Diary of a heartbreak

Day one.

Well.. I feel really stupid. My birthday was last week and Ron being the sensitive male that he is bought me a diary. Just a plain one with cream pages. I don't trust books after my first year. But anyway Ronald gave me this diary and told me to write in it. So here I am writing in it. I dunno why I should but I feel a need to tell someone about this.

I have turned 16 and I am going into my sixth year at Hogwarts. Hogwarts is actually staying open even though Dumbledore was killed last year. McGonagall was elected as the newest Headmaster. I think I'll ask Hermione if she's going back.

Anyway. I suppose if I'm going to write in this thing I will tell you about him.

Him. That's the only way I'll refer to him. He is the love of my life. He and I had something special just last year and then he broke it off. He said for my own good but breaking it off was probably for the worst. It hurts too much. I would give anything to have him back.

My parents haven't noticed anything yet and Ron still thinks I'm with him. He asked me yesterday if I'd heard from him. I just shook my head and dashed back into my room. I cried for hours and hours. Hang on….

Sorry I have to go. Ron is calling me. He says he has some news for me.

Ginny

Later,

Arrrggghhh! I have just heard the news. Some was good so I'll tell you that first. I got my OWL result. I got 5 O's and 1 E. I was really happy though. But then Pig turned up with Hedwig! HEDWIG! HIS owl! And anyway Ron tells me that HE is coming to spend the remaining FOUR weeks of the summer with us! AND he's turning up TOMORROW! I have to spend FOUR weeks in his presence. There is no escape now. I can't even hide in my room.. Plus he's going to have a coming of age party isn't he so I will have to pretend to be happy for him. What am I going to do about him? I'm stuffed. Why did he have to do this? I'm going to bed now. I'm hoping that when I wake up in the morning it will be all a dream. And he won't be here.

Ginny

Day two.

Well.. Me again. It is seven o'clock and Ron said yesterday he would be here at seven thirty. I am hoping that it will be a dream. God tell me it's a dream. I suppose I should get out of my pyjamas before he gets here.

Stuff it. He doesn't care anymore. He won't notice me if I was naked. I will stay in my PJ's and I will stay in my room. I will not cry while he is here and I will not even look at him. That's it I will ignore him. Pretend he doesn't exist. And I will pretend that he isn't the person I fell madly in love with. Hah! I won't even brush my hair. Uhhh.. How pathetic. I really should brush my hair. And perhaps my teeth. And maybe I should have a shower. But I will get back into my pyjamas. Yeah that will do.

Ginny

Later,

OMG, it is 7:29. He will be here in a minute! I took a shower and I brushed my hair and I got into my favourite pj's. They're a tiny pair of shorts and a little tank top. They're black with a pink kitten on the front. They look good on me. Not that I care or anything. But I should think that Mum would be most disappointed if I was wearing something daggy. Yeah…

Oh, I just heard someone arrive downstairs. Do I go down? No. Ignore him. He doesn't exist that's right. Umm.. put the Weird sisters album on. Now!

Ok. I've calmed down. Well no I haven't but I can't hear him anymore because I turned up the music really really loud. La La La! I can't hear him! It doesn't go up any louder. Ok. Turn to that magazine that Mum bought you yesterday Ginny. Stop thinking about him.

Ok.

I'm back again. And I have just read Witch Chick. Mindless trash. Always talking about why people get into relationships and what's good about a relationship. And then other garbage like how to charm your eyelashes to look longer. Who cares about that when the love of my life no longer cares for me?

I'm going now. I will try the sleeping tactic again.

Ginny

Ten minutes later.

. I turned down the music and tried to sleep but instead I could hear what was going on downstairs. It sounds like Hermione's arrived too. I want to talk to her. But I won't. Because she's downstairs and so is he.

I can hear them still they're coming back upstairs. Music on NOW!

Again I have just turned on the Weird Sisters on full bore again. Let's hope they realise that I want to be left alone. They're coming up the stairs. I can still hear him. Hermione wants to say hello. She's coming to my room. Let's hope he isn't coming. Ok. Hermione's here. Phew. No him.

I'm going now.

Ginny.

Half an hour.

Hermione was a little bit shocked when she saw my attire. We talked for a while and I didn't say anything about HIM.. I wouldn't do it. She's gone now and I know that she'll be talking to HIM.
I know that I'll have to face him tonight at tea. Ron's coming back down the stairs. Hang on. Oh no. No. No. No. That's not fair! No don't come here. Why didn't I get dressed in something a little more appropriate? I can hear Hermione "Um.. Ron let me go and ask her. Ok? I think she might be asleep or.. busy."

She knows that I wouldn't have changed yet. Oh well. I better go see what my brother wants.

Later,

Oh great. I am going to tell you exactly what happened and then I am going to try and scream into my pillow. My brother opens the door and he strolls in without looking at me. Hermione and HIM follow him. Ron sits on my bed and Hermione takes the floor. HE sits on my wingback chair. Unfortunately it's beside my bed and I am suddenly sitting right next to him. Ron is first to get on the uptake of my appearance. "What on earth are you…" he trails away.

HIS eyes almost pop out of his head when he sees the lack of clothing on my behalf. But before I could even blink his expression was cold, hard and unreadable.

"Uh… Sis. Harry tells us he's found all the Horcruxes. He's coming back to Hogwarts. Isn't that great?"

I don't reply just continue to read my magazine like the fact that the newest pink mini-robes are so much more fascinating than the fact the wizarding world has practically been saved. Then Ron tries again, "Look, Sis I know that you bought it only last week but can we borrow your Weird Sisters album?'

I was thinking 'what! MY sanctuary from HIM! You can't have it." But begrudgingly I give it to him and tell him to leave me alone.

They slowly leave the room. HIM leaving last. He looks at me again and says, "Bye Ginny,"

I almost told him right then and there what he could do with his niceties but instead (being the good girl that I am) I just ignored him. He doesn't exist remember?

Anyway. I am off to do a bit of screaming before tea. With HIM!

Ginny.

Day Three

Good morning! Last night I wolfed down my chicken pie and vegies at top speed. I took off the second I had finished. Mum thought I had a headache. She brought a bowl of strawberry icecream up for me. HE is downstairs having breakfast. I am starving. Do I have breakfast? Hang on Mum's calling.

Oh. I'm going for a pancake now. I love pancakes. I can talk to Hermione about.. something. I will ignore HIM.

Bye.

Half an hour later,

Well that was horrific. I get downstairs. (dressed this time) and it turns out that Ron's still asleep and Hermione is upstairs still getting ready so I spent my entire breakfast with HIM! He was there and he was like, "Hey."

I just pretended to be to busy spreading treacle on my pancake to hear him. Or any other time he attempted at a conversation I would be clattering around with my orange juice or dropping my fork and knife on the floor or to make the most noise I would smack my fork onto the plate.

I gulped the last of the my orange juice and ran back upstairs. He looked faintly disappointed and offended as I left.

Anyway. I don't know why I ignored him. I had been hoping all summer that he would sheerly talk to me and he does and I just ignore him. I must be going mad any way I am just going to do something. Other than talk to him

Ginny

Day Four.

Sorry yesterday was so short. I was distracted. Last night I heard HIM tell Hermione and Ron that he had broken up with me. Hermione didn't say a sign'e thing throughout it all and at first Ron sounded like he was ready to punch Harry. I couldn't listen to anymore so I turned on WWN. Crappy trash. Anyway. I will tell you about what happened today. Mum asked me if I wanted porridge and I didn't want a repeat of yesterdays…. Event. So I told my that I wasnn't hungry and I skipped brekky (I snuck down later on to get some toast) Anyway I heard Hermione tell Mum that she too was feeling a little ill and she thought she might go have a shower. But as she climbed the stairs I heard her turn towards my room. She walked along to my room and came in without even knocking.

"Morning!" she says as she strolls into my room and takes herself a seat on my bed. She didn't say anything at first but she merely flicks through the magazine and spends an more than average time looking at the Witch Glitz section. Then she flipped over hair and makeup and I watched her in silence. Finally she turned to me and said, "Gin. Why didn't you tell meyou and Harry had broken up."

I didn't answer her because I was to busy trying not to cry. Then she goes, "Hey. It's OK. Did you hear anything of what Harry told me last night?" I shook my head and tears began to seep under my closed eyelids. Hermione smiled sadly at me and she pulled me closer and I let my head fall onto her warm shoulder alongside my tears. She held me like that until she heard the boys clattering up the stairs. Hermione gently peeled me off her shoulder and looked at me and said, "I'll come back tonight OK?"

And with that she left.

Once she was gone I felt ashamed and angry at myself. I had befouled this diary with HIS name AND I cried while he was here. I didn't move for the rest of the day. Ron knocked at my door and asked if I wanted to play Quidditch. I just told him what to do and he left. That night I skipped tea and I slept through my favourite programs. I read while everyone was having supper. And finally about ten I heard Harry declare he was tired. He began to traipse up the stairs. He stopped at the landing for a few minutes before he continued up to the attic. Ron and Hermione followed him up soon after and Hermione came back to my room.

"Hey." She whispered as she came in with her pyjamas on. Her hair was down around her shoulders and she looked comfortable

S he talked to me about HIM for a while.. Then she spent a while comforting me while I just sat there and cried. It was so hard to talk about him. It hurt to much. I let all the emotions that had bottled up over the past two months out. I think that was what I needed I felt so much better after.

Hermione left soon after that leaving me to mull over everything I had said. And that's when I turned to my diary again. And that's why I am writing again. I'm glad I have something to pour all these extra emotions into.

Anyway, I'm going to bed now. Maybe I can sleep on it and make everything better.