mess with her life enough; she doesn't need a kid of one to dictate her music choice.

So, Annabeth hates Thalia's music choice, and Thalia cares.

"To be a joke and look, another line without a hook I held you close as we both shook For the last time, take a good, hard look!"

Jason is always passed out during the cool shit, the battles he should be leading.

Because he's a son of Jupiter and that's totally what sons of Jupiter do.

Thalia is the lietenant of the Hunters of Di- Artemis. Nico can summon ghost armies. Frank shape-shifts. Percy controls water and led a battle on Mount Olympus on his sixteenth birthday.

What battles did Jason fight on his sixteenth birthday?

Oh, yeah, none! Because he was knocked unconcious.

"But you really need to listen to me, because I'm telling you the truth; I mean this! I'm okay (trust me)!"

All of the Big Three kids realize, on Percy's seventeenth birthday, that Percy is really the only one who get's to be a little less fucked up.

Because he's the only one who isn't knocked out during fights, or dumb about modern-day technology, or bad at leading armies, or thirteen.

But then they all see that look in Percy's eyes, the one saying "I don't want to grow up and die", and they all totallycompletely realize that Percy isn't as fine as he says he is.

And Percy sees the looks of "I understand" and he smiles.

Then, maybe, just maybe, the five of them grow just a little more okay and a little less fucked up.