I don't own Harry Potter.

So, another Severus and Lily!

I was listening to 'Give my heart a break, by Demi Lovato. It was one line, "When your lips are on my lips, and our hearts beat as one," that made me think of this. Don't ask me how, I don't know how my mind works! Sometimes I just hear one line of a song, and it's like an electric shock to my brain, causing me to come up with an idea for a story!

I hope you like the first chapter!

One swear word in this chapter!

"Hey, sweetheart, get me another one, eh?" James Potter called to the barmaid. The barmaid obliged, sliding another shot across the table. James winked at the pretty blonde girl, and she seemed to melt in front of him, blushing a furious red before turning to help the other customers.

Lily frowned. this action was normal for James, but it bothered her. Lily remembered when she was like that, legs turning to jelly in James' presence, amazed that he even talked to her. His handsome features and confidant mannerism had that effect on people. But it didn't work on her anymore.

"James, can we leave now? I thought you said we were going out to dinner?" Lily asked. James had told her he was bringing her out for dinner, and they wound up at a bar instead.

"If you're hungry, have some peanuts," James threw the bowl of peanuts that was on the counter toward her, and they spilt into her lap.

"James," Lily said, getting upset now. "Let's go."

"Shut up, and let me finish my drink," James snarled at her, and Lily quieted.

"Honey," James called to the barmaid again. "We need more peanuts."

The barmaid came over and reached for the bowl in front of Lily to fill it, and James reached out a hand and placed it on her forearm.

"Listen, baby, if you want to hang out some time, let me know, okay? I'll be back around tomorrow night. We could do something together if you want." James offered. The girl looked down as James' tanned hand resting on her forearm and nodded. She seemed unable to look him in the eye.

"Right then," James let go of her arm. The barmaid left, hyper-ventilating slightly, but her full red lips were pulled into a wide smile.

"Did you notice that I'm right here, James? That you GIRLFRIEND is sitting right next to you watching you hit on another woman?" Lily said, angry at his antics.

"It's really none of your business," James replied coolly, getting up from his barstool.

"None of my business?" Lily screeched, and the talking in the bar stopped, and all eyes turned to the red haired woman at the bar. "When you cheat on me, yeah, I think that's my business!"

James grabbed Lily arm and snarled in her face. "Shut up, you little bitch. Look at the attention you're drawing to us. People are gonna think I'm no good."

Lily was going to say, "Well, yeah, that's because you ARE no good," but James dragged her out of the bar before she had a chance to reply.

He let go of her outside, and she rubbed her arm where he had tightly grabbed it. She could see James' fingers imprinted in her skin.

James suddenly whirled around and slapped Lily hard across the face. Lily fell to the ground and James stood over her.

"I keep telling you to stop questioning my decisions. But you never listen. It shouldn't matter to you if I hit on a hot barmaid. You sit their and keep your fat trap shut next time, you understand?"

When Lily didn't didn't reply, he slapped her again, and she felt angry tears sliding down her face.

"I don't know why you're such a jerk to me all the time. I don't deserve this," Lily cried, and she got to her feet.

James raised his hand to slap her again, but Lily turned on the spot and disapparated. She fell on the lawn in front of her house and curled up on the stoop, crying into her blouse. Why did she stay with him? She didn't know. Perhaps because she didn't want to admit to herself that she had made the worst decision of her life by going out with James. Tomorrow she would break up with him.

"You said that last week," a little voice in Lily's head said.

"This time I WILL do it" Lily said to herself.

"Oh, but you said that the week before last, don't you remember?" the voice said.

Lily sighed. Yes, she remembered.

She stood, and wiped her eyes. She entered her house, hoping her parents were eating in the dining room so they couldn't see the angry red marks on either side of her face.

"Lily, is that you?" Lily's mother called from the dining room.

"Yes."

"You're home early, did something happen?"

"No, I was just feeling a bit sick. I'm just going upstairs to bed, now. Goodnight."

"Lily," her father called. "I found something buried under the rosebush this morning. I unearthed it when I pulled up the bush. I left it on your bed."

Lily trudged up the stairs, wondering what could have been buried in her front yard. She entered her room curiously, and spotted a dark metal box on her white sheets. It was cold in her hands. 'To My Beloved Lily' was roughly carved in the top. Lily raised the lid of the box and peered inside.

It was full of papers. She took one out and looked at it.

'Dear Lily,

Today James Potter asked you out, and you accepted. It broke my heart, but what could I do? I tried to tell you how he really was, but you wouldn't listen. I want to save you from him, but you won't talk to me anymore. If only I had got to you sooner. I wish I could tell you how I feel, but I can't, and now you're with Potter, so it's over.

I just wish you knew that I love you, Lily, more then anyone else in the world, much more then Potter ever will. I'm sorry you got dragged in by Potter, Lily, but I hope you don't completely forget about me.

Severus'

Lily blinked. Severus? Severus Snape? The boy she had been best friends with until she had become obsessed with James? She picked up another letter.

'Dear Lily,

I tried to talk to you today about Potter outside Potions, but you didn't listen.

Black and Pettigrew came by and threatened me later on, warned me to leave you alone. So I guess I won't be talking to you anymore. But I still love you, Lily. Don't forget about me.

Severus'

She read more letters; they seemed to be like a diary, telling about events that had happened, wishes that Severus had, the life they could have together.

'Dear Lily,

I had a dream today. You were with Potter walking on the grounds, and I came over and pulled you away. You saw him for who he truly was, and I saved you. I took you far away, and you were happy with me. And you hated James.

Severus'

'Dear Lily,

Today was graduation day. I wanted to say goodbye to you, one last time, but Potter came over and kissed you. And you were happy. You have no idea how much I wish that was me, Lily. That was one the few times I've ever cried, Lily. Because I knew it would always be Potter, and not me. I am pushed to the side again. I am nothing. I am telling you now, in this next stage of my life, I will never get close to anyone else ever again, because you are the only one I will ever love, and no one can replace you.

Severus'

Lily finished reading all the letters in the box. The last letter read:

'Dear Lily,

I am leaving my parent's house, getting rid of all traces of this old, miserable life. I have a job, a new place to live, a fresh start. I will always remember you though, Lily. You were the only thing in my old life worth remembering.

I am going to bury these letters in your yard, because it will feel a bit like I'm giving you the letters, even though I know you will never read them. I have to go now, but I hope you don't forget me completely in your life with Potter. I love you with all my heart.

Severus'

Lily clasped the stack of letters in her hands, suddenly longing to see Severus. Why did she stop talking to him? He was a true friend. She didn't know how she never saw it before, the way he felt about her. Now that Lily thought about it, she remembered the way he looked at her, admired her, would do anything for her. Why didn't she see it? Because she was obsessed with James.

Lily fell asleep, clutching the letters full of her old friend's feelings in her hands.

Please review! I love this story so much, cause James is a real jerk in it, and he treats Lily like crap. Don't worry, Severus will come in soon!

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