Disclamer: I own nothing from the Twilight universe. That belongs to Ms. Meyer :]

Ok, I know it's been forever, but for some reason I couldnt write :[ I dont like the way I did the last chapter, and it annoyed the heck out of me! But as is seems that you all like it, I wrote again lol.

This chapter is really really short, but its just a place holder for the next chapters, and to make sure that you all dont get lost later on.

5 years.

It's been 5 years since I've been human. 5 years since I drove to school. 5 years since I last had any normal food. And 5 years since I saw them. My extended family. The Cullen's…and my love.

I looked for them for a while, but that soon became useless. I knew I wasn't going to find them. It seemed that whatever god that was watching over me decided to be a bitch and leave me on my own. Every time I thought I was getting closer to them, I was actually getting farther and farther away. And the more I focused on them, the more I forgot other things.

I forgot my favorite food, my favorite class, my teachers, my friends. I forgot what it was like to be human, to smile like something wasn't missing, and I even forgot Charlie. I decided that it didn't really bother me that I couldn't really remember the little things. What's the point in remembering human things when you are no longer human?

My biggest fear was not remembering them. They were the most importatnt to me, I loved them all like they were my own family, which in a way they were.

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10 years.

10 years and they've faded.

The memories of them are gone. I guess the more I tried to remember, that faster I forgot.

Did I even want to remember? They left me didn't they? Or did I leave them? I can't remember.

My poor Jasper. I forgot him too. I forgot what he smelled like to me, the feel of his lips on mine, the sound of his voice, that sound of his laugh. I remember the name of course, but not much else. The worse thing though, was what I did remember. I remember the feeling of being with him. I remember the love, the sheer happiness I felt with him. It was worse because I didn't have him with me, have him near, and in my arms right now.

I just hope that one day I'll see him again, and everything I forgot will come back.

Like I said, place hloder! It's a kinda depressing chapter, but hey, wouldnt you be depressed if you couldnt find the one you love?!?! haha

Oh, and I'm sorry if my writing style has changed, its been like half a year since I updated and my writing has improved since then. Especially since I started this story in 8th grade and I'm now in 10th lol.

Next chapter comes out soon! Review!