Do not own Orange Is The New Black or any of the characters.

Okay, so I know there is lot of stories out there now dealing with the aftermath of season 1. But I couldn't resist not writing my own thoughts on it. Takes place where the season finale left us.

Enjoy!

Snowflakes fell like fat, little pieces of white confetti. It was wet snow. The kind of snow one dreamt of as a kid. Not that fluffy cotton ball crap but wet, heavy, packing snow.

The good kind.

It came down in pelts, painting everything in pure whiteness. If this had been a different lifetime. A different place, Piper Chapman would have taken in the beauty of the snow. Especially, on Christmas. Piper always loved to see a white Christmas.

However, this wasn't a different lifetime. This wasn't Connecticut or New York City. This was Litchfield. And Piper Chapman wasn't Piper Chapman any longer. Well she was by name but inside, that was a different story.

She was changing.

No, she was changed.

Prison had changed her like Polly, Larry and her mother all seemed to point out every time they had visited. At first, she didn't know how to take this. But now, after everything that had happened, she didn't care. Being here had already taken everything away from her. Her old life. Her old self. She had nothing really outside the razor wire fences. Larry had left her. Her wasp of a mother didn't count. She could careless about her mother. Her mother only judged from her high horse when she was around. She hardly counted as someone she could turn to. She had no one. Except for Polly, maybe. But she had her own family now. She had Baby Finn to look after and care for. She had her own life to worry about over the mess that was Piper's.

She had nothing.

In the matter of a half an hour that day, she had her heart broken, twice. First with the phone call with Larry and then with Alex's public rejection. She was damaged goods and no one wanted her.

The snow was weighing down on Piper's shoulders like a wet wool blanket at this point. It was a blizzard outside. However, Piper took no notice of this as she fell back onto the heels of her feet. She was numb to the world around her. Her hands were stained in Pennsatucky's blood but she took no notice. Her skin was raw from the coldness but she could not feel anything. She was in no pain as she lay herself down in the winter wonderland around her.

The only sound that could be heard was the soft whistling of the wind in the trees near by and the soft grunts coming from Pennsatucky. Something had snapped in Piper the moment the Jesus Freak had come at her.

She had never been a fighter. She had only ever punched one person in her life and that had been her younger brother, Cal. She had been 12. She had sucker punched him in the face. Knocked his two front teeth out. She had just gotten her period for the first time and Cal, who had only been 9 at the time had revealed this in front of all of their older brother, Danny's friends, which one of them, she had been smitten with. But now, she could add two people to that list. Cal and now Pennsatucky.

The hillbilly hadn't put up much of a fight as Piper had pounded her fist into her face. She had hit her a good seven times before the adrenaline had begun to fade within her. And she feel back onto her heels. The hillbilly had finally shut up for once.

She didn't know if this was for good or not but she didn't care. Piper didn't care anymore about anything. She didn't care if Pennsatucky died or not. She didn't care with what happened to her inside or outside of Litchfield. She had no one to care for her. She had no one to give a crap about her or her well being. She had just herself.

Pennsatucky had been right, she wasn't worthy of no one's love.

She had nothing outside of this place. She was alone. She only had her thoughts to keep her company now. She had fucked up. She had fucked up with Larry. She had fucked up with Alex. And now neither wanted her.

She was poison.

Her love wasn't worth shit.

Tears stung her eyes but she quickly blinked them away as she closed herself off.

She didn't care what happened to her now. They could take her away to SHU. Add to her time. Send her away like they had with Miss. Claudette. She didn't give a fuck as she turned off the world and looked up as the snow fell over her. Surrendering herself to the cold. Her wrist was bleeding heavily from where Pennsatucky at stabbed her but she felt nothing. No pain. No grief. No sorrow. No fear.

She was a shell as she turned herself off to the world.

"Please just kiss me," whispered Alex to Nicky.

The two inmates had skipped the pageant and had sneaked into the showers together. After she had rejected Piper, she had been feeling down in the dumps. She wasn't feeling guilty about telling Piper to fuck off. But she wasn't feeling to happy about it either.

Alex was confused. She didn't know what to feel anymore when it came to Piper. She loved the woman. She fucking loved the woman. But she hated her all the same. That woman was a narcissistic, sexy, fucking sexy, bitch. And the love of her life. No matter how hard she tried, she could never stop loving the blonde. Piper was like her drug. She couldn't get away. No matter how hard she tired to get clean, she always came running back. But this time would be different. Or so she told herself.

The last time Piper had broken her heart, she had turned to booze and drugs to numb the pain. However, she was a recovering addict now. And didn't have either in her possession. So she turned to the next best thing, sex. Sex was what she was good at. It's what she knew best how to do. She took pride in this fact. And as she stood in the shower stall with Nicky just a mere inches away, it was all she had. It was still one of the few pleasures she had still in Litchfield. They couldn't take it away from her. That and her books.

Her green eyes bore into Nichols's brown ones. There was hesitation as the other woman appeared back at her. Nicky was questioning her. She was sceptical of Alex's request to kiss her.

Yes, she had fingered her earlier on her bed. Yes, she had enjoyed it. But that had been her Christmas present to her. A friendly gesture. Nothing more. Nicky knew that Alex was still deeply hung up over Piper. And she knew that the woman's feelings wouldn't change anytime soon. If there was one thing that Nicky Nichols was, a rebound wasn't it. However, she wasn't one to turn down a beautiful woman, either.

"Are you sure Vause?" asked Nicky, waiting for reassurance from the tall raven headed beauty before her. However, before she knew it, Alex had her hands firmly on either side of her face and was kissing her. Kissing her with such raw passionate, it took Nichols by surprise for a second. She stood there limp as Alex's tongue pushes it's way into her mouth.

But she soon returned the affection.

Alex felt Nicky's hands on to her waist as her own clench the massive mane of blonde curls. Their kisses were hot and wet. It was all fire and passion between the two of them as Nicky pressed Alex's body against the tile of the stall. They were deeply lip locked as Alex ran her hands down Nicky's sides and sliding one into the waistband of her pants.

In that moment it was just the two of them. They were lost to the world as they continued to touch, grope and explore each other's bodies. They both weren't thinking of anything as they allowed the other touch to take over.

"I want to eat your fucking pussy," came Nicky's hoarse voice in Alex's ear suddenly. Her brown eyes gleamed with lust as she smiled at Alex before dropping suddenly to her knees. Alex nervously licked her swollen lips as she stared down at her feet, watching as Nicky pushed down her pants and white cotton panties, revealing her bush of black pubic hair.

"So the rug does match the drapes," observed Nichols as she smirked up at Alex, who smiled in return. The two women locked eyes with one another for a second before Nicky turned her attention back onto the work of art before her. She placed her hands softly on Alex's thighs, gently widening her stand by a mere inch or so. She licked her lips tenderly as she trailed the finger of her right hand towards the centre.

Alex found herself closing her eyes and bending at the knees as Nicky slide her finger into her. A wave of pleasure immediately washed over her. It felt so good. Just like it had earlier when Nichols had fingered her.

And just like earlier, it didn't take long for Chapman to fill her mind. She couldn't shake her. A whimper escaped from her lips as she felt Nicky's thumb brush up against her clit at the same time as another finger entered her. Her hands pressed up against the tiled walls of the shower stall, bracing her self.

Nicky quickly deepened her touch on Alex. Her fingers pushing deeper into her wet, sobbing pussy. She could tell she was close to coming as the walls of Alex clenched around her fingers. She moved her fingers in and out of her for a few moments longer before completely removing them.

Alex's green eyes opened at once at this. Was that it? She hadn't come yet. She peered down at Nicky with a questioning look on her face. Was that all she got?

Nicky just smirked at Alex for a second as she brought her fingers up to her mouth and licked at the juices on them. Her smiled deepened as the sweetness filled her mouth. She tasted even better then she had imaged she would. Licking her lips, she locked eyes once again with Vause and motioned for her to come down. She liked pussy and all but she wasn't going to strain her neck for it.

If Alex wanted more, she would have to come down for it. And she did.

Alex quickly slide her back down the wall until her bare ass made contact with the cold tile floor. She raised an eyebrow at Nichols. Was she happy now? She had done what she was told. She wanted her reward.

Nicky smiled at Vause before she went down on her.

Alex let out a soft moan pleasure as Nicky's lips covered her. Warmth spread through the pit of her stomach. Her green eyes watched Nicky as she worked wonders on her for a moment before closing her eyes.

Chapman once again filling her thoughts. This time it wasn't just the image of Piper's face reflecting back at her but of a particular moment in their history. It was when the relationship had been new. When Alex's addiction had begun. It's when she first realised that she was falling under the spell of Piper Chapman, falling deep deep in love with her.

Piper's blue eyes were wide with hesitation as she kneeled in between Alex's spread out legs.

They were in Piper's lame excuse of an apartment she was renting out.. Alex, wished rather that they were back at her lavish penthouse in New York, spread out on her California king bed instead of Piper's small full one. However, they weren't in New York. But in Northampton, Massachusetts, where Piper was working as a research assistance for one of her old professors at Smith. It was the beginning of January and classes had yet to resume from winter break, yet. Alex was just in town for a few days before heading off on her next adventure to Spain. It had been three months since they had met at the bar. Three months of slowly getting to know one another and building a relationship. They didn't get to see each other much with Alex's job and such. But through email and phone calls and Alex's visits to Northampton between her travels, they made it work.

"Look, Pips, you don't have to," whispered the older woman as she reached out and lightly touched Piper's hand, which was resting on Alex's thigh. This was the first time they were being intimate with one another. Usually during her stopovers in the city, she would stay at some lavish five star hotel, seeing Piper for dinner and such. But this time, Piper insisted that Alex stay with her, in her cramp studio apartment.

Before this night, they hadn't done anything really but kiss and make out. Alex knew that she was Piper's first relationship with a woman and she wanted to go slow. She didn't want to scare the girl away. She didn't push her when it came to sex. Usually, Alex would had sealed the deal by now. But with Piper it was different. She didn't want to rush into anything that the younger woman wasn't ready for. Alex was perfectly happy with just kissing for now. They had all the time in the world to get to know each other on a more intimate level.

However, this was Piper's idea. She wanted to move to the next level. She insisted she was ready for it.

And so Alex had happily obligated.

They had already made love twice. Both times with Alex going down on Piper. She didn't want her to worry about pleasing her. She had been more then thrilled to make the night just about Piper. She could listen to her come all the time. It was music to her ears to hear the young woman scream, pant and moan with pleasure.

However, once again Piper insisted. She wanted to return the favour.

"No, I want to," whispered Piper in reply as she locked eyes with Alex's green ones. She smiled at her. "I...just don't...know how to..." Her voice trailed off as she dropped her gaze onto the small triangle of fabric peaking out from the space between where Piper sat and Alex's pussy.

Alex let out a slight chuckle at this. "Just do what comes naturally," she explained, "Just think of giving head."

"Giving head?"

"Well, not really but you know what I mean. Just do what you like to be done to yourself," continued on Alex as she lifted her head off of the pillows and once again locked eyes with Piper.

Piper didn't say anything but simply nodded her head in reply before lying down on her stomach. Her hands rested on either side of Alex's hips. Alex had her knees bent and legs wide, waiting for her.

The older woman was already hot and bothered just by feeling Piper's breathing on her. Her green eyes watched as Piper slowly licked her lips and took in the sight of her bare pussy. She hadn't even touched her yet and she was already feeling herself get wet. She just looked so damn sexy there, lying between her legs. She couldn't help herself. Her eyes were dark with desire as Piper stared back at her.

Being with a woman was so different then being with a man, thought Piper to herself as she breathed in the sweet aroma of Alex. But different good. She never thought pussy could smell so good as it did at this moment as she burred her nose into her centre. She couldn't get enough of it.

Alex let out a small yelp as the tip of Piper's nose suddenly brushed against her. A shiver of pleasure ran down her spine.

Piper immediately lifted her head up at this in worry. Had she done something wrong? Had she hurt Alex?

Noting the girl's concern, Alex smiled encouragingly, motioning for her to continue. She was fine. She then watched again as she licked her lips and fussed her brows in concentration.

Piper was now thinking about if it would taste as good as it smelt. She didn't ponder this thought for to long before making the discovery herself. She started at the bottom and licked slowly upward, like a kitten lapping up spilt milk. She repeated the movement, once again taking in the sweet taste of her. Noticing that Alex's eyes were still watching her, she winked at her before once again nuzzling her face into her. She took this moment to plant a kiss on her slit. Her lips brushing ever so softly again the sensitive skin.

Alex couldn't help but smile as excitement filled within her. She could tell this was going to be one hell of a ride as Piper continued to tease her.

Piper continued to kiss Alex's pussy softly until Alex couldn't take it any longer. She needed to feel her inside of her. She needed more. Alex was practically buckling up from her seat on the bed. She was trying to steady herself and allow Piper to go a slowly as she wanted too but she was finding it harder then she thought. With every touch of Piper's lips, she carved more, desired more, needed fucking more. She let out a shudder breath as she closed her eyes and tried not to get too overexcited.

Noticing the affect she was having on her, Piper smiled to herself before kissing her harder on the clit.

Alex let out a deep breath, as she felt her cover her clit.

She moaned slightly as Piper licked at her again, roaming her tongue along her entire pussy before sliding the tip of it into her opening.

Alex moaned again, louder this time and longer as Piper's mouth continued to work her. She had imagined what sex with Piper would be like since she had met the blonde. But never in her wildest dreams did she think it would feel like this...so good...so wonderful. It took her by surprise that this was her first time going down on a woman.

One of her hands clenched at the bed sheets beneath her as the other one clasped at the long blonde hairs, pushing her down further on her. The heels of her feet digging into the mattress as her hips lifted slightly off of the surface of the bed and pushed against her mouth. What her tongue was doing to her, felt so good. Her eyes were closed shut as her mouth hung open as pleasure spread like fire through her...

Her orgasm was loud and powerful as her hand gripped at Nicky's mane. Her eyes were closed shut. Her mouth hung open as she cried out with pleasure. "Ppp...Piii," she whimpered in ecstasy as her body surrendered.

Nicky watched as Alex came. It was always a beautiful sight to see a woman climax, she thought to herself as she planted one last kiss on the now throbbing skin of her sex before leaning back on her heels. She couldn't help but look smug at her work as she wiped Alex's juices from her lips. It had been a very merry Christmas for her so far. Twice in one day she had gotten to make Alex Vause come.

Alex continued to keep her eyes closed as she waited for her heartbeat to slow down, for her breathing to become normal again. And she came back to reality. Disappointment filled her but she didn't let it show on her face as she opened her eyes and looked across to the woman She had forgotten that it wasn't Piper who had caused her to orgasm powerfully but Nicky.

A small smile appeared on Alex's face as she continued to look on at her friend.

Nicky just smiled smugly back at her. "Man, you come quickly," Nicky couldn't help but be impressed by this, "It usually took Morello twice the time to. "

Alex face hardened at the mention of the other woman's name. It wasn't about jealousy or anything like that. It just made her realize that both her and Nicky were still deeply in love with other people. It made her sad to think that they couldn't move pass these feelings.

Neither spoke another word as Alex suddenly rose to her feet and pulled up her pants. Nicky watched her for a moment before following suit. She didn't question her as she stepped passed her and out of the shower stall. Normally, Nicky would ask for some. But knew better then to question Vause at the moment. There would be time for her next time. If there even was a next time? She wasn't sure as her and Alex walked side by side out of the washroom and headed towards the chapel. But that didn't mean she wouldn't try for a next time.

Alex adjusted her glasses on the bridge of her nose. She didn't dare to speak or look at Nicky as they walked side to side down the hallway. She felt shitty. For not only using Nicky for sex but for still thinking about fucking Chapman.

Stupid. Fucking. Chapman.

She really wished she had a stiff drink in her hand at the moment. She wanted to numb the pain that was aching in her heart. From the gaping hole that Piper had left there. As she tired to push away any thoughts of Piper from her mind, to shut off that part of her brain, Alex took no notice of the crowd of people that had gathered just outside of the chapel doors. It wasn't until she felt Nicky's hand on her elbow, indicating for her to stop, that she saw what was going on.

"What the hell?" muttered Nicky under her breath as the two woman stopped dead in their tracks and watched as the commotion broke out. There was yelling and people talking over one another. It was loud. Louder then usual.

The words Chapman and Pennsatucky were being laced together in the same sentences through out the crowd. Alex even swore she heard Taylor name in the mix. What on earth had gone done while her and Nicky had been in the showers.

A cold sweat washed over Alex at this. She didn't like the sound of all this. What the hell had Chapman done now? What sort of trouble had she put herself in? thought Alex angrily to herself. But she knew whatever it was, she wasn't going to be the one to help her out of it. She was tired of cleaning up Piper's messes.

The COs were yelling now over the cries of the crowds. They were trying to take control of the situation. "INMATES! DOWN NOW!" cried out Bennett as he pressed the red button on the side of the wall, sounding the alarm.

"Holy Fuck," murmured Nicky as she casted a sideways glance at Alex, who had gone very pale suddenly. "What the fuck did Chapman do?"

Thanks for reading. And please leave a review, letting me know if I should continue or not.

Julie