Hi guys! This is my first story EVER that I've published anywhere although I read the fan fiction on here every day! I tried to keep Sess in character but I think we all agree that a little fluff is hard to resist ^.^ ! anyway I hope you like it please no flames *runs and hides under covers* but constructive criticism and ideas are allllways welcome :) anyway enjoy. Arigato!

'It's so cold' I thought shivering in the thin kimono I wore. 'I'll have to see about a heavier one' I snuggled up against AhUn deciding to stick it out. 'Lord Sesshomaru will surely stop soon we've been walking since dawn!' as if on cue he spoke out in his smooth monotone voice.

"We will stop here"

Since I was 16 springs old that voice has been giving me shivers. I'm 17 now. I giggled watching master Jaken flop down dramatically in a heap.

"Start a fire Jaken" lord Sesshomaru said glaring. I giggled again. "Rin, there is a hot spring close by. Come."

Grinning I grabbed a bar of soap out of ahun's saddle bag and followed my lords broad back and silver swinging hair. I heard Jaken grumbling about "stupid human gets to go to a hot spring and I, mi'lords faithful servant of more then 100 years has to make a fire" I was in a great mood despite my aching feet so I playfully ran back to Jaken picking him up by his little arms and giving him a big smooch on his forehead. His instant shrieking was a source of great joy and amusment to me and I left his insults, skipping to my lords side giving him a wicked grin. He gave me a blank eyed stare but after being with him for little less then a decade I swear I saw a spark in his golden eyes and a ghost of a smile on his lips. Without a word he continued on and after a few hummed tunes and skipping, on my part of course, we arrived at the gurgling hot spring. It was almost more then I could bear. Practically moaning in sheer delight I ran to the edge of the steaming water plunging my dirt-crusted hands deep into its bubbling depths. I tossed a look over my shoulder at my lord just to see him, eyes closed in a meditating state, with his back to a large tree. 'typical' I sighed quickly stripping and slipping into to hot spring.

"ahhhh" I moaned. The hot water felt amazing.

I quickly set to work scrubbing my skin raw with the un-scented soap. Although I loved the floral soaps that my lord sometimes bought me I rarely used them for I knew they bothered his sensitive nose. 'Speaking of his nose..' I thought 'that nose has almost gotten me in trouble lately' one thing about living with the most powerful dog demon.. Most powerful demon period. was he could smell everything! And by everything I'm talking fear, sorrow, joy, anxiety….arousal. I was not an ignorant child. Although I loved to be outside surrounded by flowers, on a cold snowy winters day I lived in lord Sesshomaru's expansive library. After reading all the fairy tales and gardening books a young growing girl couldn't help but be curious about her growing body especially after that terrifying night when I had started my moons blood.

FLASHBACK

I woke up in a sleepy stupor.

"Ugh my stomach!" I yelped

I huddled over clutching my stomach. It felt like someone had put my insides in a whirlpool. 'Maybe a drink will help' I thought getting out of bed. As I walked toward my door I looked down and my eyes almost bugged out of my head. 'BLOOD' I thought hiking my nightgown up. 'There are no cuts?' I thought but I could see blood on my inner thighs. Suddenly new blood trickled down my leg. "More blood.. And its coming from down there?' 'Oh sweet kami I'm dying!' I thought suddenly sprinting out the door. 'Lord Sesshomaru will know what to do!' rounding a corner I came upon his door. Not knocking I banged in his room and threw myself on top of his bed. Apparently he had sensed me coming because as soon as I had slid his door open he had sat up. Crying hysterically I sobbed into his warm..bear chest.

"Lord Sesshomaru! Rin is dying! She is bleeding and it wont stop!"

I looked up when he didn't say anything

"My lord didn't you hear me! Help Rin!" I sobbed harder. Finally he spoke

"Rin, you're not dying. Where are you bleeding?"

I hadn't expected that question. In fact I was quite confused. Where? Why does it matter it wouldn't stop! I may of not been an adult but even my 14 springs old mind could see a pointless question! Finally I got my hysterical internal babbling under control and looked up into his blank expecting eyes. Didn't he even care I was dying right there on his chest!

"Um, well, Rin is bleeding down there where nurse Saki says is private"

I stammered embarrassed though I didn't know why. My maid Saki hadn't been very descriptive she had just said no one was to ever see or touch her there or her lord would be very angry. Did that mean she shouldn't tell her lord about it even if she was surely going to bleed to death from that place? Now she was nervous for a whole other reason. Looking up agitated my mouth flopped open when I saw my lords eyes! He looked amused!

"Rin, you're not dying. Bleeding from down there is normal for a growing ningen girl. It's just your body saying you can bear children now. Saki will tell you what to do tomorrow."

He said the whole thing calmly but I was still stuck on normal and babies. Babies! Wait I could have babies now! I loved babies! Their small hands and cooing were adorable! I had seen the little demon babies in the demon villages surrounding the castle!

"Lord Sesshomaru I want a baby!" I blurted before clamping my mouth shut almost eating my own tongue.

'Where did that come from!' I thought. I saw the small show of amusement flicker out in my lord's eyes. I was still cross-legged on his lap.

"If you want babies, you would need to find a mate. Do you want a mate?" he said monotone.

This was a whole new question to analyze. A mate?

"Do I need one to have babies?" I said. I was kind of confused.

"Yes" Was all he said.

"But I don't want a mate just a baby? Why does Rin need a mate to have a baby?"

Again his eyes shifted. How could anyone call him cold and unfeeling? To me I could sense all his moods through his eyes. The little spark of amusement and what I wanted to call relief was battling in his honey eyes. Relief?

"Lord Sesshomaru?" I asked, "If Rin gets a mate will she have to leave you? Rin doesn't ever want to leave her Lord Sesshomaru!"

"Yes Rin, when you take a mate you will live with him of course." He said still monotone.

Again I sat in contemplation. Lord Sesshomaru himself often took long silences before speaking so I knew he would wait for my mind to wrap around what he had said. Finally I got it, a way for everything to work out perfectly! I would get a baby, and stay with my lord!

"lord Sesshomaru, rin has a solution!" I looked up at him and he looked down with a blank expression. That was my cue to continue.

"You can be rin's mate! Now she gets babies and she won't have to leave you either!" I grinned triumphant. 'why does lord Sesshomaru have that look on his face'

END FLASHBACK

"CRACK"

I jumped out of my thoughts and looked towards the bushes by the edge of the spring. 'what was that' I thought crawling over to the bushes still dripping wet from the spring and naked. 'oops I probley should of put my kimono back on' I thought. 'oh well I'm already almost there.' And almost there indeed I was. I leaned forward parting the bushes. I screamed.

"AHHHH"

I immediately felt lord Sesshomaru's presence behind me and something flop over my back. A turned my head over my shoulder and saw my kimono. ' crap I forgot I was naked' I should feel a red hot blush soak my skin from the hair on my head to the tips of my toes. I quickly shoved my hands through the sleeves and tied it haphazardly before diving into the bush and cradling the object of my surprise. Lord Sesshomaru's eyes, if he ever really showed emotion, would of widened at what I was holding. In my arms I cradled a little Inu half-demon pup. When I had parted the bushes I had screamed because right there had been a little boy, with fuzzy silver ears, little fangs showing as his mouth that hung open, and big round brown eyes stared in shock at me. Looking up at my lord I murmured in amazement.

"Lord Sesshomaru, he's all alone. Where is his family?"

"perhaps his people disowned him. He is hanyou after all"

Lord Sesshomaru said it so cold and his perfect lips were pulled back a little in disgust. I immediately felt my eyes water and I stepped back. Lord Sesshomaru seemed shocked by this and honey eyes snapped up connecting with my watery ones.

"My Lord! He is just a pup! How could you say such cruel things he will die out here alone! Please allow this humble servant of yours to care for him! At least until…" 'until what rin' a voice in the back of my mind snickered. Full demons despise hanyous and humans as well. No one will take him.

"just please my lord let rin care for him!" I fell on my knees at my lords feet, cradling the boy to my breast.

"get up rin. You will NEVER fall to your knees to anyone again."

My lord sounded angry as he growled those words. He would never strike me I was 100% sure but still I hated the displeasure in his voice. I stood up on shaky legs protectively holding the pup and looking at my lord as he swimmed in my watery sight. He gave me a long blank look and turned around.

"come rin" was all he said.

Still holding the pup I took a hesitant step after my lord. I knew he knew I still held the pup but he did not stop and so I kept following him. In no time at all we were back at the camp. As soon as the fire came in view I could hear Jaken squaking adoring nonsense towards our Lord but I only had eyes for the warmth of the fire jaken had made and Lhe sleeping pup in my arms. I sat by the fire. When Jaken got around to throwing a glare towards me I looked up my hair no longer shielding the boy in my arms. I could practically see the insult he was about to throw at me dying on his beak.

"Wh-wh-what is THAT" he squawked scrambling over prodding the sleeping baby.

My mothering instincts must have kicked in because I slapped his hands away speaking softly.

"don't wake him Master Jaken he's sleeping! Haven't you ever seen a pup before" I grinned at the dumbfounded look on his face.

"Wh-wh-what did you just say! A pu-pup! Where di-did you find a pup?"

"He was by the spring Lord Sesshomaru took me to. He was all alone so I'm taking care of him." I explained patiently

"HE'S HANYOU!" Jaken squawked is disgust.

'What is WITH these people' I thought incredibly irritated all of a sudden. So irritated in fact that I slapped Jaken right across the face so a little red handprint appeared on his sickly green skin. I glared fiercely.

"do not talk about him like that! He's just a pup!" I whispered angrily.

Jaken looked shocked for a second. I had never hit him so seriously or so hard before. ever. Suddenly it must of hit him because he started throwing insults shrilly.

"how dare you filthy ningen wench strike ME. Right hand man of the great and feared lord Sesshomaru! You no good human child! You and the filthy hanyou deserve each other! Lord Sesshomaru should just kill you already and that disgusting creature to!"

I looked down afraid that the pup would wake up, and confirming my suspicions his eyes snapped open and he turned bright red before he screamed and whined. My eyes widened. 'what do I do, what do I do, WHAT DO I DO!' in the background Jaken was still screaming insults shrilly at me but all I could focus on was the red faced baby in my arms. Jumping up trying to ignore Jaken's painful barbs I cooed at the little baby holding him to my breast and jiggling from hip to hip. Suddenly a large thump was herd and all that could be heard was the quickly dwindling screams of the pup. I looked up when he had finally quieted down. Jaken was knocked out cold with a GIANIC red bump on his head and a head sized rock laying nearby. My eyes looked up from Jaken and again clashed with shuttered gold. Lord Sesshomaru was about 10 meters away and after giving me that weird look again closed his eyes.

"thank you my lord"

I whispered slowly walking towards him, and dropping about a meter away in front of him. The pup was silent and my lords eyes slowly opened and looked down at him. His hands were smushed against my breast and his ear kept twitching. Absent mindedly I reached down and rubbed his ear. He seemed to calm his restlessness after one more big 'flick' to which I giggled looking up at my lord.

"Isn't he cute" I said knowing Lord Sesshomaru would never say so.

"Hn." He said predictably closing his eyes. "Jaken was wrong." And with that he fell silent.

If I didn't know better I would say he was sleeping but of course I knew better. When I was younger sometimes, I would sleep leaned against him against his furry moko-moko, and just like when I was younger I crawled to his side with the sleeping pup and resting against his warm radiating heat. I didn't really wanna go near Jaken at the moment. What he had said about my..the baby and me hurt my feeling now that I thought about it, no matter what that my lord thought he was wrong. Curling around the pup and against my lord I quickly became drowsy. Perhaps it was just a half sleep delusion but I could of sworn I could hear my lord purr and nuzzle my head before I sank into a dark content warm sleep.