A/N: This is Edward's version of "Why did you leave?" I had originally intended to add it on after "Why did you leave?" But I decided that it's best as its own story. So, here is "How could I leave?"
A/N2: A while ago, I added lyrics to "Why Did You Leave?" now I am adding lyrics to this one. The reason for the big gap in the addings is that I had to find lyrics that fit this song just right.
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight. Nor do I own the lyrics of "She Is" by The Fray.
Do not get me wrong I cannot wait for you to come home
"How could he! We didn't even tread on his land! The treaty was that we stay off their land; they don't reveal who we are! They just violated it! They broke it entirely!" I was pacing around Carlisle's office, trying to get him to see reason.
"Edward, we can't help the fact that they told the whole town. They only did it because, in their eyes, Bella is like their land. They justify it by saying we violated it."
"Bella is not property! She is my life my love, my everything! I can't leave her!"
"We have to leave Forks, the people will get suspicious. I promise that we will be back after everything settles down. We won't even sell the house. We'll just take the necessities and go to our other house in Alaska."
I growled. He was asking me to leave the thing that I cared about most.
"She is a magnet for danger! Who knows what trouble she might get into!"
"Bella will be fine, she's survived for seventeen years so far."
I had already lost this argument, anything else said would just be desperate pleas.
"I'd better go tell her goodbye."
"You're doing the right thing Edward."
For now you're not here and I'm not there, it's like we're on our own
My life in Alaska was horrible. My Bella was not here and it was like a big part of my life was missing.
We met another coven. The Sarido's. The three girls were sought after by every boy in school, but they ignored all of them. They were like us, they separated themselves by choice, not by rejection.
One of them asked me why I was so depressed all the time. I told her it was because I missed Bella. She seemed to understand.
I found it a little annoying that they all talked at once but said the same thing. I ignored them most of the time. The oldest one tried to flirt with me, in a pitiful attempt to make me feel better. It didn't even register. Rosalie had to point it out.
Rosalie just didn't understand why I was so depressed. Everyone else saw me and knew what I was suffering. Even if they had never suffered it themselves. Rosalie saw me and didn't get it. She may never get it.
Alice told me of every vision she saw of Bella. All of them included a depressed Bella, most of them included a tripping, falling, or otherwise hurting herself by accident Bella. I knew she wasn't hurting herself on purpose.
She turned down every invitation to prom and didn't even ask anyone to the girl's choice dance. It pained me to see that she never blushed anymore. She was hurting as much as I was. I didn't want her to suffer. I wished that I could take it away, but I knew I couldn't show up in Forks just yet.
She had lost the willpower to eat. I couldn't believe it. She was so skinny, it was unhealthy. I knew she wasn't anorexic or anything, she just didn't have the strength to eat. I was going to arrive in Forks to a sick, unhealthy Bella. How could she do this?
She was so pale, paler than usual. Her eyes were void of any emotion, save for depression. This had to stop. I had to go see her!
As I walked to Carlisle's room, I ran into Alice, she was having a vision.
"What did you see?" I asked as soon as it was over.
She showed me.
Bella was standing in front of a mirror in a beautiful dress. Her mom was talking to her, but the words didn't even seem to register. There was pain in my Bella's eyes. Her mom finished and left. Bella just stood there for a few more minutes before gathering up her things for a shower.
That vision was heartrending. I have to see her again.
A/N3: Well, there it was, more to come soon.