Chapter 1: Jelousy
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It was his first day in High School, and even tough he was pointed as the President of the High School Department, even before he entered the level, Nokoru could still feel his nervous.
He realized that being the President of the Student Council this year would not be an easy job to do. There were many things he had to learn and asses in running the planned program by the former council. And the problem now was he had no one beside him that he could trust to assist him.
Being one year younger than him, his former Secretary, Takamura Suoh, had to stay in the Junior High School and still had a year to go to the High School. And so Ijyuin Akira, his Treasurer, he had two more years to go before he joined him in the High School Student Council.
Imonoyama Nokoru used to be alone, for loneliness had always been his friend. But this year, somehow he felt he was going to be lonelier than ever. Regretting for being older than his close friends, Nokoru entered his new classroom.
Ah.. New classroom. new classmates. new teachers.
Day seemed to run slower that it used to. Nokoru glanced to the classroom clock for the fifth time, and it still had two more hours till the lessons finished, and he had to go to his new Student Council boardroom. He sighed.. He understood that the new boardroom would not have much difference from his old one, and he had been in this kind of situation before back in the Junior High School.
It was the same like this, when he was graduated from the Elementary School, and had to be the President of the Junior High School. He was feeling a lot lonelier than this time, since it was the first time he had to separate from Suoh and Akira.
Now after they finally had been together again for the last one year, they had to separate again. He hardly could bear it.
He looked at the clock again. Obviously he could not concentrate to the lesson. He just wanted to finish his lesson as soon as possible. He made a few notes on his book, about his plan for the term, since there would be no Suoh to do it fro him. And after school, he would have to estimate the expenses, which it should be Akira's responsible before.
And at last, the lesson was over. How he glad it was done. He rapidly tidied up his desk, made sure there was nothing he would left behind, and left his class as fast as he could. There were many things he had to start to do, before the day fled.
***
Suoh felt his body was filled by laziness as he entered his new classroom, and as usual he could see from the corner of his golden eyes, few girls were chatting around with their eyes pointing at him.
Sighing, he thought it would another ordinary day. No matter where he was, he realized there would be some childish girls who would follow him around, asking questions, and so on. and so on.
The amazing thing was, those girls didn't know how much he felt annoyed. There were many times - as far as he could recall - he tried to ignore them all. Tried to withdrawn himself. but so far, nothing was effective. They came as if they were bees. searching for honey.
If only they knew he had someone already in his heart.. Someone he swore he would protect for the rest of his life. someone he wouldn't mind even if that One wanted to have his life.
Yes..
He loved him.. And he could never imagine what his days were going to be without his presence. And yet, the most stupid was, he couldn't express how his feeling was to that person. For he thought it would be the best for them both by concealing his truth feeling.
What matter to him was actions, not words.. As long as he could stay beside him, it was more than enough. And he was very thankful for that.
But now.
That person was out of his sight. Being separated in different school level frustrated him so much. He could hardly pay attention to his lessons. He could not eat, and sleep, and he nearly killed himself for not concentrating in his ninja training. Many times he was caught didn't listening to Akira's friendly conversations, and were busy wandering around his own mind.
He believed if this continuing, he would lose his sense. He would go insane.
But at least today he felt a little bit joy.. Thinking that in the lunch hour he would visit the High School Student Council boardroom to meet his Nokoru. To go to the High School District from the Junior High took one- hour journey using the linear car. So he had to make an appointment with Nokoru to have lunch together in the boardroom.
At first, Nokoru was surprised to have his request to have lunch together, since it was a quite long journey to spend just to get luch together. But he found a perfect reason for the request. He excused he had to check on his safety - which of course was a total lie - for he just missed him so desperately.
He was looking to the clock again and again, and started to think that someone must had sabotaged the clock for it was running so slowly like a worm. He was distressed. When this would end? Or might be he just had to lie to the teacher that he had been not feeling well at all, and requested to dismiss earlier.. But that would be useless. Nokoru must still have his lesson by that time. What would he do anyway while waiting for him? So, there was no other way for him - except to wait. patiently.
***
Nokoru finally reached his new boardroom. He reluctantly opened the big door, and stepped in. As he guessed it was very quiet inside the room, and no one was waiting for him. So this was what he was going to have day by day. No more fun, no more warmth. and moreover, no more. him.
He didn't know why there was a strange feeling in his heart whenever he though about him. A feeling that demanded him to wish to see him all the time, to spend every single second beside him, to only hear every single word of his mouth spoken, and most of all. to share his life.
Suoh.
His Suoh.
His blue-hared and golden-eyed Suoh..
His best friend, his protector, his brother, and his comfort. his souls mate. Perhaps it was true. Suoh was his soul mate, the other half of his soul. But he was afraid to hope Suoh would feel the same like him. And he didn't know why he believed that might be it would be the best for them both if Suoh didn't know how his true feeling was.
Anyway..
Back to work now.. He couldn't waste anymore time now. He used to. but since there would be no more help from his dear friends, he had to work it all by his own. No matter he liked it or not. As he put out some paper works from the folders to his desk - the huge President's desk - he began to sort them by categories. He sorted them into their priorities, and then by purpose, and so on. He was drowning in his business, and he almost didn't realize someone had been knocking for the door several times till he answered it.
'Yes. please come in.' Nokoru answered with his blue eyes still observing the papers.
He knew for sure it was Suoh who came as he promised to have lunch together. But he was startled when he lifted his angelic face to see his guest.
It was.
'Idomu!' Nokoru couldn't believe his eyes. It was Idomu, an old friend of him. But whatever the reason was.. he was here! Nokoru was so excited to see his friend returned. He jumped out from his seat, and he headed towards him.
'I- I thought you were studying your piano lesson abroad.'
Idomu smiled. He had changed so much. He had been taller than Nokoru and he had built an athletic body. 'Yes, I did! I just came back to Japan the day before, since the school is starting today, isn't it?'
'You. you what?! You will attend school here? In Clamp school?!' Nokoru couldn't believe his ears.
'Yes. I thought I had just said it to you.. Aren't you happy to have me back?'
'No. no.. Of course I am!! I'm very happy to have you back to our school! But why you didn't inform me before?'
'Actually, I want to make it as a surprise. So. here I am!!' Idomu widened his smile, and spread his arms.
Nokoru was so excited that he jumped in his arms, and gave him a hug. For the moment, he felt he would not be alone anymore. He could have Idomu to help him with the council's work, and how it would have so much fun.
Idomu coughed. Nokoru was blushing when he realized he was in Idomu's embrace. He stepped back awkwardly, and walked back to his desk.
'In that case, I am very happy to welcome you to our school.' He smiled.
Seeing his angelic smile, Idomu felt his heart was about to leap out from his chest. He tried his best not to blush in front of him. Slowly, Idomu walked to get closer to Nokoru.
'Well, I can see you have started your work already.' he observed the papers in the piles on Nokoru's desk.
'Ah. yes. I have to.' Idomu caught a little grief in his sparkling blue sapphire. 'This year I won't have Suoh and Akira by my side to help me out, so I can't waste time anymore.'
Idomu stared at him. 'Oh?! But why?'
'They haven't finished the Junior High yet.' He answered sadly.
'Oh. I see.' Idomu moved his body closer to Nokoru till he was nearly nose- to-nose to Nokoru. He felt it was so attempting to kiss Nokoru's lips. 'I can help you till Takamura came and assist you.'
'Really?!' Nokoru looked at his eyes.
Idomu nodded firmly as he moved even closer to him, and put his mouth right in front ear of Nokoru's ears. 'By the way. Don't you want to know why I come back?' he whispered.
Nokoru turned his head around to have a closer look to Idomu's eyes. There was a confuse in his eyes, but he remained silent.
Again for Idomu. Those lips were so attempting.
Idomu was about to kiss the blonde-hared boy, but he stopped just a few more centimeters from Nokoru's lips when the door was opened in a sudden.
'Kai- Kaichou.?!' Suoh disbelieved his eyes.
Both Nokoru and Idomu seemed startled with Suoh's presence. They separated in distance at once with their faces blushing.
'So.' Idomu choked. 'Takamura-san, nice to see you again. I hope you still remember me.'
For a moment, Idomu thought Takamura had become deaf, since he replied nothing.
'Yes. Of course, I remember you.'
Suoh was fighting so hard not to lose his temper. He wanted so much to smash Idomu's head just like smashing the baseball ball with its stick.
'What are you doing here?' Suoh's voice was cold and sharp, as he approached to the two boys.
'Well. Just have a little reunion with my dear old friend.' How he loved to observe the irritation feel in those golden eyes. 'Right, Nokoru?'
'Umph?!' Nokoru looked a little nervous. 'Oh? Yes! Idomu just come here! He'll be joining the High School since today. Isn't it wonderful?' He tried to smile.
Idomu grinned. It was obvious for him that Suoh disliked his return. Avoiding further confrontation, Idomu asked permission to leave. 'Well, I guess I'll have to leave now. I still have some more things to be unpacked, since I just arrived yesterday.' He walked to the door and passed the stunned Suoh.
Just before he walked out the door, Idomu turned around and looked at Nokoru. 'See you tomorrow then. I'll pick up you up after school. Just wait in front of your classroom.'
Nokoru nodded.
Then the door closed.
***
Soon after Idomu closed the boardroom door, Suoh hurriedly came towards Nokoru.
'What is he doing here??' He demanded the answer impatiently.
'Oh. Nothing. Just like I said before, he just returned and decided to join our school.'
'NO!!' Nokoru was startled with Suoh's reaction. 'I mean.. What did he do to you??!!'
'Do to me?' Nokoru tried not to flush.
'Yes.. He.. he was so close to you.. And it seemed..' Suoh paused. He was not sure he would continue his words. //It seemed he wanted to kiss you.//
'Anyway, I don't like him to get near you..' He sighed.
'Oh, Suoh.. You're just being paranoid. He's my friend now.. He may not harm me..' Nokoru smiled. 'Furthermore, he promised to help me with the council work.'
'WHAT???!!!' Suoh again disbelieved his ears. 'And you say..'
'Of course I said he is mostly welcomed..'
Nokoru couldn't continue his words, as he was shocked Suoh hit his desk loudly. Never before he was so angry and showed his emotion like this. Was he jealous?
'S- Suoh???'
He remained silent.
Nokoru worried by his reaction, so he moved closer to him, and put his hand on Suoh's shoulders. 'Are you alright?'
Unexpectedly, Suoh grabbed his hand, twisted it to the back of his body, and pressed him to the desk. He was so shocked that he wasn't able to fight back or tried to escape. He could feel his shoulder would be broken into pieces, but he didn't have any voice to scream for help either.
'S- Suoh.. It's hurt.. What are you do-.'
Nokoru stopped. He could feel Suoh's lips in his mouth. And that was beyond his expectation. He was shocked! But he could not release the kiss from him. Suoh kept on pushing his mouth into his. Nokoru believed he was nearly breathless. He pushed back the blue-hared boy's body with his other hand, but it ended with Suoh's tight grasp on his wrist. There was no way to fight back. As Suoh stepped forward to push him, Nokoru felt they were losing their balance, and finally they ended up on the floor. With of course.. Still lip-to-lip.
Finally, Suoh let go of his kiss to take a breath. He wanted to do that since long time before. But he didn't expect he would do it in this kind of condition. But he had to. for he didn't want somebody else would take his Nokoru away. He wanted him so much.. He wanted his whole.. His body, his heart, his passion.. He wanted them all..
All just for him only.
Nobody else could touch his Nokoru. especially Idomu..
He was jealous.
Nokoru was very shock of Suoh's action. Never before he acted like this. And he was very. very . scared. Nokoru was scared. He was terrified. He couldn't stop him, but apart of him didn't want to stop either. He was confused. What should he do? Could he runaway?
'Nokoru.' Suoh called his name.
He was startled. It seemed he had been wandering away form his mind and body. He refused to go back to the reality, but something pulled him to return. But he still refused to look back at the source of the voice.
'Nokoru, please look at me!' Suoh demanded. This time Nokoru could feel his voice stronger. It was an ultimatum for him, but he felt he didn't want to obey him.
Instead of it, he tried once more to escape from Suoh. He would do anything to release himself. to be away from him. He was thinking to cry out loud just like a baby, but that would be foolish. But the more he struggled, the tighten Suoh would hold him. Finally, he felt he couldn't anything more. He surrendered. But he refused to look at the man's golden eyes.
'Why is it so hard to have you looked into my eyes?' Once again Suoh questioned him with -of course - louder voice.
'Suoh. please. Please don't do this..' He answered weakly. 'I. I.'
'WHAT?! I just want you to listen to me.. Is it that hard?!'
Nokoru glared at him, which made the blue-hared man startled. He had never seen Nokoru's filled with such an anger before. Nokoru was angry. He felt the blonde man's body starting to tremble signing he would explode at anytime now.
'Since when.. ' Nokoru whispered. His voice was so weak that Suoh hardly could hear him.
'What did you say?' Suoh asked curiously.
'Since when I've NEVER listened to you?!!' He was screaming loudly. 'LET ME GO!!! NOW!!! I MEAN IT!!!'
Nokoru was terribly angry now. And never before he was angry like now, and it was more than enough to surprise Suoh that he faintly let go of his grasp, and stood on his both feet leaving the blonde man laying on the floor still. He tried to get up and stood on his feet, but he just couldn't. The experience being pressed by his bodyguard's body, and the shock he felt had not been over yet. His body still quivered, not because of the pain, but more because of his fear.
Suoh knelt down to help him stand up, but to Nokoru's stubborn personality, he pushed away his hands, and tried to get up by himself. He was so angry to him, and there was no way he would tolerate his actions.
He knew before he lost his temperance more, he had to leave the place soonest possible. He went back to his desk to get his bag, and started to leave the boardroom. But damned! Suoh grabbed his arm again. Why is it so easy for someone else to catch him?
'NOW WHAT DO YOU WANT??!!' Nokoru couldn't calm his voice. He was screaming at Suoh, which it was never happened before.
'LISTEN!!!' Suoh didn't want to give up.
'LET ME GO!!!! I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS!!!' Nokoru tried to twist Suoh's grasp.
'I SAID LISTEN!!!' Apparently, Suoh lost his temperance as well. He too became angry of Nokoru's behavior. He just wanted to say what inside his heart honestly. Was it wrong?
Nokoru remained still, biting his delicate lips, waiting for words coming out from Suoh's mouth.
'I. I.. know you are angry because of this.. But. but.. I just want. I just want you to know that..' He paused. Somehow it was hard to say it. He wasn't ready to say it, but he would never be ready. He had to say it sooner or later.
Sensing a chance to escape while Suoh was confused to pick the right words to say to him, Nokoru pulled his arm, and managed to escape. He didn't let Suoh to have a grab on him again. He ran to the door and tried to open it as fast as he could. He had to runaway. He had to leave.
But it was too late.
Suoh was faster than he was. And you wouldn't like to see his face. Suoh was extremely pissed off. He was trying his best to express his true feeling to someone he loved, but that person ignored him. Somehow it hurt his feelings. He banged the door with his palm so hard to keep it closed, and glared fiercely to the blonde man.
Instead of being scared, Nokoru glared him back. He was insulted. Never before someone would act so rude to him. the young master of the Imonoyama family. They wouldn't dare. Suoh had gone too far.
'What the hell are you doing?!' His voice was different. Not the calm and pleasant voice he used to give. 'I command you to let me out of here!!'
'Command?! So. Is that it? For you, I'm just your bodyguard, am I?'
'..' He looked away.
Suoh put away his fist from the door. 'Fine. If you want to runaway, you can.' He turned the door handle, and opened it.
Just before Nokoru wanted to step out of the room, Suoh continued his words. 'After all these times, I thought I know you.'
'Do you?'
'No, I just thought I know you. I thought you are a brave man, but you are just a coward. You only can run every time you face a problem. You are a coward.'
'What did you say?' Nokoru returned to approach him. His face was reddening, fighting his anger not to explode by that moment. 'Say it again.'
'You don't care about others' feelings. You just cared about yourself. You love yourself too much, you are afraid that someone will hurt you. You sealed yourself. You think you're rich, smart, perfect, and that everyone will happily serve you as a young master. You're WRONG!!'
'Stop it!! I don't want to hear it anymore!!!'
'You don't have to! You can run anytime you like. I've opened the door for you.. It is opened! You don't have to listen to me at all. Anyway, you've never listened to me. I'm just a DOG for you, am I? I have to follow your order! Am I right? Young master Imonoyama?!'
'Stop it. please. stop!' Nokoru couldn't bear it. He covered his both ears neglecting more words he had to hear.
But Suoh didn't want to stop. 'It is obvious for you, isn't it? I am just a DOG.' He paused. Not because he didn't have anything more to say, but it was because the sharp pain he felt on his cheek.
Nokoru had just slapped him.
His cheek was in pain, but he felt it was more painful in his heart. His love had just slapped him. But somehow he was awakened. He realized that he was too much. His jealousy blinded him. He must have hurt Nokoru's heart very much.
It was too late.
He witnessed the fear inside those blue eyes, and a great suffering. Nokoru's face was very pale as a death man's face. He was crying. Never before he watched Nokoru's crying. Even by the time he was kidnapped by the outlaws, he never showed his tears. Now. he was crying.
There was nothing he could do now. He did it.. He slapped him. Suoh hated him for sure now.. he lost his best friend now.. and it was his own fault. He wished it had never happened.
Might be Suoh was right. He was a coward after all. Perfectly a coward. First he cried, and now he was running away from him. He wanted to disappear. His heart was hurting. He could feel his face wet by his tears. 'I'm sorry..'
//Good bye, Suoh..//
He left him now. he didn't when he could see him again.. He just believed Suoh would be happy without him. He was a burden for him. He had always been a burden.
//I hope you are happy..//
Hurt.
To be continued -
It was his first day in High School, and even tough he was pointed as the President of the High School Department, even before he entered the level, Nokoru could still feel his nervous.
He realized that being the President of the Student Council this year would not be an easy job to do. There were many things he had to learn and asses in running the planned program by the former council. And the problem now was he had no one beside him that he could trust to assist him.
Being one year younger than him, his former Secretary, Takamura Suoh, had to stay in the Junior High School and still had a year to go to the High School. And so Ijyuin Akira, his Treasurer, he had two more years to go before he joined him in the High School Student Council.
Imonoyama Nokoru used to be alone, for loneliness had always been his friend. But this year, somehow he felt he was going to be lonelier than ever. Regretting for being older than his close friends, Nokoru entered his new classroom.
Ah.. New classroom. new classmates. new teachers.
Day seemed to run slower that it used to. Nokoru glanced to the classroom clock for the fifth time, and it still had two more hours till the lessons finished, and he had to go to his new Student Council boardroom. He sighed.. He understood that the new boardroom would not have much difference from his old one, and he had been in this kind of situation before back in the Junior High School.
It was the same like this, when he was graduated from the Elementary School, and had to be the President of the Junior High School. He was feeling a lot lonelier than this time, since it was the first time he had to separate from Suoh and Akira.
Now after they finally had been together again for the last one year, they had to separate again. He hardly could bear it.
He looked at the clock again. Obviously he could not concentrate to the lesson. He just wanted to finish his lesson as soon as possible. He made a few notes on his book, about his plan for the term, since there would be no Suoh to do it fro him. And after school, he would have to estimate the expenses, which it should be Akira's responsible before.
And at last, the lesson was over. How he glad it was done. He rapidly tidied up his desk, made sure there was nothing he would left behind, and left his class as fast as he could. There were many things he had to start to do, before the day fled.
***
Suoh felt his body was filled by laziness as he entered his new classroom, and as usual he could see from the corner of his golden eyes, few girls were chatting around with their eyes pointing at him.
Sighing, he thought it would another ordinary day. No matter where he was, he realized there would be some childish girls who would follow him around, asking questions, and so on. and so on.
The amazing thing was, those girls didn't know how much he felt annoyed. There were many times - as far as he could recall - he tried to ignore them all. Tried to withdrawn himself. but so far, nothing was effective. They came as if they were bees. searching for honey.
If only they knew he had someone already in his heart.. Someone he swore he would protect for the rest of his life. someone he wouldn't mind even if that One wanted to have his life.
Yes..
He loved him.. And he could never imagine what his days were going to be without his presence. And yet, the most stupid was, he couldn't express how his feeling was to that person. For he thought it would be the best for them both by concealing his truth feeling.
What matter to him was actions, not words.. As long as he could stay beside him, it was more than enough. And he was very thankful for that.
But now.
That person was out of his sight. Being separated in different school level frustrated him so much. He could hardly pay attention to his lessons. He could not eat, and sleep, and he nearly killed himself for not concentrating in his ninja training. Many times he was caught didn't listening to Akira's friendly conversations, and were busy wandering around his own mind.
He believed if this continuing, he would lose his sense. He would go insane.
But at least today he felt a little bit joy.. Thinking that in the lunch hour he would visit the High School Student Council boardroom to meet his Nokoru. To go to the High School District from the Junior High took one- hour journey using the linear car. So he had to make an appointment with Nokoru to have lunch together in the boardroom.
At first, Nokoru was surprised to have his request to have lunch together, since it was a quite long journey to spend just to get luch together. But he found a perfect reason for the request. He excused he had to check on his safety - which of course was a total lie - for he just missed him so desperately.
He was looking to the clock again and again, and started to think that someone must had sabotaged the clock for it was running so slowly like a worm. He was distressed. When this would end? Or might be he just had to lie to the teacher that he had been not feeling well at all, and requested to dismiss earlier.. But that would be useless. Nokoru must still have his lesson by that time. What would he do anyway while waiting for him? So, there was no other way for him - except to wait. patiently.
***
Nokoru finally reached his new boardroom. He reluctantly opened the big door, and stepped in. As he guessed it was very quiet inside the room, and no one was waiting for him. So this was what he was going to have day by day. No more fun, no more warmth. and moreover, no more. him.
He didn't know why there was a strange feeling in his heart whenever he though about him. A feeling that demanded him to wish to see him all the time, to spend every single second beside him, to only hear every single word of his mouth spoken, and most of all. to share his life.
Suoh.
His Suoh.
His blue-hared and golden-eyed Suoh..
His best friend, his protector, his brother, and his comfort. his souls mate. Perhaps it was true. Suoh was his soul mate, the other half of his soul. But he was afraid to hope Suoh would feel the same like him. And he didn't know why he believed that might be it would be the best for them both if Suoh didn't know how his true feeling was.
Anyway..
Back to work now.. He couldn't waste anymore time now. He used to. but since there would be no more help from his dear friends, he had to work it all by his own. No matter he liked it or not. As he put out some paper works from the folders to his desk - the huge President's desk - he began to sort them by categories. He sorted them into their priorities, and then by purpose, and so on. He was drowning in his business, and he almost didn't realize someone had been knocking for the door several times till he answered it.
'Yes. please come in.' Nokoru answered with his blue eyes still observing the papers.
He knew for sure it was Suoh who came as he promised to have lunch together. But he was startled when he lifted his angelic face to see his guest.
It was.
'Idomu!' Nokoru couldn't believe his eyes. It was Idomu, an old friend of him. But whatever the reason was.. he was here! Nokoru was so excited to see his friend returned. He jumped out from his seat, and he headed towards him.
'I- I thought you were studying your piano lesson abroad.'
Idomu smiled. He had changed so much. He had been taller than Nokoru and he had built an athletic body. 'Yes, I did! I just came back to Japan the day before, since the school is starting today, isn't it?'
'You. you what?! You will attend school here? In Clamp school?!' Nokoru couldn't believe his ears.
'Yes. I thought I had just said it to you.. Aren't you happy to have me back?'
'No. no.. Of course I am!! I'm very happy to have you back to our school! But why you didn't inform me before?'
'Actually, I want to make it as a surprise. So. here I am!!' Idomu widened his smile, and spread his arms.
Nokoru was so excited that he jumped in his arms, and gave him a hug. For the moment, he felt he would not be alone anymore. He could have Idomu to help him with the council's work, and how it would have so much fun.
Idomu coughed. Nokoru was blushing when he realized he was in Idomu's embrace. He stepped back awkwardly, and walked back to his desk.
'In that case, I am very happy to welcome you to our school.' He smiled.
Seeing his angelic smile, Idomu felt his heart was about to leap out from his chest. He tried his best not to blush in front of him. Slowly, Idomu walked to get closer to Nokoru.
'Well, I can see you have started your work already.' he observed the papers in the piles on Nokoru's desk.
'Ah. yes. I have to.' Idomu caught a little grief in his sparkling blue sapphire. 'This year I won't have Suoh and Akira by my side to help me out, so I can't waste time anymore.'
Idomu stared at him. 'Oh?! But why?'
'They haven't finished the Junior High yet.' He answered sadly.
'Oh. I see.' Idomu moved his body closer to Nokoru till he was nearly nose- to-nose to Nokoru. He felt it was so attempting to kiss Nokoru's lips. 'I can help you till Takamura came and assist you.'
'Really?!' Nokoru looked at his eyes.
Idomu nodded firmly as he moved even closer to him, and put his mouth right in front ear of Nokoru's ears. 'By the way. Don't you want to know why I come back?' he whispered.
Nokoru turned his head around to have a closer look to Idomu's eyes. There was a confuse in his eyes, but he remained silent.
Again for Idomu. Those lips were so attempting.
Idomu was about to kiss the blonde-hared boy, but he stopped just a few more centimeters from Nokoru's lips when the door was opened in a sudden.
'Kai- Kaichou.?!' Suoh disbelieved his eyes.
Both Nokoru and Idomu seemed startled with Suoh's presence. They separated in distance at once with their faces blushing.
'So.' Idomu choked. 'Takamura-san, nice to see you again. I hope you still remember me.'
For a moment, Idomu thought Takamura had become deaf, since he replied nothing.
'Yes. Of course, I remember you.'
Suoh was fighting so hard not to lose his temper. He wanted so much to smash Idomu's head just like smashing the baseball ball with its stick.
'What are you doing here?' Suoh's voice was cold and sharp, as he approached to the two boys.
'Well. Just have a little reunion with my dear old friend.' How he loved to observe the irritation feel in those golden eyes. 'Right, Nokoru?'
'Umph?!' Nokoru looked a little nervous. 'Oh? Yes! Idomu just come here! He'll be joining the High School since today. Isn't it wonderful?' He tried to smile.
Idomu grinned. It was obvious for him that Suoh disliked his return. Avoiding further confrontation, Idomu asked permission to leave. 'Well, I guess I'll have to leave now. I still have some more things to be unpacked, since I just arrived yesterday.' He walked to the door and passed the stunned Suoh.
Just before he walked out the door, Idomu turned around and looked at Nokoru. 'See you tomorrow then. I'll pick up you up after school. Just wait in front of your classroom.'
Nokoru nodded.
Then the door closed.
***
Soon after Idomu closed the boardroom door, Suoh hurriedly came towards Nokoru.
'What is he doing here??' He demanded the answer impatiently.
'Oh. Nothing. Just like I said before, he just returned and decided to join our school.'
'NO!!' Nokoru was startled with Suoh's reaction. 'I mean.. What did he do to you??!!'
'Do to me?' Nokoru tried not to flush.
'Yes.. He.. he was so close to you.. And it seemed..' Suoh paused. He was not sure he would continue his words. //It seemed he wanted to kiss you.//
'Anyway, I don't like him to get near you..' He sighed.
'Oh, Suoh.. You're just being paranoid. He's my friend now.. He may not harm me..' Nokoru smiled. 'Furthermore, he promised to help me with the council work.'
'WHAT???!!!' Suoh again disbelieved his ears. 'And you say..'
'Of course I said he is mostly welcomed..'
Nokoru couldn't continue his words, as he was shocked Suoh hit his desk loudly. Never before he was so angry and showed his emotion like this. Was he jealous?
'S- Suoh???'
He remained silent.
Nokoru worried by his reaction, so he moved closer to him, and put his hand on Suoh's shoulders. 'Are you alright?'
Unexpectedly, Suoh grabbed his hand, twisted it to the back of his body, and pressed him to the desk. He was so shocked that he wasn't able to fight back or tried to escape. He could feel his shoulder would be broken into pieces, but he didn't have any voice to scream for help either.
'S- Suoh.. It's hurt.. What are you do-.'
Nokoru stopped. He could feel Suoh's lips in his mouth. And that was beyond his expectation. He was shocked! But he could not release the kiss from him. Suoh kept on pushing his mouth into his. Nokoru believed he was nearly breathless. He pushed back the blue-hared boy's body with his other hand, but it ended with Suoh's tight grasp on his wrist. There was no way to fight back. As Suoh stepped forward to push him, Nokoru felt they were losing their balance, and finally they ended up on the floor. With of course.. Still lip-to-lip.
Finally, Suoh let go of his kiss to take a breath. He wanted to do that since long time before. But he didn't expect he would do it in this kind of condition. But he had to. for he didn't want somebody else would take his Nokoru away. He wanted him so much.. He wanted his whole.. His body, his heart, his passion.. He wanted them all..
All just for him only.
Nobody else could touch his Nokoru. especially Idomu..
He was jealous.
Nokoru was very shock of Suoh's action. Never before he acted like this. And he was very. very . scared. Nokoru was scared. He was terrified. He couldn't stop him, but apart of him didn't want to stop either. He was confused. What should he do? Could he runaway?
'Nokoru.' Suoh called his name.
He was startled. It seemed he had been wandering away form his mind and body. He refused to go back to the reality, but something pulled him to return. But he still refused to look back at the source of the voice.
'Nokoru, please look at me!' Suoh demanded. This time Nokoru could feel his voice stronger. It was an ultimatum for him, but he felt he didn't want to obey him.
Instead of it, he tried once more to escape from Suoh. He would do anything to release himself. to be away from him. He was thinking to cry out loud just like a baby, but that would be foolish. But the more he struggled, the tighten Suoh would hold him. Finally, he felt he couldn't anything more. He surrendered. But he refused to look at the man's golden eyes.
'Why is it so hard to have you looked into my eyes?' Once again Suoh questioned him with -of course - louder voice.
'Suoh. please. Please don't do this..' He answered weakly. 'I. I.'
'WHAT?! I just want you to listen to me.. Is it that hard?!'
Nokoru glared at him, which made the blue-hared man startled. He had never seen Nokoru's filled with such an anger before. Nokoru was angry. He felt the blonde man's body starting to tremble signing he would explode at anytime now.
'Since when.. ' Nokoru whispered. His voice was so weak that Suoh hardly could hear him.
'What did you say?' Suoh asked curiously.
'Since when I've NEVER listened to you?!!' He was screaming loudly. 'LET ME GO!!! NOW!!! I MEAN IT!!!'
Nokoru was terribly angry now. And never before he was angry like now, and it was more than enough to surprise Suoh that he faintly let go of his grasp, and stood on his both feet leaving the blonde man laying on the floor still. He tried to get up and stood on his feet, but he just couldn't. The experience being pressed by his bodyguard's body, and the shock he felt had not been over yet. His body still quivered, not because of the pain, but more because of his fear.
Suoh knelt down to help him stand up, but to Nokoru's stubborn personality, he pushed away his hands, and tried to get up by himself. He was so angry to him, and there was no way he would tolerate his actions.
He knew before he lost his temperance more, he had to leave the place soonest possible. He went back to his desk to get his bag, and started to leave the boardroom. But damned! Suoh grabbed his arm again. Why is it so easy for someone else to catch him?
'NOW WHAT DO YOU WANT??!!' Nokoru couldn't calm his voice. He was screaming at Suoh, which it was never happened before.
'LISTEN!!!' Suoh didn't want to give up.
'LET ME GO!!!! I HAD ENOUGH OF THIS!!!' Nokoru tried to twist Suoh's grasp.
'I SAID LISTEN!!!' Apparently, Suoh lost his temperance as well. He too became angry of Nokoru's behavior. He just wanted to say what inside his heart honestly. Was it wrong?
Nokoru remained still, biting his delicate lips, waiting for words coming out from Suoh's mouth.
'I. I.. know you are angry because of this.. But. but.. I just want. I just want you to know that..' He paused. Somehow it was hard to say it. He wasn't ready to say it, but he would never be ready. He had to say it sooner or later.
Sensing a chance to escape while Suoh was confused to pick the right words to say to him, Nokoru pulled his arm, and managed to escape. He didn't let Suoh to have a grab on him again. He ran to the door and tried to open it as fast as he could. He had to runaway. He had to leave.
But it was too late.
Suoh was faster than he was. And you wouldn't like to see his face. Suoh was extremely pissed off. He was trying his best to express his true feeling to someone he loved, but that person ignored him. Somehow it hurt his feelings. He banged the door with his palm so hard to keep it closed, and glared fiercely to the blonde man.
Instead of being scared, Nokoru glared him back. He was insulted. Never before someone would act so rude to him. the young master of the Imonoyama family. They wouldn't dare. Suoh had gone too far.
'What the hell are you doing?!' His voice was different. Not the calm and pleasant voice he used to give. 'I command you to let me out of here!!'
'Command?! So. Is that it? For you, I'm just your bodyguard, am I?'
'..' He looked away.
Suoh put away his fist from the door. 'Fine. If you want to runaway, you can.' He turned the door handle, and opened it.
Just before Nokoru wanted to step out of the room, Suoh continued his words. 'After all these times, I thought I know you.'
'Do you?'
'No, I just thought I know you. I thought you are a brave man, but you are just a coward. You only can run every time you face a problem. You are a coward.'
'What did you say?' Nokoru returned to approach him. His face was reddening, fighting his anger not to explode by that moment. 'Say it again.'
'You don't care about others' feelings. You just cared about yourself. You love yourself too much, you are afraid that someone will hurt you. You sealed yourself. You think you're rich, smart, perfect, and that everyone will happily serve you as a young master. You're WRONG!!'
'Stop it!! I don't want to hear it anymore!!!'
'You don't have to! You can run anytime you like. I've opened the door for you.. It is opened! You don't have to listen to me at all. Anyway, you've never listened to me. I'm just a DOG for you, am I? I have to follow your order! Am I right? Young master Imonoyama?!'
'Stop it. please. stop!' Nokoru couldn't bear it. He covered his both ears neglecting more words he had to hear.
But Suoh didn't want to stop. 'It is obvious for you, isn't it? I am just a DOG.' He paused. Not because he didn't have anything more to say, but it was because the sharp pain he felt on his cheek.
Nokoru had just slapped him.
His cheek was in pain, but he felt it was more painful in his heart. His love had just slapped him. But somehow he was awakened. He realized that he was too much. His jealousy blinded him. He must have hurt Nokoru's heart very much.
It was too late.
He witnessed the fear inside those blue eyes, and a great suffering. Nokoru's face was very pale as a death man's face. He was crying. Never before he watched Nokoru's crying. Even by the time he was kidnapped by the outlaws, he never showed his tears. Now. he was crying.
There was nothing he could do now. He did it.. He slapped him. Suoh hated him for sure now.. he lost his best friend now.. and it was his own fault. He wished it had never happened.
Might be Suoh was right. He was a coward after all. Perfectly a coward. First he cried, and now he was running away from him. He wanted to disappear. His heart was hurting. He could feel his face wet by his tears. 'I'm sorry..'
//Good bye, Suoh..//
He left him now. he didn't when he could see him again.. He just believed Suoh would be happy without him. He was a burden for him. He had always been a burden.
//I hope you are happy..//
Hurt.
To be continued -