I wanted to put an author's note at the beginning of this story, because there are some warnings and some other things that I needed to say first.

To start off, I am going to warn you that this story is very dark. It starts off with someone's thoughts right before they take their life, and I tried to capture as much emotion as I could. If you are somewhat confused by the thought process, that is ok; I wrote it like that on purpose to show how emotions can be incredibly confusing when thinking about taking such drastic measures. Later chapters will show how everyone reacts to the death of a friend. This story just came to me the other night, and I really wanted to try and write what could be going through someone's head as they contemplate taking their own life, and how the people around them feel in the aftermath. It's emotional and vivid, so please, if you can't handle that, don't read.

Most importantly, I want to say that suicide is NOT the answer. I myself have dealt with thoughts of it, and I know that it is a very hard place to be. This story is in no way glorifying taking your own life, and you will see the negative effects take place in later chapters. I was very hesitant to post this after I saw how it turned out, because I don't want people to think that it is ok in any way. If you struggle with thoughts of depression or suicide, please talk to someone. I have never personally lost someone to suicide, so my portrayal of it might not be completely accurate. I hope that I do not offend anyone with this story.

Like I said before, suicide is not the answer. If you struggle with thoughts of suicide, talk to someone.

Rachel