Loss - Rose POV

A week had past and nothing happened. Not a letter, not a hello, not a single sign that he was alive.

Then a month passed and I wanted to write him a letter but I didn't want to be annoying and disrupt his life, so I kept silent and waited for a sign.

Three months have past, the whole summer holidays, and I couldn't control myself and sent him a letter asking him how he was and if he still remembered me. It's been a month since I sent him the letter and he hasn't answered yet.

Today I went back to count the days since the last time I saw him and I counted six months... It's almost Christmas and the only thing I can ask for as a gift is that he shows up, even if only to tell me that there is nothing between us anymore and that he likes someone else, or that he simply no longer wants to fight for me. I found myself buying a Christmas present for him and I thought about sending it by owl, but then I stuck it under the Christmas tree and told myself that if he wanted the present, he would have to come here and get it.

Now that I'm working I decided to buy a house for myself, the apartment is not very big, but at least is my space, and now that I work as an auror in the Ministry, my salary is enough to pay for this. I bought a Christmas tree and filled my time decorating my house, and I found myself not thinking so much about him. Now I've moved completely, and my house is covered in lights everywhere and Christmas decorations, and I have the Christmas tree right in the corner next to the fireplace. His present is beneath it and I haven't lost hope that he would come here to claim it, but he hasn't come yet, and Christmas is a day away, and I'm lying alone in my bed looking at the ceiling and thinking what went wrong, because even seven months later I can't get him out of my head, and even if I could, I don't know if wanted to.

Whenever someone rings the doorbell I find myself asking Merlin that he is on the other side of that door, but it's a needless request, because it never is, and I find myself wondering if will ever be. Now I have a picture of us on my lap and tears are streaming down my face and I promise myself that these are the last tears that will stream down my face for him, and I shove the picture on my bedside table and close the drawer and I find myself wishing that like I close the drawer, I also close the door that connected me to Scorpius Malfoy.

Forever.

A/N: So, things are not working out that well in school and I think I'm a bit depressive lately, so this came out. I honestly hope you like it, because at least writing is something I can do. I can't say the same about maths and physics, I'm probably gonna fail the year...
I hope you review, although I'm not really answering your reviews I read them very carefully. It's always wonderful to know what you think. Lots of kisses, and hope you're school years are going better then mine.